Week of Feb 3

[seeyalater52]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I'm so sorry. It's incredibly unfair. 

[G22]

seeyalater52, How frustrating all around! It can't ever be easy, can it?

[landmermaid]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

Oh no no no no. I'm so sorry. My heart is broken for you.

[stellelinds25]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I'm sorry...it's just not fair

[chocolatepie]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I am so sorry. 

[chocolatepie]

seeyalater52, augh, that's awful! Just adds insult to injury. I am so sorry

[pickel]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I am so incredibly sorry.

[King26]

Feb 8, 2019 9:19:07 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I’m having a giant nasty PIO reaction. Way worse than anything I’ve ever had before. And now I’m crying because I’m scared the reaction is going to fuck up my transfer or cause another miscarriage and I don't think I can switch oils without messing up my ERA-tested protocol.

I woupd ask if you can get it in olive oil. I had a horrible eeaction to the sesame oil so they switched me. Its more expensive but was so much better. I have a pharmacy that will ship if you need it. Just tag me.

[lexisgrrl1980]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I’m so sorry. Sending you comforting thought

[seeyalater52]

Feb 8, 2019 16:16:12 GMT -5 King26 said:

Feb 8, 2019 9:19:07 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I’m having a giant nasty PIO reaction. Way worse than anything I’ve ever had before. And now I’m crying because I’m scared the reaction is going to fuck up my transfer or cause another miscarriage and I don't think I can switch oils without messing up my ERA-tested protocol.

I woupd ask if you can get it in olive oil. I had a horrible eeaction to the sesame oil so they switched me. Its more expensive but was so much better. I have a pharmacy that will ship if you need it. Just tag me.

This is a possibility later on. I’m not sure if you saw y update. I’m not sure I’m willing to invalidate my ERA results by changing and my RE is recommending to stick with it until at least transfer if not until beta, then reassess. In the meantime I’m just going to inject mostly on the unaffected side, since only one side has ever gotten this reaction.

[fairfax]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I am so sorry. It’s so unfair.

[fairfax]

Feb 8, 2019 11:10:34 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Thank you landmermaid, G22, icedcoffee, vmars, stellelinds25, robinsbff, and knx9211.

I've had this type of reaction before and it seems to be getting worse with repeated exposure (which is apparently normal) and it only occurs on ONE side, which is totally bizarre. The nurse got back to me and apparently my doctor thinks it isn't a big deal because the reaction is localized and not warm to the touch or weeping. They want me to keep monitoring it to make sure it doesn't get worse, and do injections only on the other side for a few days. They'll take a look when I go in for transfer on Tuesday and we will go from there.

I'm already taking 2x a day suppositories in addition to the PIO and they want to keep me on this version of PIO through transfer because it's the one I did the ERA on and apparently there can be differences in progesrerone concentration between the different oil types. Usually that wouldn't be an issue but it would definitely invalidate my ERA results. So here we are.

I did get permission to pop Benadryl and use cortizone cream, although honestly the reaction isn't really that itchy. Just lumpy and irritated (especially because it's at my waistline so my underwear and pants keep rubbing it.)

Both my RE and my immunologist friend swear that this will have no bearing on transfer success, and if we don't change the PIO out after transfer on Tuesday we can also re-assess after beta if the transfer works for a better long-term solution. I'm still freaking out because that's what TTC after loss brain is, but I'm slightly less panicked than I was before.

Ugh, sorry about the reaction but I’m glad it won’t impact transfer!! Hopefully they can find a more comfortable solution afterwards.

[barney96]

Jalapeñomel I'm so sorry. I wish there was something we could say to actually make things better.

[robinsbff]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

i'm so, so sorry.  words aren't even enough.  hugs.  

[bronxgirl]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I am so, so sorry.  I know how hurtful this is and it just fucking sucks.  In regards to your second sentence, I know everyone's different, but for me it has gotten a little easier over the years, although the pain is still there.  If you ever want to get together and commiserate (preferably over alcohol). I'm only about 25 minutes away.

[King26]

Feb 8, 2019 10:52:16 GMT -5 Jalapeñomel said:

The embryo is abnormal, it seems this is over for me.

I hope, one day, I can look at moms of 2/2+ and pregnant women without searing jealousy and heartbreak.

I am so, so sorry