remember a couple weeks ago when I mentioned that my mom's heart is functioning at 15% effectiveness? Yeah, well, now she's refusing the doctor's recommended procedures (angiogram and defribulator implantation.)
she's saying that if it's her time, it's her time. Ugh. Also, she had a dream about going on a trip with her both deceased parents, she said they were bringing her home.
dude. She's 65. I'm only 32. I'm not ready for this.
Oh Vicky, I'm terribly sorry, man. That Sucks!!! And I know it's easy for me, a stranger over a msg board, to be all peaceful philosophical, so sorry- promise I'm not trying to be glib.
But ok- take the next 24-48 hrs to be (rightfully) pissed as hell at your mom & her decision that you totally disagree with. Scream, cry, vent, get it all out! (Just not to her) Then, I'm really sorry, I know it's gonna be beyond difficult, but you've gotta accept that this is her choice. Do your best to embrace your relationship with your mother in her last days, rather than stewing over what you believe to be a wrong decision. Like I said, I can't imagine how hard it's going to be The only reason that I'm spelling it out so blatantly is because I know you've got it in you to do this, sweet vicky. Please use this board to let us help you in any way we can! Again, I'm terribly sorry; this is so not fair!! Eta: and please lemme know if you'd rather I PM! Can switch/ remove from here, no prob.
Ugh. Thanks for all the support. I just don't know what to do with her.
She didn't even tell us. My dad works at the hospital where her doctor is and he mentioned to my dad that she never followed up. She initially told us all she could do was exercise.