Update **Trigger Warning**

[saraml13]

Checking in. I know I’ve been not around much lately.

This week we discovered that my pregnancy was a molar pregnancy. So the egg didn’t get fertilized correctly and grew into a massive placenta rather than a baby. I’ve spent the week running around for different appointments and tests. Today I had a D&C.

They removed more tissue than they were expecting, so my doctor wants to keep me overnight for observation. But I’m going stir crazy being stuck at the hospital hooked up to a bunch of stuff.

[rere]

I am so sorry! Hang in there, I know the hospital sucks, but take the time to rest and recovery physically.

[katrine05]

I'm so sorry. Take the time to rest and heal.

[ilovelucyvv]

So sorry. Please be kind to yourself

[waverly]

I am so sorry.

[shakinros]

Oh my gosh I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself.

[phdmomma]

I'm sorry

[k3am]

I'm so sorry.

[186momx]

I'm sorry, I know you are going crazy but try and rest.

[sdlaura]

Ugh, that’s terrible. I’m sorry! I hope you recover quickly.

ETA - we had a late (21-week) loss for medical reasons. I vividly remember going to all the appointments and the race to figure out what was going on after we got the news. I’m so sorry you had to go through something like that too.

[erinshelley21]

I am so, so sorry. Thinking of you!

[librarychica]

I’m so sorry. I hope your recovery is smooth and you can go home soon.

[campermom]

Oh I'm so sorry to hear this. Keeping you in my thoughts. We are here for you.

[mae0111]

I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself.

[freezorburn]

So sorry, hope you have a smooth recovery.

[awick14]

I’m so sorry your going through this.

[divanerd]

Sorry hang in there!!

[traveltheworld]

I'm sorry. Take care of yourself.

[twinmomma]

I'm sorry saraml13, I hope your recovery goes smoothly.

[akafred]

Oh that is rough. I'm so sorry. I hope they discharge you quickly.

[covergirl82]

I am so sorry! Keeping you in my thoughts.

[mommyatty]

Oh gosh. I’m so sorry. Sending so much love.

[kimberlybb]

So sorry to hear your update! Thinking of you!

[xctsclrx]

So sorry. Hope the hospital stay isn't too bad and you can get some rest.

[welly01]

Oh, I'm so sorry! I hope they let you go home soon.

[HeartofCheese]

That sucks. So sorry, saraml13. I hope you get better soon.

[sweetptater]

I'm so sorry saraml13. Take care of yourself.

[judyblume14]

Oh man, saraml13. I am so, so sorry to hear this. Take care.

[supertrooper1]

I'm very sorry.

[saraml13]

Thanks for all the kind words, everyone!

I’m feeling better this morning, having eaten solids food, gotten most of the random sensors/IVs/surgical tape off of me, and dressing in my own clothes. They are running one more set of blood work before I can leave.

I may be in denial, but I’m feeling ok-ish about the pregnancy loss right now. It’s weird learning that there was never a baby. The molar pregnancy was giving me much worse morning sickness and exhaustion than my normal pregnancies, so it’s a relief to be done with that.

Right now, the hardest part for me is the aftermath. I need weekly blood tests for several months, followed by monthly visits for the rest of a year. They have to make sure nothing weird grows back, so I’m not supposed to TTC for a year. And this is throwing me into a debate over if I really want a third. I’m also stressing out because I’m still relatively new at my job and scheduling all these appointments is time consuming.