I've decided I shouldn't be here.

[Deleted]

Hi all. I would have just disappeared rather than post a "GBCN", but I didn't want those who've been concerned and supportive to be worried.

I really just don't belong here right now. I can respond and participate about random shit all day long, but let's be honest. My feelings are hurt and I'm kind of bitter about it. It probably doesn't make much sense for the widow to be on Married Life anyway.

I do try to get outside of my own grief. I just want you guys to know that. My life mostly revolves around my kids. Therapy is the only place at this point where I do really talk about things. This place was somewhere I posted, yes, knowing you all were strangers, but it helped to get things off my chest.

I think part of why some believed I was a catfish is that it's absolutely fucking terrifying to know that this can really happen. I'm pretty sure half my friends feel the same way, which is why they keep their distance now that I'm at 5 months out.

Anyway, I can't really apologize for talking about my grief. I have already apologized for not participating more in other threads. I do think it was cruel to criticize me for talking about this shit.

I may leave my name active in case I change my mind later when the grief and hurt feelings aren't so fresh. Not sure. A huge thank you to everyone who was truly supportive, and huge hugs to everyone who has experienced devastating losses of their own.

[lime]

((NB))

I'm sorry you weren't able to get as much support here as you had hoped and I wish you the best.

[Deleted]

Best of luck to you. I hope you find comfort.

[mx27]

I hope you find peace very soon.

[gretchenindisguise]

I haven't been around much the past few days.

I wish you the best of luck. Please come back when you feel up for it.

[ginger]

I wish you wouldn't leave, but I understand.

Hope you come back.

[ginger]

And if any of you fuckers give her a hard time for telling us why she's leaving I'll cut you.

This is how she copes. Writing is therapeutic for her. Get over it.

[blueshirt2003]

((NB))

I hope you do come back one day and update us.

[Deleted]

I've never reaponded to any of your posts but I've been following your story.

I wish you strength and please be kind to yourself.

Come back if you need too. And you will be in my thoughts. Take care.

[Eagles]

I'm so sorry for everything you've been through, and that your feelings have been hurt here. I don't think there was any malicious intent, but that doesn't make it hurt any less or make it less shitty. Please let us know how you're doing.

[sparkythelawyer]

Be kind to yourself. We're here for you whenever you would like. I am so sorry for your troubles.

[Elsa]

I wish you peace. Take care of yourself

[isabel]

Wishing you the best. I hope things get a little easier for you. I'm sorry that things here have been an added stress on top of everything else.

[W.T.Faulkner]

I wish you'd stay and continue to post if it's helpful for you, but I understand why you might not want to.

I'm wishing you and your kiddos peace with all of my might.

[miniroller]

Mar 29, 2015 11:59:19 GMT -5 ginger said:

I wish you wouldn't leave, but I understand.

Hope you come back.

Ditto.
Wishing you peace & comfort. I'm sorry for the stress & extra grief GBCN caused you

[themoneytree]

I'm so sorry you were hurt here.
I hope you can find some peace and maybe take up the suggestion to start something specifically for younger widows.

I really do wish you all the best.

[thedutchgirl]

I'm sorry you feel like you need to leave, although it is understandable.

Please do come back from time to time to let us know how you are doing. I hope each day is a little bit easier.

[whitemerlot]

Hugs.

I also wish you the best. If you change your mind and want to post here, you're welcome to.

[jlt19]

I'm sorry that what was meant as a safe place to get it all out has hurt you. I understand why you're choosing to leave and i truly hope you find another avenue to aid in your grieving. I'd happily listen if you ever want to pm me. ((Hugs))

[mrsukyankee]

I wish you the very best.

[pumpkin]

Wishing you all the best

[malibu]

I wish you'd never found that thread. I am sorry for the additional grief it caused you. I do hope you come back, I'm interested in hearing about your Etsy shop.

[rachers]

I'm so sorry. I hope you find peace and am sending good thoughts.

[venice2007]

I'm sorry to see you go but understand. Thoughts and prayers to you! Xo

[MixedBerryJam]

@nailbiter101 Sent you a pm.

[alicenelson]

I understand your need to step away, but I really hope you check back in from time to time.  I wish you nothing but the best, NB, and will continue to think positive thoughts for the happiness you deserve.

[missmaddie]

Mar 29, 2015 12:16:41 GMT -5 W.T.Faulkner said:

I wish you'd stay and continue to post if it's helpful for you, but I understand why you might not want to.

I'm wishing you and your kiddos peace with all of my might.

I think this sums up my thoughts well. I wish you best and hope you still come by. 

[franklin]

I can't imagine what you're going through and how difficult may be. I'm wishing you the best and hope you're able to find some comfort/support.

[elleblue]

I'm sorry you feel you have to leave, but I understand. Wishing you all the best.

[fryjack2]

I hope you find a place with the support you are looking for.

I'm sorry, and wish you well.