I don't think anyone can be as productive working from home under the stress we're all under. Especially when you have a little one right there and no childcare! I'm sure you're doing great doglove. It's a lot to balance.
I'm doing pretty well. Better than the weekend. I baked and cooked a lot on Sunday and it all turned out well. I also had a not-great phone date with the guy I'd been dating and haven't heard from him since, so Sunday I sent the "thanks but no thanks" text because I didn't want it to be a mutual ghosting. I'm honestly relieved now. I do better when I'm working, for sure, but I absolutely have background anxiety that can make things tough out of nowhere. Starting to really miss physical touch, I can't wait until we can hug again.
I think all 5 of my dance classes will be virtual now, which will be nice. And I got what I consider to be good news, that we're not still trying to plan for June recitals, but for a later date. I feel much more comfortable with that.
I'm tired. Chronically tired. And indifferent about pretty much everything. I've got a therapy appointment next week.
I'm also incredibly thankful that I can still work full time and am busy AF all day. We're still having court via Zoom, which is awesome. And so much of my "normal" routine can be done online, which helps things feel less chaotic.
Post by Shreddingbetty on Apr 15, 2020 22:36:25 GMT -5
Doing alright. Working so getting out still and also still getting my daily walks in so getting my exercise. I need it both physically and mentally. I have a work out program at home but I prefer doing the walking outside. Friday and Saturday I was feeling down. Seems like most of my friends are busy with their families and their own stuff and haven’t heard from them really. I’ve tried to initiate a couple of times but I’m tired of being the initiator and looking like I’m desperate. But the weather was nice mostly so walked and laid out in my back yard and talked a fair amount to my FWB and did text with a couple of friends Saturday night and Sunday so felt a little better Thankful I’m still working and getting out and not having to stay home all day by myself (and also that I haven’t had to do any of the homeschooling for my kid lol) I’m refinancing my house so excited about that as it will drop my payment by 350 bucks a month at a 3% intérêt raté. Our stay at home orders have been extended so my eye surgery was canceled and I’m kind of disappointed about that. I knew it was likely but I was still hopeful. I’ve been a little more productive this week and not so lazy (other than work and my exercise I would sit on my couch and watch tv or play on my phone) and I think that helped my mood as well. Overall doing well just tired of all the unknowns of what may or may not be happening and all the cancelations. But overall I’m pretty fortunate and I really cannot complain too much.
Post by downtoearth on Apr 16, 2020 14:11:14 GMT -5
I wish I was more productive at home, but I also am not sure I want to be. This time has allowed me to wallow a bit and try to figure out what my next career move might be. I really need to change careers or re-commit to my current one and throw myself into it more. I am just not sure what I want. This last year I really did figure out what I didn't want (XH and his ish), but it's been harder to maintain a relationship and be the single parents to the kids, and to think about my career and trying to make ends meet with just one salary, while not saying "no" to kids activities and lifestyle. I know I need to prioritize b/c I'm burning myself out just thinking and not acting.
So... quarantine is a time to just be, but also it's not a healthy transition yet and I'd really like to not worry about quarantine and instead look at trying to make some reasonable changes in my life. Anyone use a life coach to figure this stuff out? I know what I wish I would have done, but that involves schooling and I can't leave town for that since it would be very difficult with 3 school-aged kids and our custody. So instead I need to just try something else job-wise and I'm sort of at a loss for that. Plus, I haven't had a lot of alone time with my boyfriend that isn't either him emotional about quarantine life or me emotional about life stresses (including quarantine). I'd like a date night, but it doesn't feel "fun" to do that right now or "right."