State of the Ute 5/7/18

[jennistarr1]

Taking over this week since our sweet friend katespade got her BFP!

1. Where are you in your journey? ready to try again for #2, have been trying since July

2. Any testing this week? yes, tomorrow they draw my blood to see if my numbers dropped appropriately after miscarriage

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms? I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy for Katespade, but that is BFP related

4. Do you have any pets? Mugsy! My 7 year old handful yet love of my life Australian Shepherd

[kermit]

1. Where are you in your journey? TTC #2, cycle 8, CD10

2. Any testing this week? ultrasound on Thursday to check follicles, IUI Friday if all is well. I'm guessing we'll need to push it back but we'll see.

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms? I got a new car! Well, a used car. 2013 Chevy Volt. I was going to get a new one but really didn't want a payment so this is a good compromise - I'll wait another few years and maybe something else will be available by then. I really like the new Volt but I don't love the body style or interior, I want more of a crossover and a little more room. I think GM might be working toward that in the next few years.

4. Do you have any pets? Yes, three cats. One older one who is fine, two 1 year olds who are crazy. The orange one is insane and really annoying but lovable and very tolerant of DD's shenanigans. The black one is very sweet but has started scratching on the new couch covers so he's on my shit list. He also started a new habit of stealing washcloths and towels and dragging them around. He seems to like white things, he stole my white sweater the other day and I found it in the dining room.

[megstoo]

1. Where are you in your journey?
ttc1, CD15

2. Any testing this week?
nope

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms?
We have another appt with the RE tomorrow to decide on next course of action. We are also now dealing with male factor which we didn't know before

4. Do you have any pets?
A 2 year old named Mike. We got him when he was 4 months old from the rescue. Rescue said lab mix but I was curious so I did the DNA - he's stafford terrior, boxer, chow and rottie mix. Brindle color but looks like a tiger in the sun because of the orange and black stripes

[seeyalater52]

1. Where are you in your journey? TTC #1. I made the mistake of doing the math and we are in our 19th cycle over almost 2 calendar years. Kind of made me want to die. 6dpo/IUI today.

2. Any testing this week? Depending on how desperate I am, I'm planning to test somewhere between Friday (10dpo) and Monday (13dpo). I am not sure I can handle getting a BFN on Mother's Day but of course the "what if" of a positive makes me doubt that decision.

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms? Someone told me the other day that their wait to get out of the first trimester was just as bad if not worse than the TWW. I pointed out that she only tried for 3 months before getting pregnant and that we've been trying a lot longer than that and she felt kind of bad but it still really, really hurt.

4. Do you have any pets? We have a dog named Teddy who is the best. He's a small terrier and just has so much personality and love in his little body.

[katespade]

seeyalater52 - I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! I really hope this is your cycle!

[katespade]

May 7, 2018 8:09:29 GMT -5 jennistarr1 said:

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms? I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOO happy for Katespade, but that is BFP related

This board has seriously been so wonderful and so supportive over the last year. I hope you know how much I appreciate every single one of you! <3

[RITS]

1. TTC #2 since Jan 2017, 7DPO

2. No, but appt Thursday to discuss results from HSG and steps forward.

3. Nada.

4. 1 dog, 3 cats, 3 barn cats, 10 hens and a rooster

[seeyalater52]

May 7, 2018 10:13:14 GMT -5 @slk4117 said:

May 7, 2018 9:25:09 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms? Someone told me the other day that their wait to get out of the first trimester was just as bad if not worse than the TWW. I pointed out that she only tried for 3 months before getting pregnant and that we've been trying a lot longer than that and she felt kind of bad but it still really, really hurt.

My BFF got knocked up in late March on her first cycle, and started bitching to me this morning about how much morning sickness sucks. She knows we've been trying for 8 months. I know this isn't a competition, and she's allowed to feel crummy, but holy fuck, you can't find someone else to complain about morning sickness to? I don't know if my not being pregnant or her tone-deafness hurts worse. She just doesn't get it. 

I’m so sorry. My least favorite pregnant coworker does this to me all the time. She had the good sense to announce to me in a sensitive way because she knows what we are going through and then totally lost her mind and became an insufferable complainer who can’t talk about anything other than being pregnant and how hard it is on her.

[grover]

1. Where are you in your journey? TTC #2- this week is the year mark.

2. Any testing this week? No

3. Non-BFP AWs/vents/randoms? Uterine polyps are being removed on Friday. 13 more school days til summer!

4. Do you have any pets? Yes, Moose and Max are two labradors. Got Moose when we first started trying for #1 thinking they could grow up together. Now A is 1 and Moose is 5 in ten days. Max we got when we realized we were infertile and I was depressed about not having a baby. He's almost 3.5 years old.

[melsamoony]

1. Ttc #2 since August loss in December cd 11

2. Just OPK's

3. Just found out my sister is pregnant which is so awesomely exciting for her but it stings for me and made me cry because I should be almost in my third tri. I keep having dreams that I am very, very pregnant which isn't helping either.

4. I have a dog who is sweet but a little Cray.

[seeyalater52]

May 11, 2018 5:43:53 GMT -5 @slk4117 said:

BFN on 10dpo.

I’m devastated.

Me too, friend, also 10dpo. Me too.

[seeyalater52]

Like, I literally don’t even understand why I tested at 10dpo, especially since the odds are so bad for this cycle. I just have no patience and terrible anxiety and apparently no self control. And now I’m useless at work.

Since this is my 19th TWW I also helpfully did the math and determined that I’ve now spent as much time in the TWW as I would need to gestate a full-term pregnancy.

[seeyalater52]

May 11, 2018 11:04:58 GMT -5 @slk4117 said:

May 11, 2018 10:26:41 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Like, I literally don’t even understand why I tested at 10dpo, especially since the odds are so bad for this cycle. I just have no patience and terrible anxiety and apparently no self control. And now I’m useless at work.

Since this is my 19th TWW I also helpfully did the math and determined that I’ve now spent as much time in the TWW as I would need to gestate a full-term pregnancy.

I figured that knowing TODAY might lessen the sting of testing on Mother's Day, but lord knows I'm going to test then, too if i haven't gotten AF yet. 

*TMI* I'm also still checking my cervix (maybe high? or medium? kind of soft, I guess?), CM (clear? but kinda streaky?) touching my boobs constantly to see if they hurt (maybe? I don't fucking know anymore, if you push on anything too hard it's going to hurt), my emotions are through the roof, yesterday I was slightly nauseous, the day before my apple and peanut butter tasted weird, but it's always and forever a goddamn BFN. 

I'm so sorry. I feel the same way (except I know the progesterone suppositories are making my symptoms worse. They're fucking disgusting and leaky and making me feel nauseous and bloated and my breasts painful.) I'm not testing anymore until Monday but I really am just so, so sad. 

[katespade]

@slk4117, suzv, seeyalater52 - I’m sorry about your BFNs. Hopefully it’s just too early for all of you and your BFPs are on the way.

When are y’all expecting AF?

[seeyalater52]

I'd normally get my period on Sunday (~12 day luteal phase), but I have to take progesterone up until my Tuesday 5/15 official test date, so I won't get my period until after I stop.

[tacom]

Sorry about all the stupid BFNs. ☹️ I could just be bad at reading tests but I got a negative FRER at 10dpo followed by a positive at 12. Fingers still crossed 🤞🏻

[compassrose]

I’m so sorry slk, suz, seeyalater. It’s so incredibly shitty. I’ve been thinking about how much I’ve shaped my life around having a kid (job, house, car, being near my parents) that has never materialized. And I have no idea if IVF will even work for us. And if we adopt, it could take years, too. It’s just so damn hard. I love my stepsons, but they are all almost grown and I want more parenting. I’m a good stepmom, damnit. Why can’t I be a mom, too?

[grover]

hugs seeyalater52, compassrose, @slk4117. I definitely had similar thoughts, especially since we abstained, got married, waited for me to get a full time teaching job before we started trying. Then TTC hit, and my sister got knocked up and had two kids in an 11 month span.


My polyp removal was yesterday. No pain meds needed today, just a heating pad. however I'm on pelvic rest for two weeks so this month is out. Tentatively planning IUI next month provided H's testing is okay. (My TSH came back borderline, but they are willing to continue on with IUI and watch and see with my TSH for now.)

[compassrose]

grover, I hope IUI works for you the first time!

[Jalapeñomel]

Good luck grover! I hope you’re one and done with the iui.

[seeyalater52]

I hope recovery from the polyp removal is quick and easy grover so you can move onto an IUI.

As for me I tested negative again at 13dpo today so basically I’m out.

[seeyalater52]

May 14, 2018 6:51:33 GMT -5 @slk4117 said:

May 14, 2018 5:36:16 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I hope recovery from the polyp removal is quick and easy grover so you can move onto an IUI.

As for me I tested negative again at 13dpo today so basically I’m out.

Hugs to you, my friend <3 this fucking blows.

Back at you. This is the absolute worst.