July: Wellness Thread.

[just]

No diet talk ...

[just]

I've been on a roll recently. I have a 'uniform' that I wear that I feel comfortable in and feel that I look just fine in. That allows me to focus on being awesome in other ways instead of the huge amount of time my brain wants to spend berating me about how shitty I look all the time.

Last night, I don't know what happened, but a switch flipped and those negative voices were loud and had a ton of anxiety, and my head is still spinning. I'm having friends over tomorrow, and a benefit of quieting my thoughts about my physicality, means I can usually also be much more reasonable about my other negative self thoughts. But woah boy, it's hard not to panic cancel the party tomorrow [insert all the horrible horrible things that my brain says about me]

Trying to breath through it ...

[wanderingback]

I’ve really been prioritizing sleep, which feels really good! I’m getting at least 7-8 hours a night even though I have to get up to pee 2-3 times per night I’m usually able to fall back asleep. So glad I’ve gone back to making it a priority.

With all the shit going on in the world the past week I’ve had to be on my phone a lot. But today started back with me being less on my phone which felt good. I’ve done three 5 minute blocks to check in on things, but that’s it. Plan to continue for the rest of the long weekend for a "reset."

I’ve been doing a lot of walking which has been feeling pretty good, but I need to get back in to yoga and stretching. My body feels tight.

[ohgillian]

My therapist convinced me to add just teeny tiny amounts of cardio to my workouts, for the health benefits and (if I ever got up to doing enough) the mental health benefits. I hate cardio but added a 5 min cardio to each of my last 2 peloton strength workouts which felt monumental to me.

[sillygoosegirl]

I was bitten by some dog at the park the other day. I hurried home without asking for contact info from the owner (or even taking a good look at the dog or owner), because I'm a dumbass. And I hate/fear confrontation so much.

Also, it didn't really hurt and I didn't think the dog had broken the skin, but when I got home, I discovered that I actually was bleeding. So I went to urgent care. I was assured by the urgent care NP (and the next day by my PCP and the infectious disease doctor she checked with on my behalf, and the next day by my sister who works for the health department tracking diseases) that I don't need the rabies prophylactic treatment, although the did give me a tetanus shot, because puncture wound. It's been a few days and it's healing nicely, fortunately. But it has generated plenty of anxiety anyway. I really wish I'd stopped to talk to the owner, as I'd feel ton better if I knew the dog was up to date on it's shots.

I finally have my CPAP, and even before that my thyroid medication finally felt like it was at an appropriate level. So I feel better than I have in years. I'm playing tennis with DH at the neighborhood park a few times per week, something I've literally never had the energy for before in my life, which feels amazing. Even though I remain quite uncoordinated and unskilled at it. It would be a real shame to drop dead of rabies now.

[1confused1]

I need to prioritize sleep. This was my first full week back in the office since my foot surgery and it was a rough transition.

My foot isn’t healing like I thought it would. I’m giving it one more week, then I’m going to contact the doctor.

I am hoping I can start some low impact Peloton rides this week without pain (I’m not going to clip in, just wear my running shoes).

[rubytue]

I resubscribed to the peloton app and have done 4 rides this week. The past two weeks I just had the TV and would pedal 20-30 minutes through a show. Not much, but more than I’ve done in a long time.

I also discovered that spite is my best motivator. I saw my cardiologist a few weeks ago and it went very bad. Lets just say I’m riding to prove him wrong when he dismissed my concerns. I left so upset, I’ve curated my doctors very well, and generally don’t get that attitude. But he is the only onco-cardiologist in the area, so it’s the first time I haven’t been able to just NEXT to someone.

[Deleted]

I’ve been making sure to remove diet/weight/“wellness” content from my social media feeds, and it’s been so amazing. They sometimes start to creep back in, but when I close them out they stop for a while. So now the algorithms show me more funny cat videos, so it’s a total win.

[SwimDeep]

I've started walking at least 30 minutes every day. Some days I still feel grossly anxious about it. I don't know why... I live in a very active community. Everyone walks, runs, bikes, etc. H reminds me that no one cares that I'm walking past their house, and that helps. I'm hoping I can do a daily walk all summer and fall. It's nice to be outside and when my anxiety ramps up I just focus on grounding myself by counting how many different birds I can hear, identifying smells and different plants/flowers.

I think it's really helping me with emotional regulation, which has been a bitch the last two weeks because family stuff came up that left me in a downwards spiral.

I might just do yoga today, though... I walked for an hour yesterday and my legs are still aching 😩