I'm Back, sort of (long story)

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Hi everyone, sorry to have been MIA for the last month or so. For those that guessed, yes, it was me with the AE asking about running a marathon pregnant. I think I was looking for permission to run it. I had lost my cervix through cancer two years ago so I was probably in denial that this would be a problem. Running made me so happy and I couldn't bear to give it up.

Anyway, I saw my Gyn Oncologist, and he gave me a flat no. My single pregnancy is the equivalent of carrying triplets. The only thing holding it in was a stitch and a bunch of hope.

So my last race was the 20km. I came tenth. Not being allowed to run upset me. But it was okay. I even volunteered at the Liverpool Half Marathon and that made me feel good.

So why am I back? I unfortunately lost the baby. I'm going in for a surgical evacuation tomorrow. Paris Marathon is next weekend and obviously I won't be doing that (though I'll still pop over, go shopping, eat blue cheese and drink champagne) but as soon as I have healed, in both senses, I'll be strapping on my sneakers and getting back on the road. I'll need all the encouragement you can spare.

Anyway, I'm back. Next half marathon in ye olde worlde Tudor town of Chester. 18 May. I'm going to give it a shot.

Oops, that's a bit of an essay, sorry! Have a cookie if you got through all that.

[clseale]

Oh, sweetie. I'm so sorry. So many hugs coming to you!! Welcome back. We're here, and happy to listen & encourage whenever you need it.

[water*drop]

I'm so sorry.

[shellfish26]

Lots and lots of hugs and healing thoughts to you.

[finallykrisb]

I'm so sorry. Hugs to you.

[cinco]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[emilyinchile]

I'm really sorry to hear that. I've actually been thinking about you recently because my dad was visiting, and we were talking about when I'll next be in England (late Sept, FYI), and I thought that you hadn't been around and hoped that it was for a good reason and not a bad one. I hope that you heal quickly physically so that you can get back out running, which I'm guessing will help you heal mentally and emotionally as well. And just drink all the champagne in Paris.

[lb2006]

I am so, so sorry to hear. Take care of yourself - enjoy the cheese and champagne, and we look forward to hearing about your future races

[gt7301b]

I'm sorry for you loss, I hope running again provides you some peace.

[CallingAllAngels]

I am very sorry for your loss. Hugs.

[bostonmichelle]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts.

[jchokie79]

Big hugs to you through this difficult time. I'm glad you're still going to the Paris marathon to enjoy the atmosphere and definitely partake in the yummy food. Take good care of yourself and we're always here for you, anytime!!!

[emilyj]

I'm so sorry.

[G22]

Oh man Ches, I'm so sorry. ((hugs)) I hope running can provide you some comfort and this board is here for you!

[thom]

I am so sorry for your loss and for the emotional roller coaster I'm sure you've felt the last few months. That is some tough stuff. Thinking of you & sending hugs across the pond.

[Brit]

Huge hugs. I'm so sorry. We are always here to listen and give creepy internet hugs if you need to talk about it.

[Deleted]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Be kind to yourself, and hope returning to running helps.

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

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[bluedaisyus]

Oh Cheshire I'm so sorry. I hope Paris is a relaxing time for you and you can get back out on the road soon. I can't speak to what you've experienced but I started running around the time that we decided we were done with loss and TTC for good, and I really feel like it's been so good for my continuing healing process. I hope it can be healing for you, too.

[shelbyann]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs.

[labbie]

I'm so sorry- (hugs) to you.

[kams]

I am so very sorry. We are here to listen and offer support any time you need it.

[taratru]

I'm so sorry, cheshire. *hugs* Running was a huge help for me after a loss. I hope you find some solace and healing soon.

[katandkevin]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[runblondie26]

Hugs. I'm so sorry.

[Deleted]

Oh wow you guys, I'm totally overwhelmed with the love.
I thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

Definitely still going to Paris, not that it's a massive hit if I don't, but I've already paid and besides, it's Paris. Amirite??

I started running to improve my mood and make my arse look like two marbles in a hanky, so I'll give it a go. I expect my times to be slow, my legs to ache but you guys have always reminded me that it's not the point. Just doing it is.

X

[stinkerbell6879]

So sorry for your loss. After my loss running really has helped clear my head and deal with all the emotions. I hope all the physical part goes smooth so you can start to heal ((HUGS))

[skwcm80]

I'm so sorry for your loss. (((Hugs)))

[Deleted]

Omg, I'm so sorry. Big hugs

[ebeth]

so sorry for your loss.

hope you can enjoy paris and all the cheese and wine that come with it.