Um. My baby STTN. It's almost 6 and he's still asleep. I checked the monitor as soon as I woke up and he's breathing. I feel sort of dazed. And my boobs are killing me.
I've been so busy at work lately and am going to take some time off mid-day. Leaving at 11:30 to hang out with DS for a bit, then I have a haircut at 1. I have to go back for a meeting, but it should be a good break. I haven't taken lunch in a week.
I truly don't understand why Target STILL has such a shitty website. My monetary contribution to that place alone should be able to fund the best IT people in the world.
My 7yo niece sent a pic of her tswift concert outfit last night. I'm getting so excited for her to come in town this weekend!
I'm at a conference and the name of the guy speaking right now is Eoin (Owen). He has some sort of accent so maybe the spelling has something to do with where he is from, but I never would have pronounced his name the way it is pronounced.
Also, the time change is catching up to me and I'm exhausted.
I was forwarded an email that i don't think I was meant to receive that called my company stupid and lazy by a customer. Eeeesh. Not how I like to start the day.
Post by mom2twoboys on Oct 14, 2015 7:36:25 GMT -5
Both kids go to school today! I am going to come home take the dogs for a walk and then shower. This afternoon I have my yearly obgyn appointment. I will be glad when that is done.
I did something to my neck yesterday and I can barely move it. I skipped the gym this AM and am on the couch with my travel pillow for more support. This will be a long night at work .
Post by ProfessorArtNerd on Oct 14, 2015 7:54:05 GMT -5
Last night was such a typical "me" class. No place to park so I got there late. No id, sign in. No keys, need to call security. Can't get the goddamn projector working correctly for about 10 minutes. Realize halfway through lecture my nursing bra is still unhooked.
I am being pulled in a million directions and I need a break
Last night was such a typical "me" class. No place to park so I got there late. No id, sign in. No keys, need to call security. Can't get the goddamn projector working correctly for about 10 minutes. Realize halfway through lecture my nursing bra is still unhooked.
I am being pulled in a million directions and I need a break
Post by verycontrary247 on Oct 14, 2015 7:59:19 GMT -5
My room is a disaster zone of laundry and unpacked luggage. I took Monday off specifically so this wouldn't happen and now I'm having a hard time remembering what I did instead.
We now have kitchen walls, painted a pale yellow. No floor, ceiling, or appliances, but progress is progress.
Collection of randoms: My baby girl turns 14 on Friday. Improv class is much harder than last time. I have about 1/3 more of a workload than most of my colleagues, and it's at this time of year I can really feel it. It'll be a tough few weeks. My H is so damn hot.
Today DH and I have our first appointment for couples counseling. I don't think I'm doing this right. I've been thinking the last two days about "building my case". It feels like I'm preparing for court or a debate instead of counseling. But dammit, she needs to see that I'm right.
I'm doing this wrong aren't I? Can anyone who has gone tell me what it's like? I've only done therapy by myself.
Post by Saint Monica on Oct 14, 2015 8:16:25 GMT -5
I did not sleep well last night. Maybe 3 hours total? I'm feeling all sad and over dramatic about everything. I wish I could just go home and try again tomorrow. But unfortunately, I cannot.
My H was snoring all damn night so I didn't sleep, and then traffic was completely ridiculous when I took the boys to school. I gave up on fighting through it more to go to the gym, and drove to Starbucks for a hosted graham latte instead. So tired.
Post by Saint Monica on Oct 14, 2015 8:18:23 GMT -5
CurlyQ284 I don't think that there is anything wrong with "building your case". You love your H, want to make things work. It is better (in my uneducated opinion) to have ideas about what to bring up vs. sitting there in silence and making the therapist/your H guess or sitting there in silence.
I am watching Teresa checks in. How the hell is it legal for Joe to bury his dad in the backyard??? He's not really back there right?? Maybe it's ashes they scattered??
I have the worst stomach cramps ever that woke me up at 2 a.m. and I couldn't get back to sleep. Still have the stomach cramps. I got to work and our computer systems are running at a snail's pace which makes it pretty much impossible to work on anything. To make it even more fun, I have class tonight, so I won't get to go home until 9p.m. I really just want to curl up in a ball and cry.
I am going to vent here because I have no where else to and I have to get it out. I am so frustrated with my husband and kids and life in general. I feel like I am failing in every way and am so stressed all the time.
I just bought a house. Yeah me except I am 49 and it is my first house. Little behind. My H has not worked a job longer than 3 years and has long periods of unemployment and I feel like we are always behind and he doesn't seem to mind or care. He is unemployed again. He was laid off at the end of June after a work comp case was closed. Except it didn't really close for us. His back is still jacked up. He worked for 2 days at a company driving a fork lift but they saw him getting off the fork lift very carefully and sent him home so he didn't mess up there safety record. So he is out of work again. We are at month 3 and I have had to take on another job. So I am never home. He does very little around the house. And everything that he does do he has to point it out so I don't miss it. The girls are old enough to do stuff around the house but have to be reminded constantly. Do you think he does that? Or stays on top of it? NO of course not because I asked him to. Maybe I should have one of his friends ask him to because than it would get done. His nephew that shits all over him all the time has spent the night at our house 2 nights this week which makes the dynamic at the house weird when I do get home at 11 at night. I can't even have a private conversation. He finally applied for some a job this week. The problem is he has no high school diploma or GED. Not that he hasn't had the time to get one. For fucks sake they offer free classes to help you get one. But do you think he would take them? NO.
And I feel like I am the crazy one. He is good time charlie and everyone just laughs at everything he does or says. How do you live with him? He is so funny. You must laugh all day. Yeah, no. If I talk to anyone about all this, I am made to feel stupid. And I am stupid for putting up with this shit for 23 years. I am turning into a bitter ol shrew. I can't stand listening to myself either.
I eat my stress and I have put on 40lbs in the last six months. On top of the over 80 extra I am carrying around. I feel like shit all the time. And I am so tired. I work and extra 23.5 hours a week and I just cannot seem to catch up anymore. I know many other people work alot more but I am just having a hard to getting it together.
I'd be tempted to change the locks on him, TBH. But I bet he rarely leaves anyways? It's such a hard position, but I would start setting deadlines. GED by X date. Medical issues addressed and a long-term plan in place on Y date. Something. I mean, really anything in a positive direction would help. I know you've put 23 years into the relationship, but what if you're miserable the next 23?
When I called my insurance company a few weeks ago, I was told IVF was covered. I was so excited. And then today I was looking at the plan docs and it very specifically states it is NOT covered. So that sucks.
So my lead teacher is gone today (out sick) and that means I lead our preschool class. We have some hard violent kids (hitting/kicking/punching/throwing large toys & chairs etc etc) that I'm super worried will hurt me. I'm currently 10 weeks, 4 days pregnant and my lead teacher is usually my buffer for them. In my head I know at this early point I'm probably ok but I'm a forward/future thinker so I'm worried for future days when she's out sick and I will be more vulnerable.
My left eyebrow was twitchy yesterday afternoon. It stopped after I left and I forgot about it. It started again once I got back to work. Make it stop!
I'M bloated and constipated and look 5 months pregnant. My belly is actually HARD. WTF is wrong with it?
My mom called this morning and told me she knew I wasn't going to my godmother's granddaughter's baptism, lol. My godmother called her the day after I RSVP'd to tell her "So, papie is not coming, apparently she had SOMETHING planned, not sure what, but something". My dad is not going either because he has to work (there was a sad death in the family of two employees, so they are short staffed). So she pulled the "I am going alone with my friend Ioanna, I guess I have to get used to attending those events all by myself now" in a sad voice. I pointed out that she didn't have to go, but she started on obligations again and on how my godmother attends alone all the time. WELL THEN GO ALONE AND STOP TALKING ABOUT IT.
I am over today already. Traffic sucked so I was half an hour late getting in, and before I could even get to my desk my boss called me into his office to talk about some urgent data call. I finally got to eat my breakfast 20 min. ago.