I'm going through something

[wambam]

I feel like I need to put this out there because you are my community and I feel like I need to share this with you. A friend of mine committed suicide on Monday and I found out yesterday morning. I don't know any details at this point, just that it happened and she's gone. She was sort of a figure in the local Crossfit community and we are shocked. Like at any moment we're going to find out that it was a mistake, and that she's fine.

I'm holding it together, but it comes in very big waves that are very close together.

Anyways, I just needed you guys to know because I am obviously not myself right now.

Thanks for listening.

[CallingAllAngels]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing with us, and let us know how we can be there for you. XO

[finallykrisb]

I'm so, so sorry.

[Deleted]

Hugs. I am so sorry.

[cinco]

I'm so sorry. Sending hugs.

[bostonmichelle]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Big hugs.

[venice2007]

I'm so very sorry for your loss! Thoughts and prayers to you, her family and community xo

[shauni27]

Oh friend, I am SO sorry to hear this. Suicide causes so many emotions, it is so much more challenging to deal with than any other death (in my opinion). It is so sudden and confusing and breaks your heart into a million peaces. Know that we are here for you and are surrounding you with love and support.

[sweetptater]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[al320]

Im so sorry. big hugs!

[wambam]

Sept 2, 2015 7:41:32 GMT -5 shauni27 said:

Oh friend, I am SO sorry to hear this. Suicide causes so many emotions, it is so much more challenging to deal with than any other death (in my opinion). It is so sudden and confusing and breaks your heart into a million peaces. Know that we are here for you and are surrounding you with love and support.

Thank you so very much for this. I am feeling more raw and emotional than I did when my grandmother died a couple years ago. I feel as though in that situation I was able to gradually let go and slowly grieve even before she was gone (she had Alzheimer's so it was a very slow process). But this was just fast and hard and awful. A couple of weeks ago, I saw my friend and gave her a huge hug and she was so encouraging about my injury and physical therapy. And now she's just gone in a moment.

Thank you for validating how broken I feel right now. I needed that.

[jordylee]

Awww wambam... So sorry you are going through this. We're all here for you.

[mandiespharm]

So sorry. Big hugs

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry.

[irene adler]

I'm so sorry. We're here for you.

[hannahb]

I am so sorry. Hugs

[clseale]

I'm so very sorry. Like others have said, there's no right or wrong way to process your feelings. Trust me, you will experience a wide range of emotions. It really is one of the toughest losses to process, because the what-ifs and why her/me/us can be crippling. I know several of us on this board have lost loved ones to suicide. 15 years later, and I still shake whenever the topic of suicide comes up. Feel free to PM me or talk this out on the board. However you need to process this is okay. Hugs, sweetie.

[mrshandy]

Oh man, I'm so sorry. How heartbreaking. Hugs.

[coconutbug]

I'm so sorry. Hugs to you.

[osulori]

Oh honey, I'm so sorry.

[joenali]

I'm so sorry.

[gt7301b]

Hugs wambam, I'm so sorry for your loss.

[sitnspin]

I am so sorry for your loss.  ((hugs))

[labbie]

omg, how tragic. I am so sorry, and we are here for you. 

[Wines Not Whines]

I'm so, so sorry. (hug) wambam (hug2)

[libbygrl109]

I am so sorry. Hugs to you.

[emilyj]

I'm so sorry. (((hugs))) I lost a relative to suicide and it is absolutely crippling. Remember, there's no wrong way for you to feel right now, so be kind to yourself and take all the time you need to process this, and do whatever you need to do. We are here for you, whatever you need.

[skwcm80]

I'm so sorry wambam. (((Hugs)))

[jchokie79]

Echoing what everyone has already said. It is just such a hard loss to process. I've gone through it with someone very close to me and years later it still sickens my stomach when I see the word. It's tough to go through alone so please talk it out with someone or come on here and post as often as you feel like. Hugs.

[hurricanedrunk]

Big hugs Wambam, I am so sorry for your loss. There isn't a right way or wrong way to feel, it's a hard thing to process. I lost a friend this way and it was tough. Please post here as often as you need to.