Fuck him...I am so sorry. You are soo loved by people who don't even 'know' you. I am so very sorry, please max out your credit card doing something nice for yourself (and don't tell MM )... hugs
Oh, Bon I am so sorry. I hate that you're hurting.
You are amazing. You are already on your way to a better life, a new start with the move and everything you have ahead of you. You ARE cared for, and so many people here and IRL love you. I do, and I'm here for you whenever you need to talk.
Four pages of posts in less than an hour tells me that you are very loved by friends and strangers on the internet. I know this means you are very loved IRL too.
Than you guys. I am reading through these messages crying still. I just got home, I was in my car bawling like an idiot. I had to come up because i started puking. I feel so stupid for being this upset, but I am so heart broken.
I gave him 15 years of my life. 15 yaears. I feel like he has everything now, she is pregnant with twins, so fast. It makes me realize also that the reason we didn't get pregnant was me. I couldn't have a baby. Now he has twins on the way. I am going to be 34 in april, and my best chances to have a family have already assed/ I am not even anywhere lose to being emotionally ready to even date.
He must think i am fucking stupid. I don't know why, but I asked him a few questions, and she is a nurse, and they have been supposedly dating since may. Then it clicked when I got home, that woman he was supposedly just having an emotional online affair with was a nurse. I have no doubt in my mind that this is the same woman. He must have cheated on me with her.
I fucing hate him right now. When he first told me I just sat there in shock for 5 minutes. He then said "you seem surprised?" No fuck I seem surprised. Then when he started asking me questions, I just lost it. I started bawling. I hate that I cried in front of him, but jesus, our 10 anniversary would have been friday, and its all so fresh.
apalettepassion.wordpress.com/ WHO IS BONQUIQUI!?!?!?!??!
"I was thinking about getting off on demand, but it sounds like I should be glad that I didn't"
I am so sorry. Just because she is having his kids, though, doesn't mean their relationship is happy, loving, or healthy. You have plenty of time to have a family. There is always adoption. Also, my mom had my brother at 38. You have time to get your head on straight and do it the right way, unlike him.
apalettepassion.wordpress.com/ WHO IS BONQUIQUI!?!?!?!??!
"I was thinking about getting off on demand, but it sounds like I should be glad that I didn't"
Than you guys. I am reading through these messages crying still. I just got home, I was in my car bawling like an idiot. I had to come up because i started puking. I feel so stupid for being this upset, but I am so heart broken. I gave him 15 years of my life. 15 yaears. I feel like he has everything now, she is pregnant with twins, so fast. It makes me realize also that the reason we didn't get pregnant was me. I couldn't have a baby. Now he has twins on the way. I am going to be 34 in april, and my best chances to have a family have already assed/ I am not even anywhere lose to being emotionally ready to even date.
He must think i am fucking stupid. I don't know why, but I asked him a few questions, and she is a nurse, and they have been supposedly dating since may. Then it clicked when I got home, that woman he was supposedly just having an emotional online affair with was a nurse. I have no doubt in my mind that this is the same woman. He must have cheated on me with her.
I fucing hate him right now. When he first told me I just sat there in shock for 5 minutes. He then said "you seem surprised?" No fuck I seem surprised. Then when he started asking me questions, I just lost it. I started bawling. I hate that I cried in front of him, but jesus, our 10 anniversary would have been friday, and its all so fresh.
He doesn't have everything. This is never going to work out. You will see. And even if by some crazy remote chance it did, there will come a day where you will breathe a HUGE sigh of relief that it was not you. Relief like you diffused a bomb with .0004 seconds left. I keep saying it, because I recall when I really REALLY needed it repeated for me.
Maybe fertility was an issue, but maybe it totally wasn't meant to be. WITH HIM.
I saw an Oprah thingy on Susan Sarandon. That chick is bad ass. She was married for like 12 years and divorced. Then, suddenly at like 39+ she got pregnant. Loved it so much she had two more in her mid 40s. She Halle Barried that last one and was like 46. Of course that isn't the norm, but don't you go jumping to "I'll never be ready in time!" or "I'm past my prime."
You are in shock. I would be, too. I recall finding out my ex was engaged after he just got done saying he was coming back. It knocks you on your ass. Feels like there's no justice. I know it.
You can't see this right now, but you are not some dried up has been. You are not past your prime. You can do anything you want.
Let's just say this takes you a couple of years to heal. You still have several years to have a shot at kids. You have a bajillion good years left to find a man. You are pretty, you are funny. You are fun.
I am really sorry. I was in your place 10 years ago, and it was awful to live through. I came out stronger and better for it. My ex did not. What you are feeling is valid. Grieve the loss, but try not to hold on to it.
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