Everyone safe? healthy? ok?

[mags]

Check in to see what's going on with you ladies!

[neonpink]

This week I am back in my office. It feels really strange to be back. I admit I liked working at home a lot. It was nice to get up make breakfast, go up to work and call it a day and go walk.

I think I am going to have to buy a new mattress. I have learned that mine hurts my back. I've been doing an experiment where I've slept on my sofa for the past 3 days and every day I wake up pain free. I sleep in my bed. I wake up and hurt all day. Anyone have an recommendations on a firm-ish mattress.

The craziness and unrest in the country has me feeling anxious. Where my H works they are cutting funds and money for so many hospital things. It's making me worry about his job security. My industry is still going strong so I feel ok about mine.

[chalupa]

Our county turns "green" on Friday, and I'm just waiting to see if our covid cases spike in the next week or two. It seems like everyone (judging from my 1 trip to Home Depot and my near-daily rides in a county park) is already acting like everything is fine and back to normal. I'm currently expected to return back to the office on June 22nd, but we're reducing occupancy by 50% to enforce social distancing, so I'll be in the office for one or two weeks, then telecommuting for one or two weeks while the second "shift" takes their turn in the office. I'm just ticked that no one can tell me why I and my employees have to go back at all - there is nothing we do that cannot be done from home, and there's nothing that our team has "dropped" by being home since March, even with the layoffs that happened last month.

Anyhow, M and I are safe and healthy for now. We are heartbroken and angry about police brutality, as are most people that we know. For now, we've just been donating, but I'm trying to figure out if we should join a weekend protest. I'm concerned about either getting sick or contributing to the spread of covid, but I'm not sure how to weigh that against persistent racial injustices. These are hard questions and decisions.

My parents are not yet sick from traveling to MO for my sister's wedding over Memorial Day Weekend. I'm hoping they stay healthy, although their own dumb decisions certainly make that tough.

[tiramisu]

I'm in a weird place mentally. I feel like no matter what I do, I'm not doing the right thing or enough with regards to racism, injustice, and police brutality. I'm nervous that when I go back to work, deputies who've seen anything I have shared will try to freeze me out. I'm nervous to go back to work alongside an organization that's been getting a lot of blame for escalating some of the protests here (of course there are lots of different stories, but still). I feel like all of my feelings about this are blocking my ability to continue grieving my grandmother. Hoping that taking a day away tomorrow will help.

[chalupa]

(( tiramisu ))

[mags]

Im sorry tiramisu

Im so angry at everyone. I may have to leave facebook, because I literally am getting sick from it. One side makes me sick from the fucking stupid ass comments about the riots, the other half makes me sick from watching all the horrible people getting beaten. I had much anxiety today after many weeks of feeling better.

Also, the fact that the country is acting as if the virus is gone, makes me want to spit.

[tiramisu]

I'm sorry mags, I'm there with you too. I'm thinking of taking a social media break because it's just grinding me down more. I think of you need a break from it all, do it, either temporarily or permanently.

[doglove]

Why is everyone acting like the virus is gone?? You should see NC. 600-1000 new cases per 24 hours! We walked by our local pool (that we normally join, but skipped out on this head) and it was stuffed to the brim last night. Stores everywhere full and restaurants and almost no one is wearing masks.

I hope all these protests and information spark change, but I know we’ve been here before. I am sad for our country that we’ve never been so divided when I wish we could all come together. I also feel like I’m not doing a good job on social media, but I also selfishly feel overwhelmed with a baby and work and am trying to do the best I can.

A got a vastecomy today so I am back working from home today and tomorrow to help him. It helps the baby is at daycare, but it has been an adjustment. She is doing great and her sleeping and eating is improving from being there. I have never been so glad that we opted with the daycare we did because it is so diverse and will get her exposed to a number of different races and cultures.