Post by JuliaGulia on Jan 11, 2013 13:47:18 GMT -5
I really wish I posted from the beginning of my pregnancy. I feel like I missed out on some of the awesome relationships some of you have created with each other. I try to post fairly often but I am a pretty reserved person.
Sometimes I feel like a failure as a mother, because I don't do the weekly/monthly photos, I don't scrapbook or do keepsakes, I don't take as many pictures/videos...
We are always going to feel like we're failing at something, but we just need to sit back and realize all the ways we're NOT failing, and realize how awesome we are.
I didn't take weekly/monthly photos either. I do take a million photos a day, but I feel like I should have been better about that kind of stuff.
I'm pretty sure most of you would be disgusted at the state of cleanliness of my house. It's bad and I need to put in more effort, but I fucking hate cleaning and we can't afford a cleaning lady.
Rainbowchip, I am in this club with you. My house is so terrible that we absolutely can NOT have company. But there's no damn time to clean. And even if there was, I hate it so much.
Also... I had another chemical pg, but was too hurt from what happened last time to even post about it. I feel like last time totally ruined my "online life" and it hasn't been the same since. I mean, I lurk as much as I can, but I feel like I can't say anything for fear of going through some bs like that again.
C25K...it works Seaside 5K...........40:45(2012) Turkey Trot..........41:30(2012)/37:08(2013)/37:40(2014) St Pat's 5K..........39:27(2013)/38:48(2014)/35:12(2015) Belair Town Run......38:09(2013)/36:27(2014) Back To Football 5K..37:36(2013)/43:44(2015) Balt Run Fest 5K.....34:59(2013)/41:50(2014)/35:54(2015)
I feel this way sometimes too. Or when i do feel like i finally have it all together, something happens. Example: It was my dads birthday on sunday. I thought we were meeting at 2. MY mom called me at 11, asking where i was. I felt terrible and we rushed over there. They werent mad, and were super cool about it, but i got really sad. How could i miss a stupid detail like that.
The only time I feel like this is when I overdraw my checking account. It's simple math! Why can't I get it right!
I just DID overdraw my checking. And I had to admit it to DH so I could tell him why I needed more money transferred into my personal (fun money) acct from our joint (bill) acct. I suck.
I hope I didn't offend anyone with my list of intimidating people. It was more a reflection on my own insecurities than it was on them. If I'm intimidated by something about you, it probably means I wish I could be more like that in some way.
And I know I certainly wasn't offended when somebody said they were intimidated by my teeth. lol. I was pretty flattered b/c I really don't like my smile much.
I agree with this, Tamb. I meant the same.
And i agree with the others that you have beautiful teeth!
Yesterday I noticed partway through the school day that I had neglected waxing my lip and it.was.bad. So bad.
I got humiliated and tried not to personally interact with any students for the rest of the day. I taught from the front of the room only. I made them stand on the far side of my desk to ask questions.
I went to the gym and lifted free weights in the unused aerobics room bc I couldn't go out on the main floor with my scary lip.
I am humiliated that I walked around like that for a day (??) or MORE and people probably saw :-(
Also... I had another chemical pg, but was too hurt from what happened last time to even post about it. I feel like last time totally ruined my "online life" and it hasn't been the same since. I mean, I lurk as much as I can, but I feel like I can't say anything for fear of going through some bs like that again.
I'm so sorry Biblio.
Fwiw, I think you are safe here. I would hope you are? Post and get support whenever you need it!!
Also... I had another chemical pg, but was too hurt from what happened last time to even post about it. I feel like last time totally ruined my "online life" and it hasn't been the same since. I mean, I lurk as much as I can, but I feel like I can't say anything for fear of going through some bs like that again.
Not just housecleaners judging yous guys! My ex's wife just posted this on FB (she's a dog walker):
today has been the dirtiest dog walking day i have had in a while
I worked at a dog daycare and did dog walking, and there were basic bathing and grooming services offered. A couple of people would drop their dogs off totally stinky and filthy hoping we would bathe them for free because we couldn't handle the smell. For example, one was a hunting dog and they'd let him roll in the scat to get the scent better. They would just bring him in the next day with turds still smushed into his fur.
Another time, there was a multi-dog household where one dog was a poo eater but also with food sensitivities the other dogs did not share. We would occasionally have it happen where that dog ate another dog's poo, puked up the poo, and rolled in the puke.
It is bad enough to have to clean that when they order the service. Tying to win a game of stinky chicken is the worst.
We're taking the girls to daycare and going out to lunch. I am starting my self-directed semester of studying on Monday. Today is just a me day. The biggest confession is that I feel zero guilt.
Go you! I love my kids dearly but being a good mom requires some you only time imo. Make that twice the time with twins!
This was mentioned earlier but I feel as a mom of two and working now ( just my situation not saying that sahm is not hard) I never have it " all pulled together" anymore. But I am also not willing to lower my standards so this bugs me a good deal.
I thought something was really wrong with my vision for the last week. My eyes seemed to not be focusing properly and things were blurry when I was reading. It was starting to freak me out.
Then I took my contacts out and cleaned them since who knows how long and I think I'm back to normal.
This was mentioned earlier but I feel as a mom of two and working now ( just my situation not saying that sahm is not hard) I never have it " all pulled together" anymore. But I am also not willing to lower my standards so this bugs me a good deal.
Oh, I definitely lowered my standards. Because my standards were stupid and useless.
C25K...it works Seaside 5K...........40:45(2012) Turkey Trot..........41:30(2012)/37:08(2013)/37:40(2014) St Pat's 5K..........39:27(2013)/38:48(2014)/35:12(2015) Belair Town Run......38:09(2013)/36:27(2014) Back To Football 5K..37:36(2013)/43:44(2015) Balt Run Fest 5K.....34:59(2013)/41:50(2014)/35:54(2015)
Post by dixeedeluxe on Jan 11, 2013 15:10:04 GMT -5
mamasauras, you'd definitely be bathing my disgusting dogs. they are so effing disgusting. my older one has some kind of ear rot going on that they can't diagnose!
C25K...it works Seaside 5K...........40:45(2012) Turkey Trot..........41:30(2012)/37:08(2013)/37:40(2014) St Pat's 5K..........39:27(2013)/38:48(2014)/35:12(2015) Belair Town Run......38:09(2013)/36:27(2014) Back To Football 5K..37:36(2013)/43:44(2015) Balt Run Fest 5K.....34:59(2013)/41:50(2014)/35:54(2015)
This was mentioned earlier but I feel as a mom of two and working now ( just my situation not saying that sahm is not hard) I never have it " all pulled together" anymore. But I am also not willing to lower my standards so this bugs me a good deal.
Oh, I definitely lowered my standards. Because my standards were stupid and useless.
C25K...it works Seaside 5K...........40:45(2012) Turkey Trot..........41:30(2012)/37:08(2013)/37:40(2014) St Pat's 5K..........39:27(2013)/38:48(2014)/35:12(2015) Belair Town Run......38:09(2013)/36:27(2014) Back To Football 5K..37:36(2013)/43:44(2015) Balt Run Fest 5K.....34:59(2013)/41:50(2014)/35:54(2015)
Post by browneyedhunni85 on Jan 11, 2013 15:20:19 GMT -5
I'm trying to schedule my facial for next week and I've called THREE fucking times. I really want to use my gift card that DH and C got me for Christmas. The first time I called and left a message. When they called me back I was tending to C. It's a business so there should be someone there answering the phone. I want an hour of ME time dammit.
We could never afford a cleaning lady right now lol Plus, I know I'd be the lady who'd clean before the cleaning lady came because I'd be paranoid she'd be judging my dirt. So it'd be counterproductive.
This would be me. I'm OCD about cleaning. I also think I would be super hard on them. I just feel like paying someone to do something that I know wouldn't satisfy me would be crazy. No one cleans my house the way I want it cleaned except me, including DH.
well to be fair, if you are OCD about cleaning.. you probably don't need a cleaning lady? instead if you have spare cash hire somebody to take care of your kid(s) while you clean unencumbered. I loathe cleaning, all the time in the world and I still won't dust
Post by Dorothy Zbornak on Jan 11, 2013 15:29:57 GMT -5
Another FFFC: We're watching the German version of "I'm a celebrity, get me out of here" while eating two different kinds of chips. I recognize three of the 16 "celebrities." Both of the kids are sleeping in bed, which is rare and makes me think the husband and I should be, uh, doing something else.
But he is cracking me up: "They should give me money to be on this show. I'd shit right in the middle of the camp." This was acoustically illustrated with farting noises.
Eta: OMG! Jamie-Lee Curtis' sister (Allegra) is on the show!
well to be fair, if you are OCD about cleaning.. you probably don't need a cleaning lady? instead if you have spare cash hire somebody to take care of your kid(s) while you clean unencumbered. I loathe cleaning, all the time in the world and I still won't dust
yeah, my stress always came from 'ugh, if i don't clean and someone comes over, they'll think i'm dirty'. but, i never really cared, myself. so, that was dumb.
get this, i also thought my housekeeping skills were a reflection on me. like, messy house = bad person. which stems from messy house = bad wife.
C25K...it works Seaside 5K...........40:45(2012) Turkey Trot..........41:30(2012)/37:08(2013)/37:40(2014) St Pat's 5K..........39:27(2013)/38:48(2014)/35:12(2015) Belair Town Run......38:09(2013)/36:27(2014) Back To Football 5K..37:36(2013)/43:44(2015) Balt Run Fest 5K.....34:59(2013)/41:50(2014)/35:54(2015)