It's honestly been a rough two weeks. Some of it is that I've just been pouring a lot of my emotional energy into others, checking in to make sure people are okay, etc and not getting much back. Which u don't expect at work, but walking up to texts from a friend dumping stuff on me almost every single morning on top of all the hard things at work has been exhausting. I found out on Sunday that a friend I hadn't seen in a while died due to her alcoholism (what the post said). Tuesday night I was with one family for 6 hours. Then I come back and make an offhand comment to the sergeant. He comes up to me a little later and apologizes for being an asshole because work is getting to him and I can just see he's exhausted. Basically things have been grinding down as bunch of us, so I think we're all depleted and it's hard for anyone to really be there for each other (except that that's my training, so I can, but then I'm worn out).
Luckily my aunt's health is better, though she's not fully following medical advice. January has just been tough so far.
Finally freaking Friday! My week has been trying to prepare everything at work so there's no issues while I'm gone. This is the longest period of time I've ever taken off of work (outside of having kids). I'm sure it will all be fine. I'm thinking of typing up a will, of sorts, just in case something happens to me. And I'm also really freaking out about the trip, which means it will be totally fine, because all good things come from the scariest places lol.
I've been at work since 7:15. I usually come in at 8:30, so coffee and i are good friends right now.
Bf and i went to Duluth, a small city on lake superior, for our 1 year anniversary. Unfortunately this weekend we also had a snowstorm. We made the most of it and had such a good time. Outdoor smores in a blizzard, lots of local beer, tour of a coal baron's mansion that is also reportedly haunted, time in both a hot tub, and a jetted tub in our hotel room.
tiramisu, hugs to you as a person I have a lot of those traits. I give a lot and then every now and again throw my hands up and say I need help too.
I hope you feel better and things get better.
Thank you neonpink! My best friend and her husband being in town really helped reset everything. I also went and got a 90 minute foot reflexology massage yesterday and feel so much better. He loosened up SO many of my muscles. I need to do that once a month.