Week of 9/24

[icedcoffee]

How's everyone doing?  I'm just taking birth control this week, as any woman who wants to get pregnant would do.  

[megstoo]

I had a monitoring appt this morning. CD9 and largest follicle was only at 13mm. I had 7 others at 11mm. Slow growers again I think which worries me.  Gonal f tonight and then I'll go back Wednesday for another monitor and possibly another gonal f. Tentatively ovidrel is for Saturday and IUI for Monday. Of course that could all change as dates often do with fertility treatments. This is the last IUI before moving to IVF though.

[latte]

Still in the 2 ww. I am not supposed to test until Friday, but I was taking to another woman who had her transfer right after mine and she might test Wednesday. I think I might too since that will be 10dp5dt. I want to test and I don’t, so it’s easier than I thought it would be to avoid it.

megstoo I hope Wednesday shows growth!

[fairfax]

Sept 24, 2018 12:01:29 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

How's everyone doing?  I'm just taking birth control this week, as any woman who wants to get pregnant would do.  

Isn’t that a weird thing? My first cycle I was like “this is bizarre to spend $$$$ on medications to get pregnant, but also $30 on BCP...”

[fairfax]

We have 2 embryos growing now - the day 3 report yesterday was really positive, both were grade 1 and had 8 cells. Next report should be Wednesday so I am keeping my fingers crossed!

It’s hard not to think about all the milestones we still have to hit but I’m really trying to focus on the positive news and stay in the moment.

[seeyalater52]

I’m really struggling this week. I’m honestly at such a loss. I don’t understand how we got here and I hate not knowing if this will ever happen for us.

Also FINALLY got my stupid period 6 days after stopping PIO, which was a mindfuck of its own.

[fairfax]

Sept 24, 2018 16:16:28 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I’m really struggling this week. I’m honestly at such a loss. I don’t understand how we got here and I hate not knowing if this will ever happen for us.

Also FINALLY got my stupid period 6 days after stopping PIO, which was a mindfuck of its own.

I’m sorry you’re struggling - this really is so hard and overwhelming. Can you beat your period into submission with brownies and wine? That’s what I do. #healthy

[latte]

I’m sorry seeyalater52 (hugs) and I second the suggestion of wine and chocolate.

[woowoo]

I am 4dp5dt and waiting until Friday to test. Beta not until Monday. I'll be with my whole family this weekend for a wedding which will be a good distraction no matter what happens.

seeyalater52, I'm really sorry this week is so hard.

[compassrose]

Two perfect embryos would be amazing fairfax. I’m cheering for them!
I hope you get your BFPs this week latte and woowoo.

seeyalater52, this is a damn hard rollercoaster to be on. I’m so sorry you have to ride it again.

[stellelinds25]

My cycle was officially cancelled on Friday At my monitoring appt in the morning I had 1 measuring at 10 and 10 small ones...so I was hopeful. But my E2 levels barely went up. Gotta wait for my period (which they said could take 3-4 weeks till the Lupron gets out of my system, ugh) and then we'll try again. They'll start me at higher doses of Menopur & Follistim and we won't use Lupron, instead they'll do Ganirelex. I'm glad we have a plan, but it still sucks.

fairfax sending lots of healthy growing vibes for your 2 little embies!!
seeyalater52 I get it...man do I ever get it right now. This process sucks. (((hugs)))

[seeyalater52]

Sept 24, 2018 17:10:48 GMT -5 fairfax said:

Sept 24, 2018 16:16:28 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I’m really struggling this week. I’m honestly at such a loss. I don’t understand how we got here and I hate not knowing if this will ever happen for us.

Also FINALLY got my stupid period 6 days after stopping PIO, which was a mindfuck of its own.

I’m sorry you’re struggling - this really is so hard and overwhelming. Can you beat your period into submission with brownies and wine? That’s what I do. #healthy

Thanks, everyone. It is so hard to stay optimistic when it feels like nothing is working. I did have some chocolate though, and that helped.

Good luck with your tests/betas latte and woowoo!
Fingers crossed for your two embryos fairfax!

[seeyalater52]

Sept 25, 2018 6:35:14 GMT -5 stellelinds25 said:

My cycle was officially cancelled on Friday At my monitoring appt in the morning I had 1 measuring at 10 and 10 small ones...so I was hopeful. But my E2 levels barely went up. Gotta wait for my period (which they said could take 3-4 weeks till the Lupron gets out of my system, ugh) and then we'll try again. They'll start me at higher doses of Menopur & Follistim and we won't use Lupron, instead they'll do Ganirelex. I'm glad we have a plan, but it still sucks.

fairfax sending lots of healthy growing vibes for your 2 little embies!!
seeyalater52 I get it...man do I ever get it right now. This process sucks. (((hugs)))

Oh my gosh I’m so sorry. What a blow. I have heard great things about some people switching between different protocols with fantastic results so I hope that the switch is a great thing for you but the waiting and disappointment is so frustrating.

[latte]

Sorry stellelinds25 that is so frustrating. I hope the switch up will work for your next cycle.

[icedcoffee]

I'm so sorry stellelinds25. That is such a bummer. I hope they can tweak the protocol and get you good results.

[compassrose]

I'm so sorry stellelinds25. That's so incredibly frustrating and disappointing.

[woowoo]

stellelinds25, that sucks. I'm sorry. Take care of yourself.

[fairfax]

Sept 25, 2018 6:35:14 GMT -5 stellelinds25 said:

My cycle was officially cancelled on Friday At my monitoring appt in the morning I had 1 measuring at 10 and 10 small ones...so I was hopeful. But my E2 levels barely went up. Gotta wait for my period (which they said could take 3-4 weeks till the Lupron gets out of my system, ugh) and then we'll try again. They'll start me at higher doses of Menopur & Follistim and we won't use Lupron, instead they'll do Ganirelex. I'm glad we have a plan, but it still sucks.

fairfax sending lots of healthy growing vibes for your 2 little embies!!
seeyalater52 I get it...man do I ever get it right now. This process sucks. (((hugs)))

I’m sorry they cancelled, what a disappointment! FWIW, my first IVF cycle the protocol included BCP and Lupron twice a day. It took forever for my follicles to develop (18 days of stims- Lupron am/pm, Follistim am, Menopur pm). My dr thought they overly suppressed me with the Lupron. This cycle they changed it up (estrace, Follistim? Menopur, Ganirelex/Gonal F and growth hormone) and I had follicle growth much quicker. So, there is hope! They just have to find what works for your body.

[pinkpeony08]

stellelinds25 I'm so sorry

Fingers crossed for you fairfax!

Thinking of you latte woowoo - hoping for good results!

so sorry seeyalater52, how frustrating

thinking of you today at your US compassrose

I asked my OB to talk with RE and MFM to get consensus on a plan to help me feel better. Still waiting to hear back. Meanwhile, I had a tiny bit of super light pink discharge last night and this AM. Fingers crossed it is just the prometrium. I took a test yesterday and the line was definitely darker than it was 48 hours prior.

[icedcoffee]

**Potential This is Us spoiler alert!**



Anyone watch last night?  Oh man.  It will be really interesting to see if they show all the details of Toby and Kate going through IVF.  I can't think of any other show that has shown what IVF entails.  It was a lot to watch.  10% chance?!?! UGH.  

[stellelinds25]

Sept 25, 2018 22:29:40 GMT -5 fairfax said:

Sept 25, 2018 6:35:14 GMT -5 stellelinds25 said:

My cycle was officially cancelled on Friday At my monitoring appt in the morning I had 1 measuring at 10 and 10 small ones...so I was hopeful. But my E2 levels barely went up. Gotta wait for my period (which they said could take 3-4 weeks till the Lupron gets out of my system, ugh) and then we'll try again. They'll start me at higher doses of Menopur & Follistim and we won't use Lupron, instead they'll do Ganirelex. I'm glad we have a plan, but it still sucks.

fairfax sending lots of healthy growing vibes for your 2 little embies!!
seeyalater52 I get it...man do I ever get it right now. This process sucks. (((hugs)))

I’m sorry they cancelled, what a disappointment! FWIW, my first IVF cycle the protocol included BCP and Lupron twice a day. It took forever for my follicles to develop (18 days of stims- Lupron am/pm, Follistim am, Menopur pm). My dr thought they overly suppressed me with the Lupron. This cycle they changed it up (estrace, Follistim? Menopur, Ganirelex/Gonal F and growth hormone) and I had follicle growth much quicker. So, there is hope! They just have to find what works for your body.

Thank you!! My RE doesn't use BCP, but they do think the Lupron suppressed me too much. They said the Ganirelex will do the same thing the Lupron is supposed to do, but I won't be on it for as long (I started the Lupron 2 weeks before I started stims) and I'll take a smaller dose. 

Thanks to all of you for your support...I know I'm new around here, but having an outlet to get all this out helps SO much. My friends don't get it...to them it's "just one more month" or it "wasn't meant to be yet." I wish I had started posting here sooner  

[compassrose]

Sept 26, 2018 7:56:03 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

**Potential This is Us spoiler alert!**



Anyone watch last night?  Oh man.  It will be really interesting to see if they show all the details of Toby and Kate going through IVF.  I can't think of any other show that has shown what IVF entails.  It was a lot to watch.  10% chance?!?! UGH.  

RIGHT?? I could not believe that the doctor both was such an ass about Kate's weight (which I found very believable) and then turned around to be the hero (which I did not). I also couldn't believe they didn't explain to Toby that his count doesn't matter with ICSI, really, and not to go off of his antidepressants, but I guess then they couldn't give them even more drama.  

[stellelinds25]

Sept 26, 2018 7:56:03 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

**Potential This is Us spoiler alert!**



Anyone watch last night?  Oh man.  It will be really interesting to see if they show all the details of Toby and Kate going through IVF.  I can't think of any other show that has shown what IVF entails.  It was a lot to watch.  10% chance?!?! UGH.  

I am super anxious to see how that story pans out...mostly because Kate's story is exactly my story (I was over 400 lbs, RE wouldn't do any fertility stuff till I lost weight, I had weight loss surgery, etc). I really hope that they show all the good, bad & ugly of IVF and I'm really hoping they do the story justice.

[woowoo]

So....a line is a line, right?
RIGHT?

[icedcoffee]

compassrose, stellelinds25, Yes! I really hope they do the IVF story justice. Kate's doctor was suck a dick, but totally accurate. I don't have issues with the weight thing, but in a lot of ways my doctor is SUPER matter of fact and it has stung a few times when all you want to hear is "this will work" and they're all "this has a 36% chance of working".

My RE did tell my H to go off of his heart meds and I was all "Uhhh---well, the alternative is that he have a heart attack so let's think of other solutions".

[compassrose]

Sept 26, 2018 8:24:38 GMT -5 woowoo said:

Maybe stick this in its own thread though?

[woowoo]

Sept 26, 2018 8:30:06 GMT -5 compassrose said:

Sept 26, 2018 8:24:38 GMT -5 woowoo said:

Of course it is! Congratulations! I'm so happy for you!

Maybe stick this in its own thread though?

I wasn't sure what was best.   I will though!

[pooh8402]

I didn't watch This is Us last season (I KNOW) but now I plan to watch this season!

[scm1011]

Sept 26, 2018 8:26:17 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

compassrose , stellelinds25 , Yes! I really hope they do the IVF story justice. Kate's doctor was suck a dick, but totally accurate. I don't have issues with the weight thing, but in a lot of ways my doctor is SUPER matter of fact and it has stung a few times when all you want to hear is "this will work" and they're all "this has a 36% chance of working".

This is my RE, too. She doesn't have the greatest bedside manner, but she gets results so I guess I can deal with her slightly cold attitude (like yesterday when she pretty much told me to suck it up and deal with the itchy as fuck Vivelle patches because I couldn't have the oral version)

[icedcoffee]

Sept 26, 2018 13:48:50 GMT -5 scm1011 said:

Sept 26, 2018 8:26:17 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

compassrose , stellelinds25 , Yes! I really hope they do the IVF story justice. Kate's doctor was suck a dick, but totally accurate. I don't have issues with the weight thing, but in a lot of ways my doctor is SUPER matter of fact and it has stung a few times when all you want to hear is "this will work" and they're all "this has a 36% chance of working".

This is my RE, too. She doesn't have the greatest bedside manner, but she gets results so I guess I can deal with her slightly cold attitude (like yesterday when she pretty much told me to suck it up and deal with the itchy as fuck Vivelle patches because I couldn't have the oral version)

I think eventually they just become numb to the whole thing.  Just another lady bitching that she's infertile!  LOL