I'm holding up. There's been so much going on it's been a bit overwhelming. Getting a LEEP under general anesthesia next month. Things seem to be fizzling with the guy I've been dating, he's really not putting in effort at all. But work has been good and I have good friends around me. One of my best friends and I are going to go horseback riding for my birthday. My parents are going to come down and see me on my birthday, too. I'm really looking forward to it. Not how I thought I'd be turning 40, but it'll be good.
Not great...I feel apathetic about pretty much everything. DD moved back out and DS got a job, so I've got some space now, but it's just different stressors (DD is struggling with her roommates, DS's school is still unknown and it starts in 2 weeks). I'm trying to be mindful about working out and shutting work stuff down. Took a weekend trip, last weekend, and while it was nice, my apathy is just making all of it "just okay." We still have no idea when/if we'll ever be able to go back to the office or see clients in real life. It's really making it hard for me to do my job and I'm starting to look and see if there are better options out there.
On the upside, we're still healthy. We've got money to pay the bills and things are overall okay.
I'm just stressed in general. Part of it is covid, part of it is what covid has done to my work (layoffs and furloughs all around), part family, etc.
But in good news, my work just announced 10 minutes ago that we will not start thinking about a return to the office date until 2021 (we've been working from home since the 2nd week of March), so that's one less thing to worry about right now.
And someone at work asked me a question and told me I was the "bestous" when I got back to them quickly, haha. I feel dumped on all day, every day, and that simple thank you was a real highlight for me.
tiramisu happy birthday! Horseback riding is pretty much the OG social distancing activity
Last week was a real eye opener for me in regards to the current state of my mental health. I thought I was handling things pretty well but that is clearly not true. I stayed in bed for 2 straight days and did nothing but watch netflix. Yes, we all need some down time and all but 2 straight days of nothing is not normal for me. I have a new psychiatrist who I had my first appt with last month via telemed. We switched up my meds a little but that clearly is not working. We meet in person tomorrow and I am hoping we can find some new "cocktail" that will help me get out of this funk.
I am doing okay, we’ve been battling head colds from daycare. The baby is growing so fast. I see why people have more. A already got his vastecomy in June so we’re waiting for him to get tested next month before I stop the pill.
I really just want to visit family and to have them and our friends meet the baby. She probably won’t be a baby by the time we are able to travel again. Ugh.
chalupa thanks! I was hoping to be able to ride on the beach, but apparently that trail is closed. So my friend and I are going to do a different nature ride and hopefully they'll let us trot. I think I might want to go back to riding lessons one of these days because I miss it. I haven't done cantering or jumping in a long time. I booked today and we're going the day after my birthday!
chalupa thanks! I was hoping to be able to ride on the beach, but apparently that trail is closed. So my friend and I are going to do a different nature ride and hopefully they'll let us trot. I think I might want to go back to riding lessons one of these days because I miss it. I haven't done cantering or jumping in a long time. I booked today and we're going the day after my birthday!
Or you can hop a flight and visit me when it's safe. Owen loves handing out less-demanding lessons!
chalupa thanks! I was hoping to be able to ride on the beach, but apparently that trail is closed. So my friend and I are going to do a different nature ride and hopefully they'll let us trot. I think I might want to go back to riding lessons one of these days because I miss it. I haven't done cantering or jumping in a long time. I booked today and we're going the day after my birthday!
Or you can hop a flight and visit me when it's safe. Owen loves handing out less-demanding lessons!