my anxiety is through the roof. I called to get some xanax and should be able to go through the drive through for that today. I had to make a grocery store run today (we are out of nearly everything) so I went at 7 am, thinking it would be quiet and quick and easy. It was literally like the Saturday before Thanksgiving, just totally packed, long lines, already out of meats (the main reason I needed to go).
My friend's BIL is in critical condition with COVID and is generally young and healthy. It is so scary.
The toughest part for my mental health in all of this is just how dystopian it all feels. It feels like before the walking dead or something.
Post by lovelyshoes on Mar 20, 2020 9:36:43 GMT -5
I’m so stressed, not sleeping, can hardly get work done. My h still has to ho to work and I’m so worried. Last night the news of the senators selling off their stock has made me even more enraged. The spring breakers, fl governor refusing to close beaches. I have a friend in Milan and all of the lax reactions here are scaring me more based on what she is going through. I basically hate all people now.
I'm having weird dreams and eating a lot of crap too. And drinking daily, which is a habit I had gotten away from since the new year.
I feel like my family is very fortunate but not knowing how bad things will get is really anxiety-inducing. And I just gave notice at my job to go work for a competitor, and I'm worried the new job is going to fall through given all the turmoil out there.
I had a dream last night that I was with a big group of people (what a no-no) and at a gelato shop. I took FOREVER to decide what I wanted, and the guy who helped me with my order was so nice and patient. It was kind of a low key dream, but also stressful - I hate being last, I hate being overwhelmed with decisions/emotional labor. I have a million frozen and pantry items in my house and no idea what or where it is, so I can't even decide what to defrost/make/eat right now.
I had a friend post something that made what I'm feeling over all this food stuff click... If you have any sort of food insecurity, your stress levels around food are probably skyrocketing right now. Yesterday I had posted in a private group that I don't want to start eating my supplies because what if we need them later. I was almost in tears at that point. When she mentioned the food insecurity a light bulb went off. Being able to pinpoint where that was coming from was helpful. (We were dirt poor when I was growing up. We didn't have a lot of food, ever, and often ran out.)
Probably the best thing about quarantine is not having to wear a bra. I basically wear a sports bra when I work out and nothing the rest of the time. I'm going to be so sad when I have to wear one again.
I'm getting weirdly stressed out watching shows where there are large groups of people congregated. I know they were filmed before all of this, but it's still making me feel things.
I was also pretty tired and weak feeling during my workout today. I know that it happens and is probably nothing. I took my temp and it's normal, and I generally feel normal, just a little tired.
Post by basilosaurus on Mar 20, 2020 9:49:27 GMT -5
pooh8402 I'm tagging you over here to not derail the news thread.
I don't have data to back this up, but my speculation, given how many people I see, even people trained, who wear masks incorrectly, is it's all a wash. Of course a properly fitted respirator would be different.
I share your concern about CDC which pains me to say. Fuck Trump.
I had a friend post something that made what I'm feeling over all this food stuff click... If you have any sort of food insecurity, your stress levels around food are probably skyrocketing right now. Yesterday I had posted in a private group that I don't want to start eating my supplies because what if we need them later. I was almost in tears at that point. When she mentioned the food insecurity a light bulb went off. Being able to pinpoint where that was coming from was helpful. (We were dirt poor when I was growing up. We didn't have a lot of food, ever, and often ran out.)
I've been thinking about this, and I have no idea where my food anxiety has come from, because I didn't grow up dirt poor. But it's long been there. I think it also relates to my issues with weight and binging. I'm now in a panic thinking I won't be able to get fresh food once closure orders are extended (many people think this is literally just going to last 2 weeks). I've spent $$$$ on stocking things. And I'm not an asshole hoarding popular items... I don't think. But like, I have a case of chickpeas, my chest freezer is full of pre-made dinners, ground turkey, ground beef, chicken, daily harvest smoothies, and cat food. My pantry is so full that I have rice and pasta sitting on my counter. I probably have twice what I usually have, but even at normal pantry levels, I'm notorious for "needing" to run to the store for extra ingredients or getting take out. I'm not at doomsday prepper levels, but I'm SO SAD to think that in like 5-6 weeks I might just be eating rice mixed with those chickpeas because I won't have any salad. Like that's going to be my biggest problem or something.
My dad's first flight this morning had about 12 people. O'Hare was pretty much empty. His second flight had about 20 people. So that's a good sign, both for him and his health and for the lack of normal travel levels, I guess. Of course, all business travel is pretty much canceled now. His return trip is Monday.
Post by seeyalater52 on Mar 20, 2020 9:54:46 GMT -5
It's only been a couple of weeks and I'm already finding that my anxiety spikes when I'm watching a TV show and there is a large crowd where people aren't practicing social distancing. I'm like NOOOOOOOOOOOO GET AWAY. Ugh. Kind of a petty example, but it really makes me wonder how our long-term emotional health is going to be impacted by all of this.
It's only been a couple of weeks and I'm already finding that my anxiety spikes when I'm watching a TV show and there is a large crowd where people aren't practicing social distancing. I'm like NOOOOOOOOOOOO GET AWAY. Ugh. Kind of a petty example, but it really makes me wonder how our long-term emotional health is going to be impacted by all of this.
Post by AdaraMarie on Mar 20, 2020 10:00:52 GMT -5
Yesterday the governor closed non essential services until April 30th. Someone on my nextdoor posted something about how she doesn't know many people who can go 3 months without getting a haircut, and am so frustrated. Not cutting your hair means literally doing nothing! It may be frustrating or annoying to people but literally everyone CAN do it.
It's only been a couple of weeks and I'm already finding that my anxiety spikes when I'm watching a TV show and there is a large crowd where people aren't practicing social distancing. I'm like NOOOOOOOOOOOO GET AWAY. Ugh. Kind of a petty example, but it really makes me wonder how our long-term emotional health is going to be impacted by all of this.
Yes! Or seeing “normal” commercials with full grocery stores or people doing regular things without a care.
I may have broken down in tears last night because I just cant with the world. And now I have a stress headache upon waking up this morning.
He's employer is being f'ing idiots about the whole thing. One guy came in with a hacking cough and they cant send him home because "we're not doctors and the employee should just call in." But he wont, because he'd be "bored at home." This person has 350 sick hours for the record.
I would post a gif here to try and lighten the mood... but I'm on my phone. So I'm just going to say...to your H's coworker... WTF YOU FUCKING ASS!!!
It's only been a couple of weeks and I'm already finding that my anxiety spikes when I'm watching a TV show and there is a large crowd where people aren't practicing social distancing. I'm like NOOOOOOOOOOOO GET AWAY. Ugh. Kind of a petty example, but it really makes me wonder how our long-term emotional health is going to be impacted by all of this.
I feel like this might affect us the way my grandparents were affected by the Depression.
Even more than normal, I feel like people who are out and about are avoiding interacting with others, or even waving on the street or something.
I may have broken down in tears last night because I just cant with the world. And now I have a stress headache upon waking up this morning.
He's employer is being f'ing idiots about the whole thing. One guy came in with a hacking cough and they cant send him home because "we're not doctors and the employee should just call in." But he wont, because he'd be "bored at home." This person has 350 sick hours for the record.
I would post a gif here to try and lighten the mood... but I'm on my phone. So I'm just going to say...to your H's coworker... WTF YOU FUCKING ASS!!!
I forgot to mention he is also a toilet paper hoarder.
It's only been a couple of weeks and I'm already finding that my anxiety spikes when I'm watching a TV show and there is a large crowd where people aren't practicing social distancing. I'm like NOOOOOOOOOOOO GET AWAY. Ugh. Kind of a petty example, but it really makes me wonder how our long-term emotional health is going to be impacted by all of this.
I feel like this might affect us the way my grandparents were affected by the Depression.
Even more than normal, I feel like people who are out and about are avoiding interacting with others, or even waving on the street or something.
Yes. I learned to cook/bake from my gramma, and it's second nature for me to do some kinda weird things that she learned to extended every penny, every bit of food. Like, I run my finger along the inside of the eggshell to get those last few drops of white.
And the never throwing anything away. I do think many of us already lean that way just for environmental reasons unlike our boomer parents. But I foresee many toilet paper roll craft and activities for the overwhelmed parents with kids at home.
basilosaurus where are you now? Sorry you're dealing with all that. My brother in China has been in a similar limbo since he can't start his new job and get a new work visa @@@@@ until schools reopen.
Anyone else feel like their cooking is regressing to college/early 20s days? I’m having ramen with eggs for breakfast.
And i I keep waking up with bad dreams. It’s been awhile since that happened. Not covid dreams, but I guess they are stress/anxiety dreams. Last nights involved a buffet and I had so much food on my plate (two sandwiches, Mac & cheese, and something else). I said I wasn’t going to eat it all, then felt guilty of the waste. Food scarcity dreams?
In my waking life, I feel like I’ve accepted reality and am getting to the point I can make the best of it.
Just last night, I was making Mac and cheese, thinking about how it’s only a matter of time until I run out of milk and have to make it like I did in college (because we never had milk in the tiny dorm fridge) - no milk, just extra butter and water. 🤢
You had butter? But not milk? ... This is blowing my mind because I keep all my butter cold. Yes, milk takes up more space, but... how much butter did y'all go through?
I was actually thinking about picking up some powdered milk today for shelf stable reasons. But I had to eat that growing up on cereal. And the baked goods we tried to make from it weren't great (granted, there were other factors involved). And anyway I can't find it. *shrug*
This also has me thinking about all those college experiences I missed because I was a commuter
Post by georgeglass on Mar 20, 2020 10:16:10 GMT -5
Just last night I got to a place of calm, knowing I was doing what I could do for me to reduce my own exposure. And then today, I realized that a spot on my face near my temple is very likely basal cell carcinoma. The good news is that my dermatologist can see me Tuesday. The bad news is that I have to go into a building with a bunch of people and potentially be exposed.
I had a friend post something that made what I'm feeling over all this food stuff click... If you have any sort of food insecurity, your stress levels around food are probably skyrocketing right now. Yesterday I had posted in a private group that I don't want to start eating my supplies because what if we need them later. I was almost in tears at that point. When she mentioned the food insecurity a light bulb went off. Being able to pinpoint where that was coming from was helpful. (We were dirt poor when I was growing up. We didn't have a lot of food, ever, and often ran out.)
I read something related to food insecurity yesterday too, and it clicked. For me, there's a lot of angsty emotion tied up in food. All of this is overwhelming
My uber extrovert bf finally started stressing last night. His friend group is essential to him, they are his family. Not seeing them is going to be rough. And his birthday is this coming weekend. Lol. He's bummed, and scared about having a job after several more weeks of this. It is client-facing (drug and alcohol counselor) and who knows how long people can safely meet face to face. Even now clients are not going to their appointments.
I am very lucky in that my job is safe, it's easy to work from home, and i am an introvert so this isn't terribly difficult.
We are working on honing in on the positive. I am mapping out walking trails at local regional parks, he is going to practice his bass more often. Donating to local food banks and businesses. Chatting with friends on skype and by text.
Anyone else feel like their cooking is regressing to college/early 20s days? I’m having ramen with eggs for breakfast.
And i I keep waking up with bad dreams. It’s been awhile since that happened. Not covid dreams, but I guess they are stress/anxiety dreams. Last nights involved a buffet and I had so much food on my plate (two sandwiches, Mac & cheese, and something else). I said I wasn’t going to eat it all, then felt guilty of the waste. Food scarcity dreams?
In my waking life, I feel like I’ve accepted reality and am getting to the point I can make the best of it.
Just last night, I was making Mac and cheese, thinking about how it’s only a matter of time until I run out of milk and have to make it like I did in college (because we never had milk in the tiny dorm fridge) - no milk, just extra butter and water. 🤢
If you can eat nuts and have any around, there’s lots of excellent but based cheese recipes! Happy to share some of my easy faves if anyone is interested!
I’ve also seen versions with various veggies like butternut squash and carrots.
I never thought I would say this, but being vegan has helped me be a much more creative cook, and has been super useful during this uncertain time!
SwimDeep, I had butter in my college fridge for rice krisy treat! Which can be made in a microwave.
I had something else to say, but I forgot it.
Oh, maybe it was about watching TV shows. I watched The Resident Tuesday, and I was so nervous for the doctor/nurses in the show. No PPE. Then I got really irritated about the lymphoma case, bc they didn’t treat is IRR right. Oh, but they did do the same surgery I had, which was weird. Ok, so this is mostly not COViD related irritations, and just random babbling 😂
Just last night, I was making Mac and cheese, thinking about how it’s only a matter of time until I run out of milk and have to make it like I did in college (because we never had milk in the tiny dorm fridge) - no milk, just extra butter and water. 🤢
If you can eat nuts and have any around, there’s lots of excellent ***but based cheese*** recipes! Happy to share some of my easy faves if anyone is interested!
I’ve also seen versions with various veggies like butternut squash and carrots.
I never thought I would say this, but being vegan has helped me be a much more creative cook, and has been super useful during this uncertain time!
...snicker... I'm sorry. It made me laugh and I want to share laughter right now ETA: I actually do have a lot of nuts in the house right now and would love some nut cheese recipes/techniques
I'm not sleeping well and when I am I'm having bad dreams and grinding my teeth as well. Between that, my anxiety being so high, big weather swings, and hormones I've been dealing with more migraines lately.
I ran to the store at 7 when they opened, thinking it would be quiet but it wasn't. Thankfully people weren't too congested and I saw that checkouts were empty on one end of the store, so not too much interaction there.
A lot of people started talking yesterday about a rumor the governor will lock down the state soon, so I'm guessing that's why so many people were at the store.
And it hit me this morning that a lockdown will go over mil's birthday. This will be her first without fil and the thought of her home alone is just too much right now.