Today seems to be moving far more quickly than yesterday.
I wore the dress I wore for graduation to work yesterday, but tied the belt different (did it more like a sash or obi) so it showed off my new waist. One of the ladies I work with (who apparently knows more than I thought about my home situation) said "Girl look at you...you're not single yet!". Her office is very close to my supervisors, so apparently she's overheard a fair amount.
I came so close to saying fuck it and wearing jeans today. But then I put on dress pants and flip flops.
My car smells like something died in it. What died was some leftover lo mein I told H I'd take for lunch yesterday but I didn't want to eat it so I left it in the car and meant to chuck it in the parking garage trash. Instead I forgot about it and now my car smells.
I am so happy it is almost Friday. I just learned that my boss was picking up his passes for Dragon*Con. I wish he would have told me since I've been here for almost an hour. :/
Post by cuddlyevil on Aug 29, 2013 10:03:21 GMT -5
Thanks gault. It does feel good People have been commenting on it more often, so I think it's becoming more noticable. I just need to keep it up for another 30-ish pounds.
Our clinic manager even complimented me on the dress yesterday
I went to book club last night and basically cried over the stress of it all. I was comforted with wine and home-cooked lasagna. I have two giant pimples on my bottom lip and they hurt like a motherfucker when I popped them.
Tomorrow will be a short work day for me - we're picking up our marriage license first thing in the morning and then I leave early for dress fitting numero three. I've eaten like crap the past week and a half and haven't made it to the gym much. The seamstress is going to strangle me if she has to take it back out.
I'm tired of talking about the wedding. It's the only interesting thing in my life right now though. :/
I'm interested in seeing your dress cuddlyevil. PIP?
Post by cuddlyevil on Aug 29, 2013 10:06:34 GMT -5
Bowies, I don't have anything I can post here at work. It's a land's end dress, a simple a line sleeveless dress with a belt in sapphire blue. I wore it with a black cardigan yesterday, but took the sweater off anytime I went outside so my arms/torso were much more visible. I posted a picture to FB when I was picking out shoes for graduation, but I'm thinner now
Please text or pm me if you need to talk. I've been doing the same thing with food in the last weeks, so I get it. Did something trigger this, or was it a gradual thing?
I'm going be judging you when we go out to dinner.
In all seriousness, how much are you drinking? How often? Anything stressing you out? Have you considered seeing someone to figure out why you feel the need to escape?
Post by partiallysunny on Aug 29, 2013 10:34:14 GMT -5
::hugs:: DL
I don't have a solution for you, but I'm glad you and your H are able to discuss it. I hope you figure out what's wrong. I think you being able to admit it is a good first step.
Hugs DL. I'm glad you're talking it out with your therapist.
partiallysunny: Yes, we're going on a honeymoon. I need a vacation desperately (haven't really had one since Christmas time, and we just stayed home). I've reached the point where I wish we'd just bought a wedding package at a facility and done the traditional thing. It seems like a lot less stress.
Hugs DL. I'm glad you're talking it out with your therapist.
partiallysunny: Yes, we're going on a honeymoon. I need a vacation desperately (haven't really had one since Christmas time, and we just stayed home). I've reached the point where I wish we'd just bought a wedding package at a facility and done the traditional thing. It seems like a lot less stress.
Just stay focused in the honeymoon! You'll get through it.
That's exactly it jojoandleo. Yes, I would appreciate the delete. I don't lay around craving booze or sugar, but once I eat it/them, it's like I spiral out of control. And two to three drinks may not be spiraling out of control for everyone, but for me it is too much.
And yes, cuddlyevil, that's what DH and I talked about last night. I am worried about upping the one I am on because I already feel kind of out of it/forgetful on them so I may need to try a different one.