Anyone else in a funk?

[konapoppy]

I have been so grumpy recently. I’m not sleeping well. Nothing is difficult in my life right now, so there really isn’t a good reason for it.

Anyone else struggling right now and want to commiserate?

[mysteriouswife]

✋🏼

July is always difficult for me. I am just over life in general.

ETA: I should clarify. I’m over what life is throwing at me. I just feel stuck and in a rut. H and I barely see one another and we both WFH. The kids are needy and can’t figure out how to open toilet paper. Just dumb stuff they should be able to do. DS is out of control with all the changes of returning in person school and daycare. DD is overly dramatic about everything. Hello teen years glad you finally found us. 🙄 work is stressing me out. I don’t feel like I’m a good fit. I’m doing my best and trying. I’m terrified of UE again so I’m making it work. July marks the anniversary of when we discovered DS 1 wouldn’t make it. We lost him in Aug. so back to school brings lots of emotions.

Can we skip to October?

[calamity]

Yes. I'm back in the office, only part time for now but starting next week it's full time. I want to cry. I hate the commute.

I'm also still coping with chronic illness and all the depression and anxiety and shit that goes along with it. I'm sick of treading water and trying to keep my head above water. I'm just so tired.

[mala]

Yup. Shit sucks

[glitzy07]

Yes! I've just been feeling kind of blah lately.

I interviewed for an internal lateral job a couple weeks ago and would have thought that I'd hear something last Friday. The fact that I didn't hear makes me think an offer went to someone else and they're waiting to tell the rest of us. Which is actually fine, because I'm still good in my current job, but I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up.

I also haven't been taking good care of myself w/sleep, exercise, etc so I'm sure that's not helping. I keep staying up too late to binge watch tv or drink wine with my sister and then regretting it the next morning, but repeating the cycle because I get a second wind after my kids go to bed.

[abs]

100%.

I always struggle in the summer. The heat and humidity always brings me down. The lack of structure. The jealousy of everyone traveling to cool places. There’s just nothing enjoyable about summer to me. This year it’s rained non stop and we haven’t seen the sun so that hasn’t helped.

I hate wishing time away but I am ready for august 18th.

[abs]

I’m also feeling incredibly bored. I’m ready for a change. I’d love to either go back to school or back to work but I don’t know what that would like and feel a bit paralyzed by indecision.

[af1212]

Yes 😭

I don’t know what my problem is. I hate it.

I’m crappy to my husband and kids, bored but also don’t want to do anything, etc.

[lilypad1126]

Yes. It's pretty situational - I'm in the midst of a big move - but I really need things to settle down soon. I'm an anxious mess, I'm not eating well, I have no energy (see "not eating well"), and I can't focus.

Oh, and I'm just DONE making decisions. If my H calls me one more time from the store to ask if I want him to buy something, I might scream. I'm digging DEEP for patience I don't have to begin with, b/c it's not his fault that I'm feeling out of sorts, but damn man, just make a single decision. Just one. That can't be too much to ask! We're not talking big decisions either - he called 3x yesterday to discuss if he should buy this $30 shelf thing. Just buy it! If I hate it, I'll repurpose it somewhere I don't have to stare at it 24/7.

[pandorica]

Yup. The weather is sucking which makes both my work and fun time more challenging. We're all sick and it ruined a party I had been planning forever (had to cancel), DD isn't sleeping and so none of us are. I'm sick of WFH but also don't want to work in the office FT. My job keeps feeling overwhelming and stressful, which hasn't really happened before, but I still can't focus or get anything done. I can't stop thinking about wanting a second kid but H is super OAD and pressuring me to get rid of baby stuff.

[followyourarrow]

Kind of. I just can't seem to get shit together. I don't generally think I'm a lazy person, but I've definitely been lazy here lately. I think part of it is I desperately need some time off, but my newish job doesn't allow any real time off the first year.

[macmars45]

Yeah. Moving in a pandemic to a red anti vax city is definitely contributing to my funk. I only have family here, no friends. I have so much anxiety about sending my DS(5) to kinder at the end of next month. I'm worried about all his sensory challenges and fears on top of that.

Fire season came early to eastern WA state this year because climate change and assholes shooting off fireworks.

I miss my kitty (we euthanized her roughly a month ago because fuck cancer). My house is empty without her.

[noodleoo]

Yup. I live in NE and the weather has sucked so much. We wait for summer all year and it has been raining SO MUCH. And pretty much always on the weekends. The local pool/reservoir with a beach only opens 8 weeks each year and we try to go as often as possible. I put their opening dates on my calendar. We haven't been able to go once yet since they opened due to the weather and we're almost halfway through the season. I'm trying not to be upset about it, but they are forecasting rain for this weekend AGAIN and I may lose it.

My parents are coming up to visit this weekend and it has opened up some old wounds and is bringing up a lot of drama with my sister. It is a short visit and I just want to enjoy it since I haven't seen them in 18 months, but somehow my family is always drama. I wish I knew how to let it go and not care about it.

[meowmaps]

Yes. Lots of FWP so I don't want to whine but I do feel down in the dumps.

It's also hot as hell, my toddler won't sleep in her bed, and to combine both annoyances I'm having night sweats (@ related reasons) and she's like a barnacle in the middle of the night.

[yourmother]

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I'm technically super excited about my beach vacation next week.

HOWEVER, generally speaking, I'm in a funk. I'm huge and haven't taken any steps to lose weight. My business travel will pick up at the end of July and I am nervous about looking so puffy. Haven't seen a lot of industry folks, other than zoom, and I'm very self-conscious about my appearance.

My DH still doesn't have a job after 18 months and his father passing certainly isn't helping that. He's not a people person and his industry has always been tight on hiring. We don't need the money, but it would be nice to not feel responsible for every single financial aspect of our lives.

[raangoli]

Yep. I am trying to not let it get to me - but it is hard. I allow myself moments and then try to move on.

I have also been feeling like I am buying all the things to help me feel less sad. Spoiler alert: it does not help.

noodleoo, I feel you on the rain and family drama. There is much of both here, too.

[court26]

Yep. I really thought school would end (I’m a teacher) and I would get motivated and find some purpose after drowning in June and it’s just not happening. I am happy being single, but I need a hobby, and some motivation to get in shape, and I need to feel better and yeah, funk. Big time.

[Cappy]

Same. Wallowing in a puddle of existential dread over here.

[spindle92]

Yes.
These last few weeks have been very hard on my mental state. Nothing out of the ordinary has happened but I am in a really bad place.
I also do not like summer and everyone around me is all giddy about summer time, so that always makes me question myself too.

[bluestreet]

Ditto on existential dread.

This time last year: I was just falling in love for the first time in 15 years, the pandemic was bizarre and scary but at least hadn't been dragging on and was a distraction from the usual ecological and social despair, and there was at least a segment of the nation was energized into fighting racial injustice.

Now: Fresh love has given way to the usual domestic quibbling and ironing out kinks, the pandemic has devastated society and internationally continues to rage, critical race theory and conversations are being smacked down with legislation, the west is on fire, etc. etc.

I'm going to pilates tonight. That's all I got.

[felicity]

Yep. I don't like summer. I hate the heat and bugs. DS is bored and I don't have the energy or desire to play all the time. All of his friends are busy or out of town this week so no playdates to mix it up. Plus I have first tri nausea, exhaustion, and moodiness so that isn't helping matters.

[atexan]

I have been over the top irritable lately for just no good reason. I'm also exhausted even though I seem to be sleeping OK. Last week I fell asleep at my desk which I haven't done since my kids were newborns.

I'm going for my annual next week and I'm going to ask my doctor to rule everything out with my bloodwork, but I'm prepared for everything to come back fine and it's just stress and not taking care of myself.

[litskispeciality]

First of all (((HUGS))) to everyone. Thank you for your honesty, I was wondering if it was just me.

It's been raining a lot here. Rained on my only 2 days off of DH's vacation. He complained about the rain even though he didn't travel. I kind of block out how stressful July is every year, but yeah something big (bad) always happens. I haven't traveled, or eaten inside of a restaurant yet, so I miss normal stuff too. The rain makes it harder because I just don't want to go inside unless I have too.

My work is back to 2 or more days a week in office, probably M - F starting in August. I have a ton of doc apts and jury duty coming up, and that's stressing me out thinking of all the missed work, even though I don't have a choice/my health comes first. I'm frustrated that it's going to rain all summer and I won't even use my pool. That was one of the few things brining me just a little zen, and exercise.

[happywife]

I haven't felt quite right since Trump and Covid hit. I'm generally a happy, positive person, but the last several years have been a struggle on and off. I know we have to find a new normal, but I'm sad some things will never be the same.

[thelurkylulu]

Omg lilypad1126, I feel you on the indecisive DH thing. I had a semi-meltdown Sunday over meal planning. Like stop asking me what I want for dinner this week. Just pick one of the 10 things we normally eat and go to the grocery store. Which he did, but dear Lord why do I have to approve every decision?

We are leaving for vacation next week and my mom is majorly guilt tripping me about not inviting her. Which sucks. I want to be excited about taking a trip not feeling guilty.

[cereal K]

Yes. Especially yesterday/today, but it's kinda low-key ongoing.

H and I both work from home. There's a lot about it I like. But since last year and lockdown, more and more of the daily/kid/home stuff is falling to me. His job has gotten a little broader/more complex by being remote. Mine is simpler. I do have more bandwidth to take on more of the home stuff. I'm just really frustrated by what feels like the expectation that I'll do it all. I need to feel effort from him. I'm trying to give us both grace (I don't have to do all the things and can ask for help, I can't hold others to my expectations, etc.) but FUCK sometimes it feels like I have three kids.

[Nonny]

Yeah, but I can pinpoint that a lot of my funk is because I'm injured (still/again), and even though I feel better I know it's just the steroids kind of masking the injury and I'm not actually healed yet. So I can't go ride my bike outside, and I can't even really walk around outside either because I'm not supposed to be walking around hills (which is my entire neighborhood). I've been trying to go outside everyday to pick raspberries or read or skirt the boundaries of my PT by doing a short walk. But it doesn't feel very relaxing or refreshing.

Basically, I want to do something other than read and watch TV in my house, go to PT, or go to the grocery store. I think we're meeting friends for Shakespeare in the park next weekend, so that should hopefully help.

[litskispeciality]

My boss also made a good point, that at least in our situation and area/state, people have completely given up grace and are back to being jerks. It's understandably frustrating that "Covid's over" (because no masks required, vaccine avb. etc), but like not everywhere (our work) is back to "normal", but man people are just mean and impatient. I'm trying to say extra thank you's to anyone who provides a service as I know how taxing taking attitude all day can be.

[gummybear]

Jul 13, 2021 9:22:12 GMT -5 abs said:

100%.

I always struggle in the summer. The heat and humidity always brings me down. The lack of structure. The jealousy of everyone traveling to cool places. There’s just nothing enjoyable about summer to me. This year it’s rained non stop and we haven’t seen the sun so that hasn’t helped.

I hate wishing time away but I am ready for august 18th.

Yessss. I despise summer. I relate to everything you posted. In fact, when I had my photography business and blogged, I touched on all these things. The lack of structure is huge for me and also my kids (esp. my older one). I am not someone who greets the day wondering and excited about which way the wind will blow me. I also don't do well with spontaneity. 

I also have a huge problem with heat and humidity. I have figured out that this is related to my claustrophobia. I find the weather oppressive and suffocating and the heavy warm air makes it feel like someone is constantly touching me all over and I can't fill my lungs with clean air. 

[abs]

Jul 13, 2021 14:49:41 GMT -5 gummybear said:

Jul 13, 2021 9:22:12 GMT -5 abs said:

100%.

I always struggle in the summer. The heat and humidity always brings me down. The lack of structure. The jealousy of everyone traveling to cool places. There’s just nothing enjoyable about summer to me. This year it’s rained non stop and we haven’t seen the sun so that hasn’t helped.

I hate wishing time away but I am ready for august 18th.

Yessss. I despise summer. I relate to everything you posted. In fact, when I had my photography business and blogged, I touched on all these things. The lack of structure is huge for me and also my kids (esp. my older one). I am not someone who greets the day wondering and excited about which way the wind will blow me. I also don't do well with spontaneity. 

I also have a huge problem with heat and humidity. I have figured out that this is related to my claustrophobia. I find the weather oppressive and suffocating and the heavy warm air makes it feel like someone is constantly touching me all over and I can't fill my lungs with clean air. 

Oh my gosh yes!!! I am claustrophobic, too, and hate feeling trapped. I wonder if that’s part of it. I hate not being able to breathe easily outside.