Weekend Randoms

[abcdefu]

Of course I would wake up at 5 AM and not be able to go back to sleep. My stress level and anxiety level are through the roof. Plus I have my period accompanied by the cramps from HELL!

I am so stressed out about my leave of absence at work. I am a major control freak (yeah I own it) and I know I will worry the whole time I am out. I know I have to let it go, but GIMME ALL THE CONTROL!

In more positive news, I have been working on my positive self-talk, especially as I prepare for this next step. It would not be realistic for me to return to tabata or pilates, but I am making a promise to myself to work my ass off and to get my quality of life back. I know I can do it. I'm looking into pool therapy and maybe even swim lessons. I used to do zum.b.a. classes, but I found out there are gold classes with modifications. You guys, I have to do this. I have been so depressed and I just want my life back. I am vowing to make my 30's the fucking best and even though don't have a great support system off the board, I know you ladies are rooting for me (so don't tell me if you aren't! ). I just want to thank everyone for their good thoughts and prayers, as I enter into the next (and hopefully final) stage. I can do this!

[Eureka1984]

My thoughts and prayers are with you abcdefu

I didn't sleep well last night. I think I have caught the summer cold the kids had going around. Ugh! I'm hating today as I do many CEUs to finish. I feel like this weekend is going to be just as busy as the work week.

[Deleted]

I'm staying at my friend's house and it's super fun to see her! Her kids ended up both with level ten melt downs last night. I really don't get how parents do it. I would be exhausted. The kids are really awesome though just got overtired. Today is the baby shower. I'm in bed ignoring that the rest of the house is up. It's 7am! Way too early for my sleep loving self.

[glitzyglow]

abcdefu, your 30s will be amazing!

It is raining here this morning, which I don't mind other than the fact that it's so soothing it makes me want to nap. But I'm at work so I can't. After work I need to clean my apartment for my family's visit tomorrow; I also need to run to the store for a few household items I need anyway that will make their visit a bit easier on me.

I've actively been working on projecting a positive attitude this week and it really affected my work in a great way. I plan to keep working on this and my bestie and I talked about it last night and how we'll support each other in this endeavor. We don't plan to be, "OMG everything's awesome all the time!!" about life, but just work on being positive on a general note and breaking negative habits.

[sweetchix]

So my dry spell ended last night! Woohoo! I went out for lunch to celebrate 15 years with my company and some of us stayed after for happy hour. I had been texting my cousin's friend (27yo) again the last couple of weeks and he came over last night for a hookup. I needed that.

Picked up DDs from XH this morning. DD2 is being tutored right now. Then we're going to walk up Walgreens and make some pokestops on the way. We have a play date/swim date at 2, and then we're going to try to get to my mom's because my nephews got into town the other night and we haven't seen them yet.

Not sure what we're going to do tomorrow. Probably a pool day with the 4 kids.

I am off all of next week. We are in a severe drought. I feel guilty for not wanting it to rain at all when I'm on vacation because we really need it. Maybe if it just rained overnight???

[doglove]

Hang in there abcdefu!

Woot sweetchix! My dry spell ended last night and this morning and again this morning.... lol as well. Yay!!

[abcdefu]

Yay for SO ladies having all the sex!

[Mrs.Rad888]

Jul 16, 2016 9:22:51 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

abcdefu , your 30s will be amazing!

It is raining here this morning, which I don't mind other than the fact that it's so soothing it makes me want to nap. But I'm at work so I can't. After work I need to clean my apartment for my family's visit tomorrow; I also need to run to the store for a few household items I need anyway that will make their visit a bit easier on me.

I've actively been working on projecting a positive attitude this week and it really affected my work in a great way. I plan to keep working on this and my bestie and I talked about it last night and how we'll support each other in this endeavor. We don't plan to be, "OMG everything's awesome all the time!!" about life, but just work on being positive on a general note and breaking negative habits.

DH and I call that "counting the green lights." I think it comes from a self-help book. It's about focusing on the positive things that happen on a daily basis instead of the negative things. For example, a while back I was living in San Diego. Traffic can be horrible. I would occasionally complain about it, but I tried to appreciate the time I had by myself, because that hour was basically the only time I got to myself until the kids went to bed. That may be a little too Miss Sunshine for you, but just try to focus on the positive things that happen (count the green lights) rather than focusing on the negative things (counting the red lights). But most of all, don't punish yourself if you backslide, because we all have times when life just sucks.

[jenstar]

You always have a great attitude abcdefu so I'm sure your 30s will be ace!

I have been trying to focus on all of the things I'm grateful for in my life (there are lots!) and i feel like it's making a big difference in my mood overall. The start of last week was hard but I rejoined the gym and have gone 5 days in a row so I think that's helping things too.

Last night we had my nieces 21st birthday and I offered to take DS for the night because it's xh's niece and all our normal babysitters were at the party. He was happy with that and when he asked I said I'd drop DS back at 9 this morning. When I got there today only his gf was there and when DS asked she admitted she didn't know where he was. Clearly he'd been too drunk to come home with her.. (BTDT) She laughed it off but I don't think she'll be laughing when he's pulling that stuff and they have a newborn.. Why can't he just change already?!

[Deleted]

abcdefu, you know we're rooting for you!  You've gotten through so much and have done such an awesome job at keeping it all together.  It's not easy and it's totally normal to have down times.  I'm proud of you for how far you've come! 

[Deleted]

Sometimes I have moments when I feel like all of these changes in my life are surreal.  It's weird--this time last year we were thinking that we'd like to possibly move out of state and were planning a trip to visit here to see if we really thought we may want to move.  You just never know from year to year how things will change.  
Sometimes for a split second I have a thought about something that I sort of miss--sometimes just a familiar store or something--but it passes and I move on.  I'm thankful for all that I have.  
Ehh...life is weird sometimes.   I think moving has made me feel more like a adult and more in charge of my own life.  I'm thankful I have this board to bounce things off of and learn from. 

[doglove]

Are you sweating it out here in NC @blueyes623??

[abcdefu]

Jul 16, 2016 23:31:36 GMT -5 @blueyes623 said:

Sometimes I have moments when I feel like all of these changes in my life are surreal.  It's weird--this time last year we were thinking that we'd like to possibly move out of state and were planning a trip to visit here to see if we really thought we may want to move.  You just never know from year to year how things will change.  
Sometimes for a split second I have a thought about something that I sort of miss--sometimes just a familiar store or something--but it passes and I move on.  I'm thankful for all that I have.  
Ehh...life is weird sometimes.   I think moving has made me feel more like a adult and more in charge of my own life.  I'm thankful I have this board to bounce things off of and learn from. 

I agree with you. Life is so weird sometimes and can change so much in a short amount of time. Being in control of your own happiness is so very surreal at times.

I am also grateful for this board. The advice I have received here has helped me make decisions I would have never made, had I not found this board!

[glitzyglow]

My family will be here any minute. God I hope this goes okay since I barely know them.

My cat is driving me insane. He will not shut up unless I am holding him or petting him. I swear he's like this every month around full moon time.

[Deleted]

Jul 17, 2016 7:50:23 GMT -5 doglove said:

Are you sweating it out here in NC @blueyes623 ??

Seriously!  Last night was surprisingly cool after the rain!  I have to say...during the week while I'm at work I don't realize how hot it is because I'm barely outside.  But we went to a food truck thing on friday and within minutes, I was pouring sweat and my nicely blow dried hair was up in a messy pony tail!  LOL  

[midnightrae]

I am finally able to write about what my ex did to me/ how he treated me.

[1confused1]

Jul 17, 2016 21:34:32 GMT -5 midnightrae said:

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Hugs

[alleinesein]

I just submitted my grad school application. Now I get to panic for awhile to find out if they accept me or not. I did hit a snag with a transcript request and I really hope it doesnt screw things up. Apparently Iowa State will only do electronic transcripts and the school I am applying to did not have an email listed that can receive an electronic one. Hopefully the person I emailed will get back to me tomorrow so we can solve this issue.