So, I mentioned I was on a trip with girlfriends this past weekend and half the time I just felt out of place. I know my depression has played a role in this, but I just feel this big disconnect from them; if my kids are not involved with them all the time, I won't hear from them. So, the beginning of this trip felt quite awkward.
I don't know how to describe it, but like being out of step with everyone else. It is hard to realize you may not be you "old self" but also have no idea how to get back to that either.
So, I mentioned I was on a trip with girlfriends this past weekend and half the time I just felt out of place. I know my depression has played a role in this, but I just feel this big disconnect from them; if my kids are not involved with them all the time, I won't hear from them. So, the beginning of this trip felt quite awkward.
I don't know how to describe it, but like being out of step with everyone else. It is hard to realize you may not be you "old self" but also have no idea how to get back to that either.
I definitely get this. I went on a girls trip and realized that I’m either not that outgoing person anymore or was never that person and used to just put on a fake persona.
I’ve found my new normal. I’m an introvert and a homebody. Nothing makes me happier than being home with my husband, animals, couch, food, and true crime show. A little group chat here and there with my 2 friends who understand that no, I don’t probably want to hang out but still invite me regardless is all I need at this point in my life.
Maybe things will change in the future. Maybe they won’t. But I’m happy doing this for now. ♥️
I just find this the darkest most depressing time of the year. I had therapy this week which helped and she told me to up my zoloft which I am. I still am looking forward to getting past Christmas.
If anyone else is similar, I have an article to share (i guess maybe it's a blog post) that I read this week that helped me so much in realizing it's not just me:
Love and support to everybody posting here. And I am so sorry Captain Catnip
Things with grand came to a head last night, no thanks in small part to her mother butting in, stirring stuff up. It's not pretty but I'm hoping we can come to some sort of detente for Christmas, or before then.
I just find this the darkest most depressing time of the year. I had therapy this week which helped and she told me to up my zoloft which I am. I still am looking forward to getting past Christmas.
If anyone else is similar, I have an article to share (i guess maybe it's a blog post) that I read this week that helped me so much in realizing it's not just me:
Post by mysteriouswife on Dec 12, 2021 0:03:02 GMT -5
I feel like a downer.
We were hit with the tornado/straight line winds last night. We are so very fortunate the house is standing and the health and safety of our family is still here. We lost several trees and minimal damage to the house. My neighborhood looks terrible.
I’m just not sure how much more we can take. I feel like I’m drowning in my own thoughts. I contacted my doctor prior to SFIL’s death. My meds are adjusted. I am out of therapy sessions for the year (thanks shit insurance!) I just need to make it to Jan. 1.
I just find this the darkest most depressing time of the year. I had therapy this week which helped and she told me to up my zoloft which I am. I still am looking forward to getting past Christmas.
If anyone else is similar, I have an article to share (i guess maybe it's a blog post) that I read this week that helped me so much in realizing it's not just me:
I don’t quite feel as the same as the article but there is some resonation. I’ve been feeling poorly physically all month. I think I need to see my Chiro because I had put that off while going to physical therapy. A lack of exercise coupled with extremely low vitamin D has me feeling blah. I’ve been trying to amp up the vitamin D but it takes a while to take effect. And getting dark at 4:15 is really difficult.