Freaking out (BFP) Update: loss

[achi]

I just had a miscarriage in early January and after being told we could try again after a two week sexy time hiatus to avoid infection we did. I ovulated super late (CD 24) and today at 13 dpo I got a BFP after a super squinter on 10 & 11 dpo.

I have a requisition for beta hcg left from my miscarriage so I’m going for bloodwork today and seeing my doctor late tomorrow morning.

I’m feeling pretty nervous but trying to be optimistic. Please keep your fingers crossed for me! I’ll update with results when they come in.

[biogirl21]

Congrats! Stick baby!

[landmermaid]

So exciting! I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope this is it for you! 🌈

[jennistarr1]

YES!

[achi]

Thanks ladies! First beta came back at 25 which is lower than I was hoping for but within the normal range for 4 weeks so I’m trying not to worry about it and stay positive.

My tests are getting darker and symptoms are slowly getting stronger so I’m taking that as a good sign. The important thing is the doubling time, and of course it’s a long weekend here and all the labs are closed all damn weekend so I can’t go again until Tuesday. Im hoping for at least 100 at that time so please send all the sticky vibes you can muster.

[achi]

Small update: I had my labs redrawn on Friday since 25 is considered a “borderline” number and it doubled exactly to 50 in 24 hours which is awesome! I’m going back for my third beta on Tuesday and will be hoping for between 150-200.

[achi]

Yesterday’s third beta results are in! HCG was 411 yesterday for a doubling time of just over 30 hours. We’re not out of the woods, but I’m feeling a lot of relief now that I’m past the point where I miscarried the previous pregnancy.

I’m going to move on over to the other board. Thank you for all the support ladies, it means a lot!

[jennistarr1]

Hooray! This is awesome!

[achi]

I am so so angry and sad right now. I started having brown spotting last night and it’s progressed to dark red. Ended up at the ER and my HCG only came back at 472 so it’s barely gone up since Tuesday, it’s been more than 48 hours. I have to get a rhogam shot and they’re going to do an ultrasound to make sure it not ectopic but it’s going to be another loss.

I am seriously furious right now.

[seeyalater52]

Feb 21, 2019 15:30:59 GMT -5 achi said:

I am so so angry and sad right now. I started having brown spotting last night and it’s progressed to dark red. Ended up at the ER and my HCG only came back at 472 so it’s barely gone up since Tuesday, it’s been more than 48 hours. I have to get a rhogam shot and they’re going to do an ultrasound to make sure it not ectopic but it’s going to be another loss.

I am seriously furious right now.

I’m so, so sorry. I just saw this and had to respond as I’m currently having my 3rd pregnancy loss in 8 months. Having repeated loss is just so hard and scary, I’m sorry you have to go through this. I hope your doctor takes it seriously and does a full workup if you want one. Even so, you might not get any answers (I didnt) but if there is something going on that could be addressed for next time it might make you feel more proactive.

[biogirl21]

I am so sorry 💔

[aprilsails]

I am so very sorry achi. Big hugs to you.

[jennistarr1]

Feb 21, 2019 15:30:59 GMT -5 achi said:

I am so so angry and sad right now. I started having brown spotting last night and it’s progressed to dark red. Ended up at the ER and my HCG only came back at 472 so it’s barely gone up since Tuesday, it’s been more than 48 hours. I have to get a rhogam shot and they’re going to do an ultrasound to make sure it not ectopic but it’s going to be another loss.

I am seriously furious right now.

No no no no no no...omg I'm literally shouting at the computer...I'm so upset for you, this can't be...I'm so so sorry. Hang in there ...oh honey 

[vmars]

seeyalater52 - ditto what she said. Please make sure you have a full work up done. This includes bloodwork, HSG, SA for DH. We found out through our testing I have a rare chromosome abnormality which causes miscarriages. We are starting IVF with genetic testing soon. If you want all the blood tests my doc ran send me a PM and I will dig it up. Be kind to yourself, repeat loss is a mind fuck.

[achi]

Thanks ladies. I’m just really numb today. The ultrasound results shows basically a blighted ovum which is sitting in the cervix and causing the spotting. I’m just waiting to start bleeding for real. My doctor wants me to do another beta on Monday to make sure the numbers are going down. She’s giving my body a week to start bleeding on its own, and after that she’ll do meds. I’ll have to have an ultrasound to make sure the “products of conception” are gone (fuck that’s an awful term that I hope to never hear again) and then she wants us to wait 3 months to try again.

I’ll have a follow up appointment when we can talk about next steps but I’m going to push for an OBGYN referral and more testing.

[achi]

Feb 21, 2019 17:17:36 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Feb 21, 2019 15:30:59 GMT -5 achi said:

I am so so angry and sad right now. I started having brown spotting last night and it’s progressed to dark red. Ended up at the ER and my HCG only came back at 472 so it’s barely gone up since Tuesday, it’s been more than 48 hours. I have to get a rhogam shot and they’re going to do an ultrasound to make sure it not ectopic but it’s going to be another loss.

I am seriously furious right now.

I’m so, so sorry. I just saw this and had to respond as I’m currently having my 3rd pregnancy loss in 8 months. Having repeated loss is just so hard and scary, I’m sorry you have to go through this. I hope your doctor takes it seriously and does a full workup if you want one. Even so, you might not get any answers (I didnt) but if there is something going on that could be addressed for next time it might make you feel more proactive.

I’m so sorry for your losses. Thank you for your support.

[landmermaid]

Fuck! I'm so sorry to hear this, achi. It's so unfair. I've had multiple losses so my heart goes out to you. I've had lots of work ups done. Please feel free to pm me if you want to talk. I'm so sorry.

[jennistarr1]

How are you doing?

[achi]

Feb 26, 2019 12:04:25 GMT -5 jennistarr1 said:

How are you doing?

I finally started bleeding today. I’m relieved because I really didn’t want to have to take meds to force it. A friend of mind had to have meds and she said she has never felt worse in her life, and she has 3 kids and a pretty high tolerance for not feeling well. So needless to say I wanted to avoid THAT.

Emotionally, I’m doing a lot better than I thought I would. I think maybe it’s because I had 5 days to process it before the bleeding started, and because I’ve been through the rawness of it all so recently. I am a bit worried how I’ll react once I actually pass everything. MIL took DS Saturday afternoon and H picked him up yesterday after work so I had a lot of time for self care.

I need to call my doctor and let her know what’s going on since she was giving me a week for my body to start the process. Once H gets home I need to go do bloodwork to check my levels (DS has a fever so I kept him home today and don’t care to drag him to the lab if he’s not well). Next week she’ll send me for an ultrasound and I’m going to ask her to have them look around at everything so we can be sure there’s nothing out of the ordinary. Then we can discuss next steps for testing, etc. I’ve also asked H to get a requisition for a semen analysis from his doctor. He had one back when we were TTC our son, but it’s probably time for another.