TWW 10/7

[compassrose]

I kinda see it on the top one lessel! I hope it’s darker tomorrow!
@seeyalater, you don’t have to justify your early testing to us. It’s different when you’ve been trying so long. Enjoy your unjaded first testing
I hope you all get BFPs!

[melsamoony]

lessel congrats hoping for a sticky squishy baby.

[seeyalater52]

That is much easier to see lessel! I’m sorry for your previous losses, I can imagine that makes it a lot harder to get excited this early on. I’m super thrilled for you but also sending gentle hugs for the feelings you may be having. <3

[seeyalater52]

My temp is down again today. Not enough to mean anything probably, but I’m crying in bed now instead of getting ready. Idk how to do this.

[tacom]

Oct 11, 2017 5:41:51 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

My temp is down again today. Not enough to mean anything probably, but I’m crying in bed now instead of getting ready. Idk how to do this.

You can do this.

We’ve got ya.

[compassrose]

lessel, I completely understand. Are you going to get a beta draw? Maybe ask for them to test progesterone too?

[compassrose]

seeyalater52, how much is your temp down? It’s pretty common for it to go down some and back up. Like all of us, you ride the roller coaster and find the strength somewhere inside you because it’s a baby on the other side. This journey is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. We are here to help you get through it, too. Distract yourself as much as possible today. Avoid this place if you need to.

[seeyalater52]

Oct 11, 2017 6:20:21 GMT -5 compassrose said:

seeyalater52, how much is your temp down? It’s pretty common for it to go down some and back up. Like all of us, you ride the roller coaster and find the strength somewhere inside you because it’s a baby on the other side. This journey is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. We are here to help you get through it, too. Distract yourself as much as possible today. Avoid this place if you need to.

It’s only down .14, and way way above cover (and not any lower than any of the other dips in my post O temp since it shifted. I don’t know why I am letting this get to me. Probably PMS emotions if I am being honest. And the constant worry about money, where we’ll get the $1500 to try next month, or what will happen when we blow through the two donor sperm vials we got and have to buy more because that pushes each cycle to a price we just can’t afford. And the stress of the back and forth on every single decision we are making about how aggressively to go at this because our insurance can’t just get it together and treat us like normal people. Ugh. This is the worst. Today sucks. I am so glad I decided not to test this morning, I’m sure that would have made it worse.

You guys are awesome. I really don’t deserve it.

[melsamoony]

lessel I now see it on both pics!!!

@seeyalater I am so sorry for the struggles you are going through. Try to stay positive. Annecdote: when I got pregnant with my DS my temp dropped several times and I thought for sure I was out. I tested when I didnt get my period and BFP. I will attach my chart so you can see not all pregnant charts are textbook.

[HoneySpider]

Sending all the positive thoughts, lessel!

Ditto melsamoony - when I got the BFP with my son, my temp dropped way down that morning. I figured for sure I was out and was surpised when I got the BFP. You never know!

[katespade]

My temp dropped by .03 this morning. First drop since 5DPO. :/

[seeyalater52]

Thanks for the encouragement you guys. I am clearly having some sort of hormonal/stress related feelings. And honestly the WORST part is how excited my wife is and how convinced she is that it worked and how disappointed I know she will be if we don't get pregnant.

katespade I am hoping your tiny dip today is nothing! (I know, I know, take my own advice why don't I!) Hugs.

[tacom]

@seeyalater remember hormonal stress can be PMS or early pregnancy. Progesterone is progesterone. Take whatever time you need to process everything but you’re not out by any stretch

[katespade]

Chart update, 12DPO.

[seeyalater52]

katespade , it still looks SO GOOD. So, so, so good. I have a lot of hope for you!

[tacom]

I can’t believe you guys aren’t peeing on everything 😂

You have so much more self control!

[seeyalater52]

Oct 11, 2017 11:52:51 GMT -5 tacom said:

I can’t believe you guys aren’t peeing on everything 😂

You have so much more self control!

The only reason I didn't go to CVS during work and buy a test is because my wife really, REALLY wants to be there. So I am waiting until tomorrow morning. It's taking 75% of my mental energy to stop my legs from walking there on their own. I almost feel like testing will make me feel somewhat better even if it's negative. Maybe that is naive. 

[katespade]

Oct 11, 2017 11:52:51 GMT -5 tacom said:

I can’t believe you guys aren’t peeing on everything 😂

You have so much more self control!

My doctor's appt is in 4.5 hours. That's the only thing that held me back from testing this morning. lol.

[compassrose]

Ahhhh katespade and seeyalater52 I am channeling all my energy into BFPs for both of you today and tomorrow respectively!

[Deleted]

Oct 11, 2017 11:52:51 GMT -5 tacom said:

I can’t believe you guys aren’t peeing on everything 😂

You have so much more self control!

I'm too afraid of seeing a BFN.  lol

[katespade]

Oct 11, 2017 13:04:55 GMT -5 compassrose said:

Ahhhh katespade and seeyalater52 I am channeling all my energy into BFPs for both of you today and tomorrow respectively!

It makes me really nervous that my temp went down this morning. I know it wasn't by much, but it still doesn't seem like a great sign.

[compassrose]

Oct 11, 2017 13:15:01 GMT -5 katespade said:

Oct 11, 2017 13:04:55 GMT -5 compassrose said:

Ahhhh katespade and seeyalater52 I am channeling all my energy into BFPs for both of you today and tomorrow respectively!

It makes me really nervous that my temp went down this morning. I know it wasn't by much, but it still doesn't seem like a great sign.

That kind of drop is within the margin of error. Your chart looks amazing.

[katespade]

Oct 11, 2017 15:02:24 GMT -5 compassrose said:

Oct 11, 2017 13:15:01 GMT -5 katespade said:

It makes me really nervous that my temp went down this morning. I know it wasn't by much, but it still doesn't seem like a great sign.

That kind of drop is within the margin of error. Your chart looks amazing.

H's birthday is tomorrow, and I'm trying not to think about how amazing it would be to surprise him with a BFP. 

[melsamoony]

katespade what time is your appt

[katespade]

Oct 11, 2017 15:51:31 GMT -5 melsamoony said:

katespade what time is your appt

3:15 (so, an hour from now).

[bcv513]

Oct 11, 2017 16:01:33 GMT -5 katespade said:

Oct 11, 2017 15:51:31 GMT -5 melsamoony said:

katespade what time is your appt

3:15 (so, an hour from now).

You need to move to eastern time lol

[katespade]

Oct 11, 2017 16:12:59 GMT -5 bcv513 said:

Oct 11, 2017 16:01:33 GMT -5 katespade said:

3:15 (so, an hour from now).

You need to move to eastern time lol

lol. Right? I haven't been able to concentrate on anything all day.

[seeyalater52]

I feel like I was the world’s biggest bitch at work today. Not to mention useless at my job. So that was cool.

I have gotten a lot calmer since this morning though. I looked at “line porn” (lol) all day and all the happy stories uplifted me. I feel ok.

[katespade]

Doctor said it still might be too early to get a positive, but did a blood draw for the more sensitive test just in case. Expecting them to call with results in the next hour or so.

We also made a plan for next steps, if this cycle is a bust.

[melsamoony]

Oct 11, 2017 18:10:34 GMT -5 katespade said:

Doctor said it still might be too early to get a positive, but did a blood draw for the more sensitive test just in case. Expecting them to call with results in the next hour or so.

We also made a plan for next steps, if this cycle is a bust.

Omg! Fx! That is a fast result for a blood draw.