Week of June 17

[VacayVaca]

What's going on?

[joenali]

I start lupron injections this week. I start stimulation five days later. I signed up for an open water swim for this Thursday. I may or may not go, it depends on how heavy and painful my period will be... if I get it. I have to plan my entire life around my period. I hate it.

[megstoo]

I start provera today to force a period. I'm on CD49 right now. I'm slightly pissed though. I went for a monitoring on Friday to check the lining so they could do the script for provera and there was more fluid. I had a laprascopy and hysteroscopy last month because of fluid and it's back. My first FET failed due to fluid. RE's office said they'll do an antihistamine protocol but I'm really not happy.

[ilovecandy]

Fuuuuuuck my dog may be relapsing. His platelet numbers are very low. But he is exhibiting no other symptoms so it is weird. Hitting him with some predisone and going to a different vet who uses a different lab to see what it shows on Thursday. Fingers crossed it ends up being nothing and a lab issue not a my dog issue (we have used this vet previously but they are 1.25 hours way. However we don't like either of the offices we have tried here so I am going to drive)

[wise_rita]

DD (good news for me)

[bronxgirl]

Congrats, wise_rita! I wish you the best.

[vmars]

Jun 18, 2019 2:43:54 GMT -5 wise_rita said:

End of 2WW for me and...BFP! No new thread for me, though.

I'm more terrified that something will go wrong than excited/nervous.

Please, please stick, baby!

I've never gotten a BFP before so it's reassuring to at least know I can get pregnant.

Congratulations!!!

[seeyalater52]

Congrats wise_rita! Just as a point of clarification, the individual threads for BFPs aren't just AWing, they're meant to help keep the weekly thread safe from obvious triggers for members still going through cycles, or coming off of failed cycles or losses. I'm not in a place right now to help determine what feels right for the posters in that situation currently so I can't say whether that's still the preference, but I wanted to mention it just in case.

[moonriver]

CD1 here. I’m unsure if I can continue going through the disappointment. We really want another child and I know it would be worth the heartache, but Im not sure if I’m strong enough for more failed cycles.

seeyalater52 I appreciate the BFPs/betas in their own posts, fwiw.

[seeyalater52]

Jun 18, 2019 9:53:25 GMT -5 moonriver said:

CD1 here. I’m unsure if I can continue going through the disappointment. We really want another child and I know it would be worth the heartache, but Im not sure if I’m strong enough for more failed cycles.

seeyalater52 I appreciate the BFPs/betas in their own posts, fwiw.

I'm so incredibly sorry. It's just heartbreaking to go through over and over. I think you know this, but I had decided to step back from treatment after this last transfer. Everything that has happened since makes me question that decision, but if it turns out we do need more treatment to be successful it may be that it's time for us to throw in the towel. It's such a hard decision. 

[moonriver]

Jun 18, 2019 10:06:39 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Jun 18, 2019 9:53:25 GMT -5 moonriver said:

CD1 here. I’m unsure if I can continue going through the disappointment. We really want another child and I know it would be worth the heartache, but Im not sure if I’m strong enough for more failed cycles.

seeyalater52 I appreciate the BFPs/betas in their own posts, fwiw.

I'm so incredibly sorry. It's just heartbreaking to go through over and over. I think you know this, but I had decided to step back from treatment after this last transfer. Everything that has happened since makes me question that decision, but if it turns out we do need more treatment to be successful it may be that it's time for us to throw in the towel. It's such a hard decision. 

I remember you trying to make that decision. And there’s always the “what-if” with another cycle. Right now we’re just doing medicated cycles and are unsure if we would go through with ivf if/once we run out of other options.

[VacayVaca]

Jun 18, 2019 10:44:06 GMT -5 moonriver said:

Jun 18, 2019 10:06:39 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

I remember you trying to make that decision. And there’s always the “what-if” with another cycle. Right now we’re just doing medicated cycles and are unsure if we would go through with ivf if/once we run out of other options.

I completely understand that feeling of disappointment and not knowing whether you can endure more.  I also really struggled with making the decision to try higher level treatment and asked so many women how they knew when it was time to move on.  The only thing I learned is that there are no easy answers or no clear paths.  

You don't have to make any decisions today. It's totally ok to just be sad today that it's another month not working.

[moonriver]

Jun 18, 2019 13:16:23 GMT -5 VacayVaca said:

Jun 18, 2019 10:44:06 GMT -5 moonriver said:

I remember you trying to make that decision. And there’s always the “what-if” with another cycle. Right now we’re just doing medicated cycles and are unsure if we would go through with ivf if/once we run out of other options.

I completely understand that feeling of disappointment and not knowing whether you can endure more.  I also really struggled with making the decision to try higher level treatment and asked so many women how they knew when it was time to move on.  The only thing I learned is that there are no easy answers or no clear paths.  

You don't have to make any decisions today. It's totally ok to just be sad today that it's another month not working.

Thanks. I scheduled my CD3 blood work/ultrasound and will discuss the treatment plan for this month. I think we’ll give it another go, and I’ll just try my damndest not to get my hopes up. It’ll be our fourth clomid round if we go that way again. @@@ When TTC my son I got pregnant on clomid round 2, which I’m realizing might have been extremely lucky. This time I didn’t respond the first round, we upped the dose, and I sort of responded the second. This last round everything actually looked good, so maybe I’ll find success if we keep trying. I don’t know. The past three cycles have been over a period of 6 months or so due to my H’s travel schedule (after a year of trying on our own, which, looking back, was dumb) so maybe two cycles back to back would kick my body in gear?

[wise_rita]

Jun 18, 2019 8:26:04 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Congrats wise_rita ! Just as a point of clarification, the individual threads for BFPs aren't just AWing, they're meant to help keep the weekly thread safe from obvious triggers for members still going through cycles, or coming off of failed cycles or losses. I'm not in a place right now to help determine what feels right for the posters in that situation currently so I can't say whether that's still the preference, but I wanted to mention it just in case.

Shit, sorry, I didn't know.  I DD'd but there's still a quote.

[seeyalater52]

Jun 18, 2019 17:11:56 GMT -5 wise_rita said:

Jun 18, 2019 8:26:04 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Congrats wise_rita ! Just as a point of clarification, the individual threads for BFPs aren't just AWing, they're meant to help keep the weekly thread safe from obvious triggers for members still going through cycles, or coming off of failed cycles or losses. I'm not in a place right now to help determine what feels right for the posters in that situation currently so I can't say whether that's still the preference, but I wanted to mention it just in case.

Shit, sorry, I didn't know.  I DD'd but there's still a quote.

No worries! We don’t have a rules thread so it’s all a little vague I think. Hoping for the best for you going forward. ❤️

[VacayVaca]

Jun 18, 2019 15:27:03 GMT -5 moonriver said:

Jun 18, 2019 13:16:23 GMT -5 VacayVaca said:

Thanks. I scheduled my CD3 blood work/ultrasound and will discuss the treatment plan for this month. I think we’ll give it another go, and I’ll just try my damndest not to get my hopes up. It’ll be our fourth clomid round if we go that way again. @@@ When TTC my son I got pregnant on clomid round 2, which I’m realizing might have been extremely lucky. This time I didn’t respond the first round, we upped the dose, and I sort of responded the second. This last round everything actually looked good, so maybe I’ll find success if we keep trying. I don’t know. The past three cycles have been over a period of 6 months or so due to my H’s travel schedule (after a year of trying on our own, which, looking back, was dumb) so maybe two cycles back to back would kick my body in gear?

It always helps for me to explore the probabilities.  If you have perfect timing in a given month, there's at best a 20% chance of conceiving (and it could be much lower for an individual).  After two months, there is a 36% chance of conceiving, and a 49% chance after three months. You only have a 20% chance each month, but you can determine the probability over time using the formula 1-(.8)^n, with n being the number of months.  Conceiving your son after two rounds was a pretty lucky outcome.

Travel schedules throw it all in a loop and I always get upset to miss the window.  As long as your doctor says the clomid is doing what it's supposed to and you're ovulating, you may just need more time/cycles.