Post by simplyinpenguin on Jun 25, 2013 15:59:36 GMT -5
I promise you all, ML, that I will take the directions with me. I will write them down twice if I have to. Please to stop telling me to take the directions now?
I am taking full responsibility in this fuck up. I am considering myself extremely lucky that I was able to reschedule. You are all are right (except Jezebel). No more excuses. No more blindly going in. I need to take my life back. And I will do this. If I got up enough confidence to tell H I wanted a separation, I can get a job.
I miss the heady days of Page 1, when I was all sympathetic and shizz...
The thing is? I think you like apologizing for being a fuck up. I think you have decided in your head you are one, so everytime something else goes ass over teakettle its just more "proof," and hence you should somehow be excused for it. It's a lot easier to be Eeyore, all "Nothing good happens to me ever..." than it is to own your role in your own mess and work on it.
Post by simplyinpenguin on Jun 25, 2013 16:28:03 GMT -5
I'm really regretting posting how my interview went or not. I really am.
I hate apologizing. I hate being told I'm wrong. But I can acknowledge when I am in the wrong. I apologized to ML because I was making one stupid excuse after another when all you guys were trying to do is lend an ear and give me advice. I was wrong. I should be taking this advice because it's the best advice I'll get. I don't want to be "excused" from anything.
I am taking full responsibility in this fuck up. I am considering myself extremely lucky that I was able to reschedule. You are all are right (except Jezebel). No more excuses. No more blindly going in. I need to take my life back. And I will do this. If I got up enough confidence to tell H I wanted a separation, I can get a job.
No. Just OMFG no.
Everything you just said is the same old tired repeat that every single on of your threads end in.
"We" have all given you advice on job hunting and practical tips on what you need to do, multiple times! People have given support for your marriage. every time something "happens", every.time and it goes through along-ass thread and we get to this point here.
Either just fucking do it or don't.
*assuming this/you is all actually happening, of course.
AutumnRose, I am ready "to fucking do it". I am. I'm pumped, motivated, and I know what my goals are. I will take life by the horns and grab it. I sat, wallowing in self-pity all this time, and for what? For nothing to happen? Believe me, my eyes are wide open now because I just feel the potential out there.
Post by simplyinpenguin on Jun 25, 2013 16:31:44 GMT -5
Well I guess the only way to prove to ML that I'm serious is to come back when I have a job. See you around, don't forget about me, and once I get that job, I'm shedding the "old me" and gearing up for the "new me".
"You. You and your crazy life. You and your geographic anomaly. You and your drunken lesbianic ways and terrible navigational skills." - ProfArt and her holy baby
simplyinpenguin I'm so sorry your morning started out so crappy
I'm sure you must be pretty relieved that you guys finally talked about separating, but at the same time now you have a bunch of unknowns that you're thinking about...who's going to leave, where you'll stay, etc. I encourage you to keep reminding yourself that this WILL work out, and it IS for the better...do not let yourself over worry about this!
I'm glad that they are going to let you interview tomorrow...as long as you drive there tonight and locate the place, have your clothes laid out and your resumes printed you should be good. I personally would wake up a few hours early, get ready, and go over there early...if you have to wait for a little bit until at least you're there and not rushed and frazzled
I know how scary this all can be...definitely don't leave this is probably one of the times where you'll need the most support and have people to talk to. LHC only meant for you to leave this particular post, ha ha {{{{hugs}}}} Good luck on the interview tomorrow...You can do this!
Post by simplyinpenguin on Jun 25, 2013 18:15:32 GMT -5
Oh I know LHC told me to leave the post, not the board. It's just, I feel I will not be taken seriously, unless I actually show the steps that I am willing to change. Plus I have nothing more to bitch about, I guess.
Sounds like OP was superfucking frazzled, (although I will say that I have no knowledge of the other incidents some of you are referring to). I get it. I'm that asshole who just keeps driving in the same direction when I get lost, telling myself that there just HAS to be an entrance to the highway coming up. I suck at getting myself unlost.
I'm side eyeing the shit out of your husband for saying that he too thought you guys needed "some time apart." What the fuck was so horrendous on his end? The fact that his wife wasn't down with having incestual orgies or....?
huh? I think you are mixing her up with the other poster having the sister/husband issues
sonofabitch. Yep. You're totally right.
"How to feel like a moron in 100 words or less." My bad OP.
That explains why I found some of the comments in here a little harsh.
Post by simplyinpenguin on Jun 25, 2013 22:13:25 GMT -5
I did my dry run. I had the directions, but I had a gut feeling that I should follow my gut instinct first. If I was wrong, I would've driven home and started over with the directions. No need. I found the place without the use of the directions. I knew that area looked too familiar to me, it was right by my university when I was going to school.