My dad was right...

[cemacmil]

Yes - "God is good, veggies can be tasty, well we expected a redicoulous response (in re: to anything I send or reply to XH), it's like peeling back an onion (in re: to the things you go through to truely heal), and my fav - aren't things better than they were a year ago?!"

Dad was right.

In case some of you have moved over here more than the FB group - I just wanted to share some things.

Sarah's Baptism went GREAT yesterday - we had more family there with us and in spirit and on FB that I know I felt all the love and support in the world! XH's mom and dad came - I do not know nor care why XH was not there, but was said his mother was led to believe her other family was not invited. That was all very adult-ish taken care of by me now, and she now knows to come to me for any questions she has about that stuff and was happy to get my note.

For MANY reasons I got the Bulldog of family law today! Not that I thought XH was really going to try and get someone he could "not afford" or get one in my city - but a relief just the same. She also still has my notes from my consult back in January. I realized that I am not a lawyer, I do not have to interpret the law for myself or XH, and that was one of my major stressors in all this. She can deal with that and him since he can't be an adult - and I can focus on healing.

I also took a couple steps in contacting some IRL local family/friends to make plans with. Other moms that I can share just plain old mom stuff with. So happy I am putting myself out there.

Even though I left in Feb/March 2011 and have gone through so much already - I think the surface of MY healing is just starting - hence the onion comment. I was so focused on being the best single mom ever, protection, trying to be too independent (most likely a result of being so co-dependent for so long) that I avoided healing myself and thought I had good reason. I am far from done with both telling and dealing with my story of abuse but I am in a much better place than I was a year ago!

Thank you for listening/reading. I will have days that are easier than others, but I know that I am conciously taking the right steps to heal and am commited to healing and finding myself - on top of being a good mom

[doriswe]

I'm glad you can leave some of the worry in the capable hands of your lawyer! I think you're doing a wonderful job doing all the things you need to do to heal! Keep up the good work!!

[explorer2001]

It sounds like you are doing well and are on the right road. Hugs.

[lovelybb]

Good for you! Glad things are looking up!