Punching walls threads

[Jalapeñomel]

Instead of punching a wall, talk it out here, whatever it may be.

I have a log thread on ML about my propriety manager nonsense, so I won't bore you here.

I keep getting negative OPKs, and I know I should ovulate very soon (today is the 5th day from the RE's guess).

My DH had a little too much to drink last night with other professors, so he was not exactly in peak performance. 😉. Not chastising him, been there done that, but poor timing. He's defeated too, so I can't really blame him.

But I have two days off for Rosh Hashanah! So if you're Jewish, enjoy your family time!

[onthemove]

I'm sorry for your frustration, it is certainly not easy for any of us or our partners.

For the last two months I have ovulated on day 25. I moved a work trip so I could be home through day 25/26. My CBFM did not detect even a rise in estrogen, and certainly not a peak in fertility. So now who knows. For all I know I will have another 60 day anovulatory cycle, my second in 4 cycles.

Everywhere I look, babies. Everyone I talk to, "so when are you starting a family?" I have such a good life, but not the one thing I want most.

Pity party, party of one? Right here.

[Jalapeñomel]

onthemove I had one long cycle, and that made me rage. I cannot imagine having multiple ones. I'll rage for you too!

[meowmaps]

I'm not punching walls mad but I went on a hike today with my husband to de-stress and he ended up venting about the TTC process, annoying stuff at work, etc. the entire time. I know everyone needs to vent but usually I'm the Eeyore and he's the cheerleader. I needed his positivity today and instead he bummed me out.

Jalapeñomel My mom's Jewish but she's Reform and not vocal about celebrating the holidays. She texted me earlier to say she took a "mental health day". It didn't even occur to me until later that she probably took off for Rosh Hashanah. Guess I'll wish her happy new year when I see her tomorrow.

Sorry for your frustrations, ladies!

[compassrose]

That's a hell of a story on your scam artist landlord Jalapeñomel. I hope you guys nail her and her 'congressman' husband to the wall.

My poor students went down to Florida to sample after the hurricane and it's been one nightmare after another. I've spent so much time on hold with travel companies. I swear it would actually be less stressful if I were actually there.

[somersault72]

I'm overbooked 3 times today, all courtesy of the same doctor. 2 of the overbooks are scheduled at the same time. Apparently I was supposed to clone myself and no one told me. I'm 8 dpo which is when I really start to go crazy during the 2ww. I usually do ok during that first week but the second . . .I can't hold it together.

Enjoy your days off Jalapeñomel! I hate when our timing gets interrupted for any reason.

Oh gosh onthemove that sounds just awful. I hear you on the babies, babies everywhere thing, too.

[seeyalater52]

I'm sorry for your security deposit/scam artist troubles Jalapeñomel! I am also a new homeowner (Feb 2017) and I swear it makes having our own place just that much sweeter not to deal with ridiculous and incompetent landlord and property issues.

I am trying SO hard to be zen, not to stress out, I know I need to create a warm and inviting body for a potential baby and I'm sure stress doesn't help.... but I can't NOT be stressed. I am already absolutely a stress case and kind of a negative person (I swear I am working on it!) and just once I wish things could be calm at work so I could relax and focus on being happy and healthy but instead everyone else is running around like crazy people and I feel guilty because I need to be doing more but I don't want to push myself too hard. Seriously, screw Congress. It does make me want to punch something, but not a wall.

I had noticed that since I made a conscious effort to try to stay calm I've been less anxious and have less stress side effects. Fewer hours spent with my heart rate up, nauseous feeling, or dizzy from my blood pressure spiking, or drinking too much caffeine and skipping meals. But what a shit time to cut out caffeine and alcohol.

[grover]

CD11 and I have the flu. Yesterday was absolutely miserable. Feeling better but still not great today. So no idea if we'll attempt this month or not, as the last thing we need is H to get it then pass it on to the baby or back to me and then both of us will be completely out of sick time through January.

#1 had milestone pictures this week. MIL posted them to facebook this morning after stalking the photographers page. Even though we planned on posting them on Saturday. This isn't the first time she's posted pictures before we wanted them up.

[katespade]

Today is CD11, and AF is still going strong with no end in sight. With the weeks of heavy spotting I had leading up to it, I have been bleeding to some degree every single day since 8/25.

I'm. So. Over. This. Shit.

I've ovulated once in four months, and I feel broken. Like I'm defective. Fuck.

[onthemove]

Sept 21, 2017 13:11:23 GMT -5 katespade said:

Today is CD11, and AF is still going strong with no end in sight. With the weeks of heavy spotting I had leading up to it, I have been bleeding to some degree every single day since 8/25.

I'm. So. Over. This. Shit.

I've ovulated once in four months, and I feel broken. Like I'm defective. Fuck.

im so sorry. And while there may be something medically going on, you are not defective. You are a whole person, and this does not define you. Buuuut, feel free to punch walls with the rest of us feeling like there is something wrong with us!

[compassrose]

((katespade)) TTTC truly does not make you defective, even though I completely get where you are coming from. Many of us are right there with you, even if our struggles vary. Bleeding for 11 days would make me very unhappy too.

[seeyalater52]

Sept 21, 2017 13:11:23 GMT -5 katespade said:

Today is CD11, and AF is still going strong with no end in sight. With the weeks of heavy spotting I had leading up to it, I have been bleeding to some degree every single day since 8/25.

I'm. So. Over. This. Shit.

I've ovulated once in four months, and I feel broken. Like I'm defective. Fuck.

I am so, so sorry. Even absent TTC I can't imagine that is a pleasant experience. You are not broken or defective, but in sorry you're hurting and feeling that way. Hang in there.

[seeyalater52]

Sept 21, 2017 12:37:44 GMT -5 grover said:

CD11 and I have the flu. Yesterday was absolutely miserable. Feeling better but still not great today. So no idea if we'll attempt this month or not, as the last thing we need is H to get it then pass it on to the baby or back to me and then both of us will be completely out of sick time through January.

#1 had milestone pictures this week. MIL posted them to facebook this morning after stalking the photographers page. Even though we planned on posting them on Saturday. This isn't the first time she's posted pictures before we wanted them up.

Ugh to your MIL! That sounds like something my mom would do and it makes me so nuts. Can you talk to her about it? We are strongly considering not posting photos of any future kids on Facebook pretty much at all and I'm already dreading having that conversation with both our moms because we know they won't get it.

[grover]

Sept 21, 2017 17:26:45 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Sept 21, 2017 12:37:44 GMT -5 grover said:

CD11 and I have the flu. Yesterday was absolutely miserable. Feeling better but still not great today. So no idea if we'll attempt this month or not, as the last thing we need is H to get it then pass it on to the baby or back to me and then both of us will be completely out of sick time through January.

#1 had milestone pictures this week. MIL posted them to facebook this morning after stalking the photographers page. Even though we planned on posting them on Saturday. This isn't the first time she's posted pictures before we wanted them up.

Ugh to your MIL! That sounds like something my mom would do and it makes me so nuts. Can you talk to her about it? We are strongly considering not posting photos of any future kids on Facebook pretty much at all and I'm already dreading having that conversation with both our moms because we know they won't get it.

H noticed it at 640 this morning, she had posted it like a half hour earlier, and after confirming with me that I didn't give her the picture or the ok, he had her remove it. She says she saw that I had liked it, then she went and liked the photographer page so she could share it bc she assumed every one had seen that I had liked it.

I'm also now annoyed that two other people I don't know shared it (ones the photographer's husband who I never met and the other I have no idea who the hell is). So now I am debating using her in the future. I mean, I know I signed off on her posting the sneak peek to her page but I didn't think randos would be sharing it.

[seeyalater52]

Sept 21, 2017 17:42:33 GMT -5 grover said:

Sept 21, 2017 17:26:45 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Ugh to your MIL! That sounds like something my mom would do and it makes me so nuts. Can you talk to her about it? We are strongly considering not posting photos of any future kids on Facebook pretty much at all and I'm already dreading having that conversation with both our moms because we know they won't get it.

H noticed it at 640 this morning, she had posted it like a half hour earlier, and after confirming with me that I didn't give her the picture or the ok, he had her remove it. She says she saw that I had liked it, then she went and liked the photographer page so she could share it bc she assumed every one had seen that I had liked it.

I'm also now annoyed that two other people I don't know shared it (ones the photographer's husband who I never met and the other I have no idea who the hell is). So now I am debating using her in the future. I mean, I know I signed off on her posting the sneak peek to her page but I didn't think randos would be sharing it.

Wtf to all of that. I'm glad your husband was able to handle it with his mom, but also annoyed for you about the ransoms.

[grover]

Sept 21, 2017 13:11:23 GMT -5 katespade said:

Today is CD11, and AF is still going strong with no end in sight. With the weeks of heavy spotting I had leading up to it, I have been bleeding to some degree every single day since 8/25.

I'm. So. Over. This. Shit.

I've ovulated once in four months, and I feel broken. Like I'm defective. Fuck.

Hugs friend! I don't know if I missed a post with the craziness my life has been with school starting back up and being sick, but have you reached out to your OB or an RE? Even though I still felt crummy with a label (I don't know if I feel unexplained is a true diagnosis still) but I did feel a little better reaching out.

[meowmaps]

katespade I'm sorry. I hope your doctor can offer some helpful and hopeful advice.

[sarapocalypse]

*hugs* katespade.

[jennistarr1]

I'm getting all the pms symptoms so I'm thinking I'm at this cycle, makes me sad

[hbomdiggity]

CD11 and DH just announced that the new version of his video game was released today. Not really a quality of his that makes me say "I want to have sex with you." Especially since it means he will spend every minute in the man cave and leave me to parent the 2yo.

[tacom]

I've had 10+ years of normal periods. Average 31 days, 4-5 days of bleeding. Max length 35 days X2 occurrences in 4 years of recorded data.

First cycle TTC and my period decides to fuck with me. CD 37, and not pregnant.

[compassrose]

I'm sorry tacom. What were you using for bc before?

[tacom]

Sept 22, 2017 6:26:03 GMT -5 compassrose said:

I'm sorry tacom. What were you using for bc before?

Condoms and withdrawal combined.

[meowmaps]

I weighed myself this morning because I thought I needed a slap in the face after two weeks of emotional eating. Well, a slap in the face is what I got. Up 5 lbs! I'm very angry with myself.

[somersault72]

katespade huge hugs to you. You aren't broken or defective. <3

[compassrose]

((@aliciaroset)) whatever else you are, you are not alone. Several of us are well over a year at this point. This is the worst roller coaster I've ever been on.

[Jalapeñomel]

Sorry @aliciaroset . sadly, I can relate to struggling to get pregnant for years.

[househunter]

I really have no complaints other than work sucks and I'm not pregnant

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*hugs* katespade

I don't have much to punch walls about right now. I'm pretty chill at this particular moment, because I'm in between AF and ovulating. Just the normal, day-to-day troubles that come with DH having a chronic illness. And because he's the one who's sick, and not me, I feel petty complaining about it. It's not his fault his gut hates him sometimes; I just sometimes get upset when we have to change plans I was looking forward to. *sigh*

[tacom]

CD 40. 😐