Post by cuddlyevil on Aug 29, 2013 11:31:02 GMT -5
Thanks Margarita! It's really pretty in the sapphire blue and it falls really nicely over my curves. Plus, it's nice enough that I can wear it anywhere.
(((((doglove))))) I think it's good that you're on top of this. I kind of get wanting to shut off all the feels for a while. It's important to know what you need to monitor in yourself. Add me to the people you can PM if you want to talk about it.
cuddlyevil, go you! I'm impressed lady. I remember that dress and wish we could see a recent photo of you in it. Let us cheer your successes!
My random is that I'm super excited to bring home my new cat and kinda sad that I won't be able to pick him up today. Stupid inconvenient training time!
I am excited to go to the training dressed up a little, since I'll be going out afterwards.
I don't think you have an alcohol problem either - it's a depression problem. I'm glad that you were recognizing the alcohol/food as a tool to help you turn off. Have you identified the source of this recent bout of depression yet? It really could be that the ADs you're on are not the right fit for you.
An IRL friend struggled with the same thing a while back - she cut out the alcohol until she had dealt with the underlying issues (grief in her case) and now she's back to having a healthy relationship with it.
One more: I'm considering changing the cat's name to Bowie. Much cooler than Brody, but sounds similar enough that it would hopefully be an easy transition.
Post by jojoandleo on Aug 29, 2013 12:01:17 GMT -5
I agree with bowies. It's not the substance, since you don't crave it, it's the compulsion to have more due to anxiety/depression. maybe you need more of an anti-anxiety which also helps with depression? (I know nothing about psychology/meds, so ignore me and keep talking to your therapist/psychiatrist.)
Post by starrieskies on Aug 29, 2013 12:38:16 GMT -5
(((HUGS))) doglove! I'm glad that you have someone to talk to about this... Add me to the list of people who are here if you need to talk!!!
And cuddlyevil, GO YOU!!! Isn't it amazing when people notice things like that?? My boss asked me the other day how much weight I've lost. I'm not feeling a whole lot different in how my clothes fit, and my mom doesn't own a scale, so I have no idea. But it made me feel really good when he asked.
I agree bowies, that's exactly what it seems like because I can/have had a healthy relationship with these things in the past and have had to cut them out for a while to get back to that place> I'm just noticing in the last week or so that it's not really so healthy. And yeah - I think I know where the depression is coming from.
I kind of get it, I have muscle relaxants and benzodiazepines at home. I don't overuse them or even use them very much. However I like feeling relaxed and I think I'm almost too afraid of the relationship becoming unhealthy so I don't use them when I should/it would benefit my muscles and pain. Plus I really don't care about much of anything when I take a benzo and that's dangerous when I'm anxious. Like I said, I get wanting to shut off feelings.
I kind of get it, I have muscle relaxants and benzodiazepines at home. I don't overuse them or even use them very much. However I like feeling relaxed and I think I'm almost too afraid of the relationship becoming unhealthy so I don't use them when I should/it would benefit my muscles and pain. Plus I really don't care about much of anything when I take a benzo and that's dangerous when I'm anxious. Like I said, I get wanting to shut off feelings.
You aren't kidding. I have headache meds that this happens with too, I think - just one drink and I'll sleep so much better which is not a good idea with those meds. I'm a mess.
I kind of get it, I have muscle relaxants and benzodiazepines at home. I don't overuse them or even use them very much. However I like feeling relaxed and I think I'm almost too afraid of the relationship becoming unhealthy so I don't use them when I should/it would benefit my muscles and pain. Plus I really don't care about much of anything when I take a benzo and that's dangerous when I'm anxious. Like I said, I get wanting to shut off feelings.
You aren't kidding. I have headache meds that this happens with too, I think - just one drink and I'll sleep so much better which is not a good idea with those meds. I'm a mess.
You're not a mess, you're struggling to deal with some tough stuff! I have to be careful not to mix the muscle relaxant and the benzo, to the point where I won't take a banzo at night if I took a robaxin in the morning. Probably overly cautious, but I don't want to feel that initial "OMG I slept so well and feel so relaxed!" and then keep chasing it.
doglove I missed your post too, but I think I put a general idea together from your updates. Take care of yourself... we're here whenever you want to talk.
My random... Today, I made a grown man cry. Then 5 minutes later I watched a snake slither under a car and wrap most of itself around something under the car (the tail end was still hanging down) before the lady drove away. O M G
One more: I'm considering changing the cat's name to Bowie. Much cooler than Brody, but sounds similar enough that it would hopefully be an easy transition.
Everyone should name their pets/first born children after me.
I want to go on a honeymoon and I want to know why chirp is making people cry.
'Cause I'm a mean bitch. Just kidding.
I had my follow up appt with my gynecologist today and I gave him a thank you card. There were a few women in front of me waiting to check out, so I was leaning against the wall waiting for my turn when my doctor came around the corner with tears in his eyes. He said he loved what I wrote in the card, and he loved the card itself. I had a hunch that he's a gamer so I used one of my atari cards (blank greeting cards with atari joysticks on the front) for his thank you card. So then we had a conversation about video games while I waited for my turn. He just finished playing Skyrim and he scheduled a week off for when the PS4 comes out.
She punches them in the gonads. With her ring hand.
But why?
Because she can?
Hugs to DL.
Congrats to Cuddly!
I spent all day yesterday thinking it was Friday. I've spent most of today thinking it was Friday. I'm blaming two trips over the past two weeks/weekends (one for work, one for fun). My brain is just so past done, it's about ready to crawl out of my head and leave me for good.
Post by starrieskies on Aug 29, 2013 18:54:30 GMT -5
Umm... I applied for a loan to pay for the difference between what I have in savings and what the retainer for Lawyer #2 is... The bank approved me for a larger amount. Now I'm trying to decide whether or not to keep the extra in a savings to cover any additional legal fees not covered by the retainer (if any) or just have them write the loan for the origingal amount and have it paid off sooner. The additional amount would only extend the length of the loan by about 2 months, and it would be nice to have that safety net... But I really don't want to take on more debt than I need to.