How are you doing?

[doglove]

Anyone else feeling beat down? I am just tired of people being rude and selfish. Everywhere. I am afraid we’re all going to get sick because people only care about themselves.

[tiramisu]

doglove yes, I've been feeling that way also. There are so many people being so irresponsible. I've switched to ordering grocery delivery for the most part instead of going to stores. I am out here and there, but trying to reduce it since there's been such a spike in my city.

[kaneen]

I totally understand how you ladies feel. The thing I keep reminding myself is that I can only control me. People are absolutely being assholes where I live (duh, y’all know where I live) but I remind myself all the time that I can’t do anything about that. I can do what I think is right and safe and there’s the extent of what I can control. It’s the only way I’ve stayed sane.

[SwimDeep]

Hi I haven't posted here in a bit.

Sometimes I think I'm ok, and then sometimes I know for sure I'm not.

I'm off all meds now (except BC), and the ups and downs are heightened by the stress of everything. I've been thinking about asking my new PCP for xanax, but I've abused that in the past... and I don't want to do that again.

Yesterday morning I woke up feeling energetic, excitable, and emotional (happy). H and I finished watching Babyteeth. It's a fantastic movie, and I highly recommend it. But you should know I was a sobbing mess at the end. I usually only show emotion like that when I'm angry. It felt so strange to cry without being angry. And it took me a while to calm down...

The movie was good, but I think my reaction to it was at least partly because of the stress and emotion that's been building up inside for months now. The movie gave me the opportunity to actually feel for a bit.

Today I woke up extremely tired and unenthusiastic. I do not want to feel or do anything.

I'm really grateful to have GBCN. Reading the randoms threads has been awesome. Just reading about the day to day drudgery or good news or struggles has helped keep me from completely disappearing into the hole inside my head.

[spindle92]

I'm doing ok. I have the same mindset as kaneen - even though I am judging some of the people in her state hardcore.

Over the 4th, My family had a small social distancing bbq at my nephews house. It was nice to get out and do something "normal". That totally helped me refocus and get back on track, mentally.

I still go into work every day, so I am no stuck at home all day. That helps with my mental state too.

Here in MN, the Governor has not mandated mask wearing yet but some cities have. While I am 100% for mask wearing, since I cannot wear one (PTSD from Trauma), if the gov mandates it state wide it will create some issues for me at work. I may have to go on medical leave but my employer has kind of said lets just wait and see for now. They are being very supportive of my situation but I do get comments every now and then from the public. I feel like I need to wear a FUCK TRUMP sign on my forehead because people assume I am a damn MAGA lover for not wearing a mask.

[kaneen]

Jul 13, 2020 11:09:07 GMT -5 spindle92 said:

I'm doing ok. I have the same mindset as kaneen - even though I am judging some of the people in her state hardcore.

Over the 4th, My family had a small social distancing bbq at my nephews house. It was nice to get out and do something "normal". That totally helped me refocus and get back on track, mentally.

I still go into work every day, so I am no stuck at home all day. That helps with my mental state too.

Here in MN, the Governor has not mandated mask wearing yet but some cities have. While I am 100% for mask wearing, since I cannot wear one (PTSD from Trauma), if the gov mandates it state wide it will create some issues for me at work. I may have to go on medical leave but my employer has kind of said lets just wait and see for now. They are being very supportive of my situation but I do get comments every now and then from the public. I feel like I need to wear a FUCK TRUMP sign on my forehead because people assume I am a damn MAGA lover for not wearing a mask.

In defense of those of us Floridians who are still being careful, keep in mind that a good 50% of the people you are judging are visitors from out of state.  

[neonpink]

Sigh, I feel like I am on an emotional rollercoasater. Some days I feel alright as in Let's work out, make good food and be happy then I have days where all I want to do is curl up in bed with a book and sleep. My mental state is just all over the place.

kaneen, I'm not even in your state but I am judging people I know that have gone down there to visit friends on the beach etc.

[spindle92]

kaneen, oh yes you are right.
Like the yahoos traveling there to go to Dinsey.
What the ever loving fuck are they thinking?!?!?!?!?

[kaneen]

Jul 14, 2020 15:59:32 GMT -5 spindle92 said:

kaneen , oh yes you are right.
Like the yahoos traveling there to go to Dinsey.
What the ever loving fuck are they thinking?!?!?!?!?

I know!  Listen, I wasn’t a Disney fan pre -COVID.  I cannot imagine a scenario that would make me willing go there now!

[doglove]

Jul 14, 2020 15:59:32 GMT -5 spindle92 said:

kaneen, oh yes you are right.
Like the yahoos traveling there to go to Dinsey.
What the ever loving fuck are they thinking?!?!?!?!?

My sister, who wouldn’t leave her house for two months to help my Dad with my mom, is considering going to Florida now to visit her ILs. Even her in laws are like what? No. Don’t come here. I just can’t with people, even my own family.