Monday night jibberish

[spindle92]

I NEVER pack in advance. If I try I just end up pacing around in circles for hours questioning what I did pack.

[cuddlyevil]

I pack in advance but then I always need what I packed.

[winecat]

My BFF and I decided to go to Paris!

[achase123]

We got a new account today-whoop!

I'm also hanging low on nye. Ill be happy to have P back.

I was going to hide my match profile and then a cowboy emailed me. Sigh

[mcc]

Good to always hear about new job opportunities! I'm so excited for your trip! Take pics--duh.

I'm meeting so many people at the mug club (other muggers) and love getting to know the staff at my bar. Best fattening decision ever!

I need to start flossing more regularly. I was spitting out almost pure blood tonight and my gums have receded badly on my bottom teeth

[spindle92]

Dec 30, 2013 22:20:17 GMT -5 mcc said:

Good to always hear about new job opportunities! I'm so excited for your trip! Take pics--duh.

I'm meeting so many people at the mug club (other muggers) and love getting to know the staff at my bar. Best fattening decision ever!

I need to start flossing more regularly. I was spitting out almost pure blood tonight and my gums have receded badly on my bottom teeth

My gums are bad too but mine is because I brush too hard.  I use an extra soft toothbrush but I just forget and press to hard.  My dentist is always scolding me for this bad habit.

[kaneen]

Floss? What's that?

I'm still in the office. I'm only here "on-call" in case of an emergency. I've done a few things to help them today but at this point they are just fixing random stuff so they can complete what they had on their list today. The only reason I haven't left is because it would be like a slap in the face to them if I left and they can't. But gaahhhh, I want to go back to the hotel and sleep!

[mcc]

mp I don't want to shit where I eat (or drink) so that's a no go. He gave me a hug tonight goodbye. I have another bartenders phone number but it's more of a friends thing. Some of the muggers are cute but I need that to be my safe place, even though the cute bartender said that I would meet my husband there haha!

spindle92 I think it might be from my new electric toothbrush. It's a possibility I didn't think of. I also grind my teeth and wear a bottom mouthguard so I might need a better fitting one after almost 6 years with this one. I looked up periodontal disease and wanted to die!

[mcc]

Dec 30, 2013 22:28:45 GMT -5 mp said:

Movies that have sex of any kind are difficult for me to watch right now - they make me sad. That makes me sound pathetic, doesn't it? I want good sex. I miss PASSIONATE sex. Seeing passion in others hurts the soul a little right now - so glad for a break soon.

I feel you, boo

[winecat]

My mom is so anti-relationships. It really makes me mad. She's never been supportive of a relationship that I've been in and sometimes I feel like it is easier to not be in one than deal with her. She's never had a healthy relationship. But I've seen plenty. I know they exist. I feel like she wants me to be alone to be available to her. And when she dies, I'll have what? Nothing.

[hazel]

I'm so over the holidays. They really are better when you have someone to share them with.

I'm allowing myself a few more days of moping and laziness, and then I'll start getting my act together.

[mcc]

Hugs winecat

[winecat]

Dec 30, 2013 22:38:31 GMT -5 mcc said:

Hugs winecat

Thank you.  It feels so disfunctional, probably because it is.  This is coming up because I have that customer that asked me out.  I'm wondering if my non-excitement is because of having to negotiate this mind field if I were to be in a relationship again.  Why wouldn't she want me to be happy in a relationship and have a family?  

[hazel]

Dec 30, 2013 22:38:55 GMT -5 mp said:

Dec 30, 2013 22:36:39 GMT -5 hazel said:

I'm so over the holidays. They really are better when you have someone to share them with.

I'm allowing myself a few more days of moping and laziness, and then I'll start getting my act together.

I get it. Totally. I told my family if I am single next Christmas I intend on just going on vacation.

Seriously. I wish I had traveled somewhere because I've been off of work most of the last week. And everyone else is busy with their family activities, so there's only so many plans I was able to make.

Most of all I'm tired of acting happy and content around everyone.

[spindle92]

Dec 30, 2013 22:36:39 GMT -5 hazel said:

I'm so over the holidays. They really are better when you have someone to share them with.

I'm allowing myself a few more days of moping and laziness, and then I'll start getting my act together.

I am so over them too. 
This year was a lot easier than last year for me and I am not really sure why. Maybe because I have other shit going on and I just do not care about the holidays like I use to.  That is probably not the healthiest answer though.

[Deleted]

Uggg I was really looking forward to my low key NYE party at my BFFs. But then he invited this girl who is so rude to me I don't even want to go. Yes I know I'm being a baby, but with my anxiety having her look me up and down and walk away from me when I say hi just is more than I can handle. My crush has a date for NYE and I got yelled at at work today even though were off on vacation. Fuck the holidays seriously.

[hazel]

Dec 30, 2013 22:44:53 GMT -5 spindle92 said:

Dec 30, 2013 22:36:39 GMT -5 hazel said:

I'm so over the holidays. They really are better when you have someone to share them with.

I'm allowing myself a few more days of moping and laziness, and then I'll start getting my act together.

I am so over them too. 
This year was a lot easier than last year for me and I am not really sure why. Maybe because I have other shit going on and I just do not care about the holidays like I use to.  That is probably not the healthiest answer though.

It's okay to be distracted by other things. It's probably healthier than the moping around I've been doing.

Thanks mp. It is nice to know other people can relate, even though I don't wish anyone to feel this way.

[gault]

Just weighed myself.
Jesus.

[starrieskies]

I found out tonight that my friend who bailed on our NYE plans is having a party at her house instead and she invited Stbx. But I'm welcome to come hang out if I want. Oooh and Stbx promised that he wouldn't make it weird. No thanks. I'd rather go to the bar alone than hang out with Stbx on my first single NYE in 13 years. I want to say that I'm mad, but that's not really it. I'm hurt...

[Deleted]

Dec 30, 2013 23:21:31 GMT -5 starrieskies said:

I found out tonight that my friend who bailed on our NYE plans is having a party at her house instead and she invited Stbx. But I'm welcome to come hang out if I want. Oooh and Stbx promised that he wouldn't make it weird. No thanks. I'd rather go to the bar alone than hang out with Stbx on my first single NYE in 13 years. I want to say that I'm mad, but that's not really it. I'm hurt...

Shut up! That sucks. I'm so sorry!

[starrieskies]

The best part is that I didn't even hear it from her. Stbx told me.

[winecat]

Dec 30, 2013 23:21:31 GMT -5 starrieskies said:

I found out tonight that my friend who bailed on our NYE plans is having a party at her house instead and she invited Stbx. But I'm welcome to come hang out if I want. Oooh and Stbx promised that he wouldn't make it weird. No thanks. I'd rather go to the bar alone than hang out with Stbx on my first single NYE in 13 years. I want to say that I'm mad, but that's not really it. I'm hurt...

I'm so sorry.  I'd be hurt too.

[starrieskies]

I get that she and her bf are friends with both of us, and I wouldn't presume to ask them to choose. It's not about that. But we made the plans almost 2 months ago on my birthday.

[gault]

Dec 30, 2013 23:29:27 GMT -5 winecat said:

Dec 30, 2013 23:21:31 GMT -5 starrieskies said:

I found out tonight that my friend who bailed on our NYE plans is having a party at her house instead and she invited Stbx. But I'm welcome to come hang out if I want. Oooh and Stbx promised that he wouldn't make it weird. No thanks. I'd rather go to the bar alone than hang out with Stbx on my first single NYE in 13 years. I want to say that I'm mad, but that's not really it. I'm hurt...

I'm so sorry.  I'd be hurt too.

WHAT, and HE was the one who told you?  That is complete bullshit.  And to tell you the truth... I smell a conspiracy.

I'm so sorry.  I would be fuming and then cry all over the place.

[starrieskies]

Dec 30, 2013 23:40:16 GMT -5 gault said:

Dec 30, 2013 23:29:27 GMT -5 winecat said:

I'm so sorry.  I'd be hurt too.

WHAT, and HE was the one who told you?  That is complete bullshit.  And to tell you the truth... I smell a conspiracy.

I'm so sorry.  I would be fuming and then cry all over the place.

I do too, I think that's the worst part. I want to cry, but I'm not going to. I don't know what I'm going to do, but going to that party is not even an option. I'd rather spend the night home alone.

[gault]

I really think either he manipulated/lied to them into what they're doing now to be an asshole, or he convinced them to make new years into this secret thing to try to win you back. Kiss at midnight and all of that.

Or he'll bring a date to make you jealous. Lol. Either way, not worth your time. I wish we lived closer, I'd love to spend new years with you!

[starrieskies]

Me too lady, mee tooo!

[starrieskies]

I think he pulled the woe-is-me card and they felt sorry for him. He can be very convincing, especially when he's using a card he doesn't play very often. He's by far one of the most manipulative people I've ever met. That doesn't excuse my friend for blowing me of and then lying to me about why though.

[glitzyglow]

Hugs to everyone who wants one!

I'm so afraid I won't find a job in Nashville. I really really really want a job with set hours and decent pay (I'm not even asking for good pay...just decent!!). I hope so much I get a job. I really want this to be a great new start.


My future terrifies me lately. I'm so scared nothing will work out, just like the last life I thought I had.

[Deleted]

Dec 31, 2013 0:11:42 GMT -5 glitzyglow said:

Hugs to everyone who wants one!

I'm so afraid I won't find a job in Nashville. I really really really want a job with set hours and decent pay (I'm not even asking for good pay...just decent!!). I hope so much I get a job. I really want this to be a great new start.


My future terrifies me lately. I'm so scared nothing will work out, just like the last life I thought I had.

Be positive. My crossables are crossed for you.