Monday night

[amaranth]

Today was a day from hell. I have so much to do and I'm just sitting on a chair watching cars drive by my house. I don't feel like hashing out the details, but I am such an awful SAHM. I just want to quit and go to work like my H, come home in time for some sweet cuddles before bed and fun activities on the weekend. I know that isn't actually reality, and that also is not even an option right now. So I'm stuck, and it sucks, and I feel so discouraged.

[luv2rn4fun]

May 22, 2017 21:14:35 GMT -5 amaranth said:

Today was a day from hell. I have so much to do and I'm just sitting on a chair watching cars drive by my house. I don't feel like hashing out the details, but I am such an awful SAHM. I just want to quit and go to work like my H, come home in time for some sweet cuddles before bed and fun activities on the weekend. I know that isn't actually reality, and that also is not even an option right now. So I'm stuck, and it sucks, and I feel so discouraged.

So many ((hugs)). I can SO relate to a lot of what you wrote. I am sorry you feel stuck and discouraged. But you are not an awful SAHM, far from it and your kiddos are lucky to have you.

[katespade]

(((amaranth)))

I don't have any words of advice because I don't have any experience being a mom, but I can guarantee that you aren't an awful SAHM. You are an amazing person, and an amazing mom, and I'm sorry that you're struggling.

[hazelden]

Being a SAHM is hard! I used to spend entire afternoons searching on Craigslist for a nanny (that we could in no way afford) so that I could work instead of staying home.

I wish I would've started seeing a counselor when my kids were younger. When you have young children everything is always about them and it's easy to lose yourself. I had a lot of guilt thinking that most people would love to stay home, or were better at it, and now I understand that's not necessarily true.

Being a parent is hard, please give yourself a break. You're a good mom!

[awick14]

((amaranth)) what you wrote is one reason I am looking forward to going back to work. I love my daughter, I do, but I can't wait to be back at work with adults again.

You are most defiantly not a bad SAHM though. ((Hugs))

[bk1]

I hope today is much better for you. I know I have days when I wish for the same thing. You are in no way an awful SAHM. It's by far the hardest thing I've ever done. I totally get it! Big hugs girl.

[MrsMB]

((amaranth)) You are amazing....you amaze ME...and I'm sure you amaze your hubs and your family. I honestly don't know how you do it all. But I know your kids have the best Mama ever.

Not sure if anyone follows hockey or not....but I seriously hope that our team gets to play the Penguins in the final for the Stan.ley cup. I don't follow hockey, but them crushing the penguins would give me something to gloat over when we visit the in-laws in PA over Christmas. Of course, I would be polite and not SAY anything...but it would give me happy thoughts.

[wanderingenough]

amaranth -- I hope you woke up today feeling better and less discouraged. You are an amazing mom! Honestly, I do NOT know how SAHM's do it. Yesterday was a rough day. Heck, it may be a rough week (or two). That's ok. You know why? Working moms have those too. Working moms have weeks where we hate our jobs. We want to quit. We want to throw in the towel. The difference is, the only guilt we have is tied to the finances or career development we may lose. It isn't tied to those little people in the other room. That's a heavy burden you have by allowing yourself to think "this isn't fun today." But you are still allowed to think it. You are still an incredible mom and you still love your kids. I think it and I'm with my kid a lot less hours a day than you are. Give yourself a little grace and allow some grumpiness from time to time. It's ok. You are still human.

[MrsMB]

May 23, 2017 9:17:50 GMT -5 suzv said:

MrsMB , are your inlaws in PGH or somewhere else in PA? I'm not a hockey fan, it seems like such a commitment! The season is so long. The Pens won the cup last year and people are freaking out here that they might go to the final again this year. My H is totally a fair weather fan.

They are right outside of a National Park that is just about an hour away from PHG. Very close! 

Yeah, I have always enjoyed going to games, but I can't follow it on a regular basis. The whole town here is freaking out because our team has never made it this far...ha!

[estrellita]

amaranth you are an amazing mom! I can understand how it can be hard. I don't think I'd be cut out for being a SAHM. You always seem to be doing something fun with your kids!

MrsMB I stopped paying attention once the Wild were out. I pay more attention to college hockey anyways lol. I agree though that NHL seasons are SO LONG.