Run #2 today and another run with Achilles pain. I just...can't. I can't. How can I go like that for nearly three years and then get something like this that just won't get better? I took FIVE WEEKS OFF from it and I feel like I did when I stopped. I have been working on all the things my doctor and PT told me to do and nothing is better. So now, the $135 I just spent last week to register for my full in May is fucking wasted. The half races I have coming up in January and February are pointless (and they're Disney races, so you know, super cheap). The last five weeks I just kept telling myself it would be worth it because I would be able to run pain-free again. Three miles. Three stupid miles and I'm right back where I started. I may as well have just kept fucking running this whole time. It wasn't making it any worse.
So there goes another year of trying to make it to Boston, I guess. And all. that. money. on race fees. And before my run even started, my Garmin wouldn't locate any satellites for ten fucking minutes and I threw a hissy fit and threw it and I broke it. So there's that. And my husband isn't really talking to me and I'm being stupid and stubborn about it because I just need him to pay attention to me for five minutes. And my co-dean just told me he's moving away in February. And I said something really mean to a friend today. And my kids are making me stabby. And you know why? Because I'm not happy...because I'm not running.
All I really want to do is cry for an hour, but noooooo...dd2's holiday concert is tonight and I volunteered to be stage manager.
I understand what you are going through. My DH has struggled with Achilles pain for years. It gets a little better then gets worse again. He does his PT exercises and hasn't run as much or as fast as he has wanted for years. I guess that's what the expression 'achilles heel' is all about. I'm sorry.
I'm sorry girl. It sounds like it's just been a really rough day all around. The Achilles is a wretched injury to deal with. I hate to suggest more time off, but at this point it's hard to say.
I'm sending you a hug and hoping you can sit down for some personal time with a treat & a glass of wine soon.
Post by secretlyevil on Dec 18, 2013 20:50:50 GMT -5
I'm so sad for you. I hope something changes for the better soon, lots of hugs! Take a couple of deep breathes and shake it off, for now, you got some kids counting on you.
I'm so sorry. I kept thinking of things to say to you, but really, you need to be allowed to wallow in this funk for a bit. It's warranted. We would all feel the same way. Hugs. So many hugs.
This sucks. Did you ever have a MRI? After time off and working on things it shouldn't still be painful. Maybe you have a small tear. I don't know, just trying to throw another cause out there.
Also, I am so sorry. Being injured like this is such a devastating feeling, but you will find a way to make it better. Be your own advocate and trust your instincts.
I'm so sorry. I kept thinking of things to say to you, but really, you need to be allowed to wallow in this funk for a bit. It's warranted. We would all feel the same way. Hugs. So many hugs.
I'm so sorry. I kept thinking of things to say to you, but really, you need to be allowed to wallow in this funk for a bit. It's warranted. We would all feel the same way. Hugs. So many hugs.
Yes, this. Shitty days are the worst. Run injuries are the worst. Wasting money is the worst. You have every right to be a little down and angry and wallow in it and want some extra love, etc.
Run #2 today and another run with Achilles pain. I just...can't. I can't. How can I go like that for nearly three years and then get something like this that just won't get better? I took FIVE WEEKS OFF from it and I feel like I did when I stopped. I have been working on all the things my doctor and PT told me to do and nothing is better. So now, the $135 I just spent last week to register for my full in May is fucking wasted. The half races I have coming up in January and February are pointless (and they're Disney races, so you know, super cheap). The last five weeks I just kept telling myself it would be worth it because I would be able to run pain-free again. Three miles. Three stupid miles and I'm right back where I started. I may as well have just kept fucking running this whole time. It wasn't making it any worse.
So there goes another year of trying to make it to Boston, I guess. And all. that. money. on race fees. And before my run even started, my Garmin wouldn't locate any satellites for ten fucking minutes and I threw a hissy fit and threw it and I broke it. So there's that. And my husband isn't really talking to me and I'm being stupid and stubborn about it because I just need him to pay attention to me for five minutes. And my co-dean just told me he's moving away in February. And I said something really mean to a friend today. And my kids are making me stabby. And you know why? Because I'm not happy...because I'm not running.
All I really want to do is cry for an hour, but noooooo...dd2's holiday concert is tonight and I volunteered to be stage manager.
ok, dont hate, but i had to giggle about your hissy fit because i have done that SO MANY TIMES in my life in very similar situations. Like, the fucking garmin just has to be icing in my cake.
I hope you are feeling better today. This is why I do triathlon because although a swim or bike INSTEAD of running makes if even worse, a swim or bike with my friends because it's FUN makes it a lot better.
Can you downgrade your Jan/Feb races? I am seeing most races these days have a 5K attached to it. And there is no shame in the 5K!! Actually, if there are longer races, better athletes tend to those, leaving a lot of possibilities for awards for the rest of us