How are you guys feeling tonight?

[fryjack2]

I brought my boys into bed with me at 3am. I can't stop the tears. How do I shield them from the hate? I can't. How do I convince them that what we believe and the love we have is stronger when it was just proven it isn't?

I fear for my Muslim family and my boys. For the rights of gay people, women, POC, immigrants, the list goes on.

This abhorrent person in not my president. He is not my children's president. I know his supporters feel no shame today, but they should walk around with a big scarlet T on their foreheads so I can better pick out the closet racist, xenophobes, assholes.

[sfy]

I just lost it on my husband. I know he hates to see me cry and I know he wants to fix things, but no one can fix this. He kept holding me and saying, "We're going to be fine," as I was sobbing and snotting all over the place. No, we won't be because they are going to ruin EVERYTHING. His economic policies are going to make Reaganomics look like they were kind to poor people. They are going to put the most extreme justices on the Supreme Court. I am afraid for everything. Voting rights, gay marriage, healthcare and abortion go without saying. We know what happens when women are forced to have children they don't want. They often grow up poor and neglected and crime rises. How many families are they going to tear apart with shitty immigration policies? We are all FUCKED because of fucking racist ass white people and all I feel right now is hate. I cannot believe that hate won. So no, we're not going to be fine. We can try insulating ourselves in a little bubble where we're in love and we're fine financially, but when everything is going to shit around us, that's not fine. It's horrific. I'm so miserable and inconsolable right now. I can't believe I have to get out of my fucking bed.

[skwcm80]

Nov 9, 2016 9:14:01 GMT -5 freedom said:

I woke up today with so much hate in my heart.

Me too. The thoughts I woke up with this morning are uncharacteristic of me. I'm trying to go high, but I'm having a hard time.

[sfy]

My coworker just asked if we could all agree not to discuss the election at our meeting today. My husband is asking me not to go, but there's no way I cannot go at this point. I would look crazy as hell. I have a call in 6 minutes and my voice sounds like death. It was so incredibly stupid of me not to take today off. Yesterday, I thought it was stupid because I thought I would be exhausted from poll watching and celebrating. What a difference a day makes .

[andwhat]

I tell you what I don't think I am doing a disservice to my DD by living in a black enclave now. I am going to keep her as insulated as much as I can.

[thejackpot]

Nov 9, 2016 9:40:14 GMT -5 andwhat said:

I tell you what I don't think I am doing a disservice to my DD by living in a black enclave now. I am going to keep her as insulated as much as I can.

Truth. 

My thoughts are not nice right now. I am fortunate that I probably won't run into a smug white person today. 

[05heel]

I'm pissed. I'm not allowing myself to be sad. Nope. Sorry white folks.

Integration is a failed experiment. It was never going to work, but it's not our fault. This election has shone a light on the roaches within our country. Let's watch them scatter. I hope more POC will turn inward to their own families and communities so that we can come back stronger in two years for the midterm elections. Black people have been far to kind to this country.

[raangoli]

Only you ladies understand how awful it was for me to wonder if my half Indian daughter can pass for white if it ever comes to that.

But then I told her that she needs to remind people that she's half Indian and proud as she grows older. And that even though things did not turn out the way we wanted, I will continue to fight and hope she does, too. So what if she's 9 months old and has no idea what the F I'm talking about, she will know what her momma stands for.

[andwhat]

Nov 9, 2016 9:45:47 GMT -5 05heel said:

I'm pissed. I'm not allowing myself to be sad. Nope. Sorry white folks.

Integration is a failed experiment. It was never going to work, but it's not our fault. This election has shone a light on the roaches within our country. Let's watch them scatter. I hope more POC will turn inward to their own families and communities so that we can come back stronger in two years for the midterm elections. Black people have been far to kind to this country.

Have you ever listened to Claude Anderson? My trainer kept trying to get me to and I listened to one of his speeches. He is big on how black people should not want integration and that if we would have focused on really being separate but equal we would be in a better place as a race. And we should have done like other immigrants and create our own supermarkets, banks/financial system, schools, etc. He has also written a few books. He (my trainer) sent me one today on Clinton, Trump, the black vote, and Obama's legacy. I am going to listen while at the gym. 

I think they can all be found on YouTube.

[05heel]

Nov 9, 2016 10:02:57 GMT -5 andwhat said:

Nov 9, 2016 9:45:47 GMT -5 05heel said:

I'm pissed. I'm not allowing myself to be sad. Nope. Sorry white folks.

Integration is a failed experiment. It was never going to work, but it's not our fault. This election has shone a light on the roaches within our country. Let's watch them scatter. I hope more POC will turn inward to their own families and communities so that we can come back stronger in two years for the midterm elections. Black people have been far to kind to this country.

Have you ever listened to Claude Anderson? My trainer kept trying to get me to and I listened to one of his speeches. He is big on how black people should not want integration and that if we would have focused on really being separate but equal we would be in a better place as a race. And we should have done like other immigrants and create our own supermarkets, banks/financial system, schools, etc. He has also written a few books. He (my trainer) sent me one today on Clinton, Trump, the black vote, and Obama's legacy. I am going to listen while at the gym. 

I think they can all be found on YouTube.

I haven't, but this is essentially what I was raised to believe.  Not saying it's all correct, but it's certainly not all wrong.  I don't think a separate but equal ideology should ever be institutionalized, but I definitely think it should be the prevailing mindset.  I've always cultivated an emotional detachment from white people, and now as I get older I'm detaching as much as I can in other ways.  This doesn't have to be a negative thing, as white people like to tell us.  Detaching from white culture gives me more mental, emotional, and financial capital to engage with POC in ways that are beneficial to me. 

[meshaliuknits]

Nov 9, 2016 6:05:20 GMT -5 kicks said:

I don't want to go to work, I wish I could call in black. I got a couple hours of sleep in between crying. I'm going to be late though and I give no fucks.

The poor Obamas too.

Dude, I logged in to see a string of people bitching about a Diwali celebration we're having at work Monday. It was all WHAT ABOUT US!!!

Between DT & this I have never been so happy to work from home in my life. Today is just ripe for an HR moment.

[meshaliuknits]

Nov 9, 2016 7:31:41 GMT -5 oliviapope said:

I just got told to stop bagging on white people because I'm half white.


Pretty sure that makes me the perfect person to bag on them.

Bitch.

Oh I wish a motherfucker would. Today is not the day to go around trying folks because we're "only half" whatever.

[NitaX]

I'm angry. I'm depressed. I can't eat. I'm wearing all black.

I broke down and sobbed in my H's arms last night. I mean a body shaking cry. I have a headache. I'm just utterly disgusted with white folks. But, I guess, I should have known better.

I'm taking my kids to the Civil Rights Museum on Friday since we're out of school. I'll be doing that because I need a real tangible reminder of how it felt to have the wind knocked out of your sails and press on despite the circumstance.

I need to check on my DNC friends to see how they're holding up.

[pandora89]

I am so sorry. I am so angry and so sad.

I cried last night and this morning and I live in Canada. Everything isn't rainbows and puppies here but I cant even being to imagine how you all feel.

[meshaliuknits]

I'm not going to get much done today. My temper is short & I think about it for too long I find myself on the verge of tears.

I just wanna hole up & read Black Panther comics.

[Black Lavender]

Every time I try to comment, I just think of how my girls broke down and cried this morning. Their little hearts are broken and I can't do anything to fix them. I'm pissed, distraught and I don't even know what else. I'm not watching or listening to any news coverage over the next few months. If the tix weren't $250, I wouldn't be going to the Maxwell concert tonight

[skwcm80]

Nov 9, 2016 11:25:45 GMT -5 NitaX said:

I'm angry. I'm depressed. I can't eat. I'm wearing all black.

I broke down and sobbed in my H's arms last night. I mean a body shaking cry. I have a headache. I'm just utterly disgusted with white folks. But, I guess, I should have known better.

I'm taking my kids to the Civil Rights Museum on Friday since we're out of school. I'll be doing that because I need a real tangible reminder of how it felt to have the wind knocked out of your sails and press on despite the circumstance.

I need to check on my DNC friends to see how they're holding up.

All of this. Literally.

[Black Lavender]

Nov 9, 2016 9:18:10 GMT -5 skwcm80 said:

Nov 9, 2016 9:14:01 GMT -5 freedom said:

I woke up today with so much hate in my heart.

Me too. The thoughts I woke up with this morning are uncharacteristic of me. I'm trying to go high, but I'm having a hard time.

Add me to this list, I woke up with The Purge level rage and it hasn't gone away. 

[thejackpot]

sfy that was my husband. I told him that it's all gone to shit. I even feel like I should go back to work so we can save more.
And I just want to roll up in CEP like 05heel handing out fuck yous to everyone who's bama ass momma, daddy, dh, sister, BIL is racist as hell and they didn't check them. You can wear all the fucking pantsuits you want but won't shoot straight with the people who you love. And even more fuck yous for the lying heifers who want to pretend that they didn't vote for that monster.

[andwhat]

My H is having to listen to white hunting ass men at work talk about how America is going to be great again. They seriously think that everyone with his job thinks the same way they do regardless of race.
He is the least confrontational person I know and hasn't said anything.

[thejackpot]

andwhat your poor DH. Stinks for him, hope his day there is almost over.

[salejolie]

I haven't done any work. I started working on a wall of quotes and have ignored calls and emails. I don't have enough paid time off left to call in Black, and I have no fucks left to give today.

[05heel]

My H's white female boss has decided to move his 1:1 to today for some reason. She's always trying to talk to him about political stuff anyway, and he ignores her. He's going straight to HR if she tries to come at him today. She's already on thin ice as it is.

[kicks]

I have French class tonight and I really don't want to go even though everyone was openly Clinton supporters. But it's all a bunch of white people and I just want to curl up on my couch. But then I remembered that the biggest fuck you to those trying to oppress us is to educate ourselves in a variety of ways. So I'll make it to French class just for that reason.

[kicks]

Nov 9, 2016 15:31:32 GMT -5 freedom said:

Nov 9, 2016 15:23:36 GMT -5 kicks said:

I have French class tonight and I really don't want to go even though everyone was openly Clinton supporters. But it's all a bunch of white people and I just want to curl up on my couch. But then I remembered that the biggest fuck you to those trying to oppress us is to educate ourselves in a variety of ways. So I'll make it to French class just for that reason.

They lied! I'm wondering how many of those adorable seniors I drove to the polls voted for trump after telling me they were voting for clinton.

That is very true. They are all 20 something Bernie bro types who live in the city. But still, this election has proven that white people are sketchy as hell and I will continue to move forward with skepticism with all of them.

[thejackpot]

Guys I have a really wonderful white friend. We were best friends from elementary to college and have remained very close through all of these years. Her family is just good people. I called her today to thank her for being her and not one of the shady whites and it was so funny because she had been calling me for hours on my cell but I had turned it off. She felt like shit and just wanted me to know how much our friendship means to her and her family. They are about the only white folks I am saving these days.

ETA. This sounds like I have a white friend but I didn't mean it like that at all. I just meant even close white friendships have to pause and reflect in these days.

[LLL]

I'm numb. And to top it off I've been traveling for work for the past couple of days (in Brexit UK of all places). I'm simultaneously disgusted and homesick, I want to take my beautiful family and run away. At the same time I feel like yelling "FUCK YOU I AM WHATS GREAT ABOUT AMERICA"

[kicks]

I finally just talked to my boyfriend. He said there was also a metaphorical black cloud over the city he's in in Europe today as well.
I didn't cry while talking to him, I think I've hit the anger stage. But he's really in to politics and we discussed a lot of it and now my anger is creeping up again.

He's been dragging his feet about changing banks and I yelled at him that he better take his damn money to a black bank asap.

[kicks]

Nov 9, 2016 17:43:26 GMT -5 @kirkette said:

People need to stop fucking talking to me at the gym.
It will be good for us!
Think of how business and the market will respond, it will be best for us.

Um ... delusional old white people, you do know I'm black right?
The fuck? Stop trying to get me to celebrate with you.
And tell your old ass husband, and your douchey as fuck sons, to stop watching me when I'm stretching, and talking to me when I am trying to take a class.

I'm not here for your slave owner fantasy, get the fuck away.

Ugh, the worse.

I had a patient last week tell me that he had been in a lot of locker rooms and what cheeto said was definitely "locker room talk" and that he doesn't know why anyone would vote for the criminal Hillary. I just walked out the door.

Why the fuck would you tell that to a black woman was all I kept thinking.

[orangeblossom]

Nov 9, 2016 17:57:01 GMT -5 kicks said:

Nov 9, 2016 17:43:26 GMT -5 @kirkette said:

People need to stop fucking talking to me at the gym.
It will be good for us!
Think of how business and the market will respond, it will be best for us.

Um ... delusional old white people, you do know I'm black right?
The fuck? Stop trying to get me to celebrate with you.
And tell your old ass husband, and your douchey as fuck sons, to stop watching me when I'm stretching, and talking to me when I am trying to take a class.

I'm not here for your slave owner fantasy, get the fuck away.

Ugh, the worse.

I had a patient last week tell me that he had been in a lot of locker rooms and what cheeto said was definitely "locker room talk" and that he doesn't know why anyone would vote for the criminal Hillary. I just walked out the door.

Why the fuck would you tell that to a black woman was all I kept thinking.

B/C he knows best as a white man. Unfortunately, he doesn't think of you as much, barely a woman, and certainly, not a black female doctor.

Class was barely tolerable today, with all the trump fan girls and giddiness over him winning.  I legit thought about not going to class, but then remembered we had the sweetest little girl coming to talk to us about her Type I diabetes and her service dog. That was literally the only bright spot in my day.