Post by shostakovich on Sept 3, 2015 13:35:21 GMT -5
There is absolutely NOTHING to be ashamed about. If there was something wrong with your arm or your liver or your eyeball or any other part of your body, that wasn't getting better on its own, you'd see a doctor. The brain is just another part of the body that can have its own issues pop up - depression being one of those issues. You didn't cause it, but you can help yourself by seeking help. You've taken some good first steps towards mending your brain, and for that you can be proud.
Also, your H is being an asshole. Anyone else in your life right now that you can reach out to for support?
What you are dealing with is an actual disease, you have a doctor and meds for a reason. Your husband can eat shit if he thinks you just get over it or whatever.
Hugs. Please don't feel ashamed. Please go to the ER or call your Dr or therapist. If you call and say you are "in crisis" and they will move quickly. These are people who are there to help, not judge. I'm sending you love, you are not alone.
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
Fuck Him. He's a piece of shit. Take him out of the picture and do what you need to to be healthy and well. Don't risk having to deal with him tonight, go to the ER and get the help you need.
I'm sorry you're struggling. Get back on the AD. If you don't want to have to deal with your DH at the moment, can you spend the night at a good friend/family member's home? Schedule an appointment with your MD asap.
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
It's not about him. It's about you. There is absolutely NOTHING selfish about wanting/needing to get help. Nothing. He can just fuck right off. Please don't let him talk you out of getting the help you need.
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
Please don't feel ashamed. Quite the opposite, feel good about yourself that you're recognizing you need help. Now get thee to the ER and get that help you know you need. Also, while I agree with the others who have said the whole "it's the dog or me" is secondary right now to you getting well, honestly, with your update I'd call his bluff. And if he's really not bluffing? Is that the man you want to share your life with? Don't deal with any of that now though. Just take the giant hugs to you and the support the ER can give you rightthisminute.
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
Thing is, he doesn't matter right now. Taking care of yourself is the only thing you need to worry about handling right now. He can wait.
Please go to the ER.
I attempted suicide and have been hospitalized. It was scary but it also got me the help I needed because I felt absolutely broken, and lost and just.. tired. Everything was so overwhelming, and even the smallest things seemed too big to handle. I also felt like "death is okay, because death would make this stop." That isn't the way to handle it.
Years later I am so very grateful for my parents and my doctors and the love and support I got from friends because my life is so much better now. I still take ADs, and I had to learn all new coping methods but I am so happy I am where I am today.
You are important. You are strong. You just need help, and there is NO shame in that, EVER.
Post by dreamcrisp1 on Sept 3, 2015 15:00:24 GMT -5
Go to the ER. It's hard but it's a safe place and a safe haven for you. Take care of you. That matters. FUCK your H. Seriously. You are not selfish; you are hurting and in pain.
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
You've identified a huge part of the problem and it is not you. You have nothing to be ashamed of or to apologize for. Please get some additional help to the meds. big hugs
I am so sorry you feel this way. Please take care of yourself and go to the ER. We are care for you and are here for you, we all want you to get better. Don't worry about your husband or any thing else right now. Your health is your highest priority at the moment. (hug) (hug2)
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
HE is being the selfish one right now. He's making this all about him and it sounds like he has for a while. Please don't worry about what he thinks - think about what your babies would want for you - to be healthy and well. That means going to the ER. Would your mom or someone you are close to support you in this? Can you go somewhere other than home tonight, even if you choose not to go to ER (which I think you should).
My husband spent 15 minutes on the phone with me telling me how selfish I am. I'm pretty sure that a trip to the ER will fall in that same category in his eyes. I'm just hoping that he isn't home tonight, I don't know if I can deal with him right now.
You don't have to deal with him. If you go to the er you can just rest and let them take it from there. Don't give him another thought.
Be selfish, you need to take care of you. You are important.
Post by cinnamoncox0 on Sept 3, 2015 15:36:14 GMT -5
If he's telking you're being selfish after you told him you're suicidal, fuck him and honestly I think it's more of a reason to go to the ER. He won't be a support clearly, so you need external professional support.
Please take the advice of evetyone here and even if it doesn't feel like it now, you have a tremendous amount of value to yourself, your children, your family and friends, and everyone in your life, in one way or another.