Happy Tuesday!

[spindle92]

I woke up today and thought it was Wednesday and immediately shut off my alarm clock.  (I have wednesday's off)
Thank god my cat threw up shortly after that because I had to get up to clean that and realized today is only Tuesday.
Then I flew around the house like a wild woman to get ready and make it to work at a decent time.


Did anyone buy anything good on cyber monday?   I did not.  I spent enough over the weekend.

[SwimDeep]

I bought an Ancestry DNA thingy for 50% off. It's for my H. He's curious

My cart at Loft is still full of stuff I want. But I still want the 25% discount from opening the credit account. I got in touch with customer support and they said they would honor the 50% cyber monday discount when my card comes in. But I'm also rethinking...the last thing I need is another card. Even if I do pay it off the minute I charge money to it. Can you have buyer's remorse before you buy anything?

[neonpink]

spindle92, I've been there, thought it was the weekend. Nope hurry run!

I woke up with I bad sinus headache. I wanted to go to 6am yoga. I got up at 5:30 and my head hurt so bad I went back to bed hoping it would go away. No such luck. I took some sinus medication and hope it kicks in soon.

The only thing I bought was a pair of headphones for myself. I have a 20% entire purchase at Target and an additional 10$ off coupon. It starts tomorrow so I am going to go pick up some gifts for my nieces tomorrow. They want the American Doll stuff and Target has a knock off brand. I looked on the American Doll website. There is no freakin way I am going to spend $16.00 on a pair of doll shoes. That is insane.

[tiramisu]

I did all of my shopping this weekend. I still need to get something else for my mom and something for my dad. Most of my shopping was for me: dance shoes, backup tinted moisturizer, etc.

This morning I got really stressed out because after I got in my car and started driving, my drive time estimate on the GPS suddenly jumped up by 5 minutes. Luckily it didn't make me crazy late to work or anything, it was just a morning adrenaline jolt I really didn't need.

[gault]

kaneen, I've been thinking about you. How are you doing?

[kaneen]

Nov 27, 2018 14:15:30 GMT -5 gault said:

kaneen , I've been thinking about you. How are you doing?

Thanks.  I'm ok.  Well, today I'm ok.  It's a real rollercoaster of emotions.  I've been writing in a journal a lot.  Like multiple times a day.  And that has been helping me sort through my thoughts/feelings.

Today I had a bit of an epiphany.  I know that I didn't publicly share the whole story so I apologize if this doesn't make a ton of sense but he basically broke up with me because he needs to fix himself.  He can't do that and be with me at the same time.  If I were reading someone else typing this I'd call bullshit but I've lived it and it's real.  One of the things I've struggled with though is that I did not see it coming.  Like, not even a glimmer.  Nothing.   I knew that he wasn't sleeping well and he was stressed but I never dreamed it was because of our relationship.  On the Sunday before he broke up with me we were at the house we were about to buy measuring for furniture!  Anyway, that's Sunday and he broke it off on Tuesday.  No warning.  None.  I say all of that because the complete and utter shock has me second guessing myself and what I know to be true and real.  Like, I really really really believed in him and in us - and then it's gone.  So it's like, if I could believe so fully in that and have it not be real, then what else am I getting wrong?  And then I realized that everyone I love, my family and my friends, have loved me during this and supported me fully.  The people I believed in CAN be trusted and I CAN count on them.  All of them but him. So the issue isn't me, it really is him.  He's the one with the problem.  He's the one who needs fixing.  And I can't do that for him as much as I'd like to.  He has to do that for himself.


So yeah, that's where I'm at today.  

[neonpink]

kaneen, Wow. I'm so sorry that you are going through all this. Monster hugs.

[kaneen]

Nov 28, 2018 14:42:11 GMT -5 neonpink said:

kaneen , Wow. I'm so sorry that you are going through all this. Monster hugs.

Thanks.

[tiramisu]

Oh my goodness kaneen sending you ALL the love and hugs. That sounds like a good epiphany and I'm glad it occurred. I'm still so sorry you're going through this and am still here for you anytime. I'm sorry I haven't been better at checking in, please know I'm here for you and will try to do better at reaching out. <3 <3

[gault]

kaneen you're so, so correct. It is on him. His actions did not occur because you missed something.

I've had similar thoughts post-relationship, and it's a mind fuck. You're doing all the right things to take care of yourself love you.

[bullygirl979]

kaneen, I'm sorry. Even realizing that this truly IS about him, doesn't lessen the hurt. Sending you huge hugs.

[kaneen]

Nov 28, 2018 21:02:34 GMT -5 gault said:

kaneen you're so, so correct. It is on him. His actions did not occur because you missed something.

I've had similar thoughts post-relationship, and it's a mind fuck. You're doing all the right things to take care of yourself love you.

Love you too and thanks.

[kaneen]

Nov 29, 2018 8:53:39 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

kaneen , I'm sorry. Even realizing that this truly IS about him, doesn't lessen the hurt. Sending you huge hugs.

Thanks.

[kaneen]

Nov 28, 2018 16:46:01 GMT -5 tiramisu said:

Oh my goodness kaneen sending you ALL the love and hugs. That sounds like a good epiphany and I'm glad it occurred. I'm still so sorry you're going through this and am still here for you anytime. I'm sorry I haven't been better at checking in, please know I'm here for you and will try to do better at reaching out. <3 <3

Thanks.

[mags]

kaneen
that is a huge step~
one day at a time girl

hugs lady

[kaneen]

Nov 29, 2018 11:14:15 GMT -5 mags said:

kaneen
that is a huge step~
one day at a time girl

hugs lady

Thanks sista!