Thinking of all those..

[pinkpeony08]

Who are also having a tough time this season.

At My parents’ house this week, which is wonderfully relaxing but hard that it seems everyone seems to think we have all moved on after only 3 weeks after my 4th miscarriage in a row. My sister in law (who also struggled with infertility) got teary and have me a hug after everyone else had moved into the other room, asking me how I was doing and acknowledging this is likely a tough time of year. Hoping my husband and I can get out tonight for a date night.

Hugs to all those also struggling this holiday season.

[seeyalater52]

Thank you for posing this. I’m so sorry you’re hurting, and of course it takes more than just a few weeks to move on after experiencing a loss.

I am really struggling. It’s the first time in a while I’ve really felt like I might not be ok after all of this is over. The holidays make everything worse. We aren’t seeing family this year because I just can’t bear to be around my pregnant sister and my family who thinks we are being dramatic about our losses. They don’t understand and aren’t interested in trying to understand so I’m done trying to nudge them in the right direction at the expense of my own emotional health.

[pinkpeony08]

I’m so sorry seeyalater52. Big hugs to you. I Hope you can do something special like a date night or do something special. Get a massage? Make a fire in the fire place and snuggle up by it with wine?

After my loss last fall at 14w, we went two weeks later to my brother and sister in law’s for their daughter’s birthday. We couldn’t really miss bc my kids adore cousin time. My brother and his wife had just had their second baby a month prior. Seeing the baby was fairly tolerable, but they seriously talked about the baby the entire weekend?!? Despite having gone through infertility themselves and still wouldn’t shut up, it was really hard.

Other than my sister in law, who I mentioned, our families don’t seem to get it. Maybe they think we are “used to” the losses now? Or that it has gotten easier when in reality, it’s gotten harder? Or that they all had two kids and think we are crazy for even wanting a third? I don’t know what the logic is, but surely if doesn’t help. My in law’s response to the text of no heartbeat was “crap. I’m sorry.” Then nothing, no card, no acknowledgement. Just mailing all their christmas gifts unwrapped, expecting I would wrap everything. Thanks for listening to vent, ha.

[landmermaid]

I'm so sorry for your struggles pinkpeony08. Your grief from your loss is absolutely still new. Not to mention the other thoughts running through your mind. Big hugs. I'm so sorry.

Thank you for posting this. I've been struggling through this season too. I wasn't sure if it was just me. I want another so bad, but don't know if it's going to happen. I've been randomly bursting into tears.

[landmermaid]

My heart goes out to you, too seeyalater52 This is a difficult road, and we don't know where it goes. ❤️

[pinkpeony08]

@landermaid hugs to you. I have been near tears countless times this week at random times as well.

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((@landermaid)) ((seeyalater52)) ((pinkpeony08))
I’m sorry 2018 wasn’t a great year and the sorrows that brings especially around the holidays. I hope 2019 brings you all joy you deserve.