Here we go again (BFP) - Well this is embarrassing.

[achi]

I got a super squinter BFP at 9 dpo and have been watching it darken up over the past couple days (12 dpo today). My OB is on vacation this week so I can't call him about betas until Monday which is making me a bit batty. I have started the progesterone/synthroid/baby aspirin protocol as soon as I got the squinter because I'd rather be on it and be wrong than not be on it and regret it later. Kudos to anyone on progesterone suppositories for any length of time, because yuck. 

Emotionally I'm pretty terrified. I'm trying to stay positive and hopeful though. 

[jennistarr1]

Hooray!

[vmars]

Congrats! I hope everything goes smoothly this time!

[murphybrown]

Congratulations! Hope you get some good betas.

[jennistarr1]

okay it's been less than a week but any updates?

[achi]

Jun 4, 2019 11:48:52 GMT -5 jennistarr1 said:

okay it's been less than a week but any updates?

Welp... I posted too soon. What I thought was an early positive was in fact a false positive on some faulty freaking tests. Which was especially confusing because a couple were legitimately darker than the first day. I tested with a digital and then two other brands and got super AF negatives. Then I tested with the same tests I'd been using (I did one with my urine, and one with DS since he had just gone potty) and they were both positive, which is impossible.

I'm pretty frustrated by the situation, even more so because it was the same brand of test I've used when I got my BFP with DS and with my second loss (which I had betas for). Clearly they either had a colossal fuck up or something with their manufacturing process has changed. But the silver lining is at least it's not another loss? It's CD 2 here. 

I waited to update because I was embarrassed and at this point I pretty much feel like the girl who cried pregnant.

[jennistarr1]

Jun 4, 2019 13:02:38 GMT -5 achi said:

Jun 4, 2019 11:48:52 GMT -5 jennistarr1 said:

okay it's been less than a week but any updates?

Welp... I posted too soon. What I thought was an early positive was in fact a false positive on some faulty freaking tests. Which was especially confusing because a couple were legitimately darker than the first day. I tested with a digital and then two other brands and got super AF negatives. Then I tested with the same tests I'd been using (I did one with my urine, and one with DS since he had just gone potty) and they were both positive, which is impossible.

I'm pretty frustrated by the situation, even more so because it was the same brand of test I've used when I got my BFP with DS and with my second loss (which I had betas for). Clearly they either had a colossal fuck up or something with their manufacturing process has changed. But the silver lining is at least it's not another loss? It's CD 2 here. 

I waited to update because I was embarrassed and at this point I pretty much feel like the girl who cried pregnant.

My goodness...I'm so sorry. Mostly for disappointment but also I feel like I called you out. You DID NOT post too soon. I honestly think it's important for all of us, active posters and lurkers, to experience with each other the highs and lows of this journey. We are eager to share in the excitement, but able to sit right here with you when you feel let down. Thank you, honestly, for sharing. Sending so much love to you my friend

[achi]

Jun 5, 2019 9:50:24 GMT -5 jennistarr1 said:

Jun 4, 2019 13:02:38 GMT -5 achi said:

Welp... I posted too soon. What I thought was an early positive was in fact a false positive on some faulty freaking tests. Which was especially confusing because a couple were legitimately darker than the first day. I tested with a digital and then two other brands and got super AF negatives. Then I tested with the same tests I'd been using (I did one with my urine, and one with DS since he had just gone potty) and they were both positive, which is impossible.

I'm pretty frustrated by the situation, even more so because it was the same brand of test I've used when I got my BFP with DS and with my second loss (which I had betas for). Clearly they either had a colossal fuck up or something with their manufacturing process has changed. But the silver lining is at least it's not another loss? It's CD 2 here. 

I waited to update because I was embarrassed and at this point I pretty much feel like the girl who cried pregnant.

My goodness...I'm so sorry. Mostly for disappointment but also I feel like I called you out. You DID NOT post too soon. I honestly think it's important for all of us, active posters and lurkers, to experience with each other the highs and lows of this journey. We are eager to share in the excitement, but able to sit right here with you when you feel let down. Thank you, honestly, for sharing. Sending so much love to you my friend

Thank you for the support!