Thursday

[doglove]

Why does it feel like the closer we get to the weekend, the slower the time is going to get there?? OMG. What's up with you guys today? 

[tiramisu]

It really does!

Today is packed solid for me: work, straight to PT, straight to dance classes. I have so much to take with me today that I packed it as soon as I got home from my appointments yesterday so I wouldn't forget anything.

Yesterday I went to the neurologist. Overall I liked her, but I did not like the suggestion that I consider going on an antidepressant (SSRI or SNRI). I do get really frustrated because I've had medical professionals before just try to blame things on anxiety and I'm not letter dropping because I'm anxious. I am not handling stress well right now, but that doesn't automatically mean I'm depressed nor anxious. She did refer me for neuropsych testing because she doesn't think an MRI would really give any good information. I'm going to do that testing and I have also been researching SNRIs so that if I decide it does seem like that might be a direction to go at some point, I know my options.

[doglove]

That's frustrating tiramisu. What about a second opinion? I'm always an advocate for seeing two doctors and getting different opinions. Hugs.

[udscoobychick]

Very frustrating, tiramisu. I hope the neuropsych testing gives you some answers...hopefully you can get in soon.

Found out today that the office admin for my office died of cancer back at the beginning of September. She had been out on extended medical leave, but no one knew that it hadn't been going well. I wasn't really close to her, since she was a very private person, but it's still sad.

[tiramisu]

Oct 12, 2017 8:41:50 GMT -5 doglove said:

That's frustrating tiramisu. What about a second opinion? I'm always an advocate for seeing two doctors and getting different opinions. Hugs.

I'm not sure if I could get one. To get in this soon my doctor had to put in a stat referral, otherwise I would've had to wait until January.

I suppose what I should've done is brought in samples of my writing from before and after the accident (right after and more recently). I think neuropsych testing might be helpful because it will put a heavier cognitive load on me which is when these issues seem to occur.

I know that mood changes are not uncommon after a TBI, even a mild one (which a concussion technically is). I've had a concussion once before and that plus a history of anxiety and mood disorder can mean a longer healing time, which was good to know. She did give me some good info, but did also seem to be pushing me to think about anxiety/depression. So I'll read my diagnostic criteria today, just to make sure I'm really thinking this through and not acting on impulse.

She did mention that neuropsych testing could lead to working with a neuropsych therapist on any areas of deficit (visual-spatial, etc.).

[tiramisu]

udscoobychick I'm sorry to hear that. Even when you don't know someone well, it's sad and a loss.

[doglove]

Hopefully you can get some answers tiramisu, I know this has not been easy for you to deal with.

Hugs udscoobychick. That is sad.

[bullygirl979]

udscoobychick, how sad. I'm sorry

tiramisu, is it possible that she suggested it as an off label use? I'm on a medication that is used to treat seizure disorders and mood disorders and I take it off label for hot flashes.

[bullygirl979]

I couldn't find a nice cabin for next week given the short notice. Instead, I booked us at our normal hotel, which overlooks the lake and is right next to the brewery for a couple nights. We like the stumbling distance and the fact you can walk in to town. Then, we are doing three nights at a fancy pants resort, which is outside of town. We have a suite with a fireplace so we can still drink wine and chill. The resort looks pretty cool as they have a game room (complete with billiards tables, foosball, etc), a bowling alley, a movie theater, a spa and heated indoor and outdoor pools & hot tubs.

After 6 months of stressing if I will have a job or not, I'm really looking forward to unwinding a bit.

[tiramisu]

Oct 12, 2017 9:30:43 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

udscoobychick, how sad. I'm sorry

tiramisu, is it possible that she suggested it as an off label use? I'm on a medication that is used to treat seizure disorders and mood disorders and I take it off label for hot flashes.

Nope, unfortunately. Or if that's how she meant it, she didn't ever say that.

[bullygirl979]

tiramisu, I'm sorry. I would get the neuropsych testing and maybe ask that doc their opinion. Also, if worse comes to worse you can always give a shot to see if it helps. It's possible that maybe there is a solid reason she suggested it (not because she thinks you're anxious) and unfortunately she didn't communicate that well.

[doglove]

Sounds nice bullygirl979.

I've got to spend my lunch hour picking up groceries and assorted things to pack. We won't be eating a lot of meals out due to money constraints, but I'm okay with that. We're compromising by packing food for breakfasts/lunches and visiting some breweries and wineries during the day after hiking and then cooking dinners at night at the cabin. That's fine by me because I really don't want to change into clothes other than leggings, active capris and yoga pants all week.

[bullygirl979]

doglove, I'm excited. I love Lake Placid. Your trip sounds lovely. You are going for a week, yes? I think staying in, drinking some wine and cooking in comfy clothes sounds awesome.

[bullygirl979]

Yay! More good news. P got an alert yesterday about picking up the rental car in San Fran, which was odd, given he cancelled it. He managed to get a hold of a live person today and not only did she confirm that it was indeed cancelled, but she refunded his $120 cancellation fee.

[doglove]

Oct 12, 2017 9:59:46 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

doglove , I'm excited. I love Lake Placid. Your trip sounds lovely. You are going for a week, yes? I think staying in, drinking some wine and cooking in comfy clothes sounds awesome.

Yes - we're going for a week! I need that kind mental/physical break desperately. 

[cuddlyevil]

I am sorry that the appointment was frustrating tiramisu.

I am here, but really tired. I saw the wrong side of 3am today and couldn't get back to sleep.

[tiramisu]

Oct 12, 2017 9:47:31 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

tiramisu, I'm sorry. I would get the neuropsych testing and maybe ask that doc their opinion. Also, if worse comes to worse you can always give a shot to see if it helps. It's possible that maybe there is a solid reason she suggested it (not because she thinks you're anxious) and unfortunately she didn't communicate that well.

She brought up anxiety and depression a few times. I'm going to do the neuropsych testing. And thanks everyone, I know I'll be okay eventually. It's weird to see, on referral paperwork, the reason being TBI with cognitive symptoms.

[chalupa]

(( udscoobychick )) and (( tiramisu )

I had the morning off. Larry's potential buyers showed up, rode him, loved him. Larry is now an hour into his 12 hour journey to NH  

I am REALLY REALLY happy about the family that bought him. It is exactly the type of buyer I wanted for him when I listed him for sale. I'm just sad to see him go, and I don't know wtf I'm going to do with myself now. My barn time is "my" time.  SaveSave

[bullygirl979]

tiramisu, big hugs to you!

[bullygirl979]

chalupa, awwww...hugs. I know you are happy that he is going to a good home but I know it's hard. Does anyone have a horse you could lease a few days a week until you find one of your own?

[chalupa]

Oct 12, 2017 12:40:04 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

chalupa , awwww...hugs. I know you are happy that he is going to a good home but I know it's hard. Does anyone have a horse you could lease a few days a week until you find one of your own?

Not at my current barn. My trainer and I are rapidly emailing each other listings to look at. Hopefully this is a "few weeks" kind of search, not months. SaveSave

[doglove]

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[tiramisu]

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[udscoobychick]

((chalupa)) I hope you find a new horse soon!

[gault]

Aw. Hugs to all.