Sunday Night Fears.

[shadynasty]

I'm afraid I won't find a job/I'll never be successful or make enough money to have the kind of life I want. I'm afraid that if I don't get a job in my field that I will have wasted my Master's degree. I'm afraid of H dying and I'm also kind of afraid I'll die alone, since we don't want children. I also worry regularly about things happening to our pets.

[Deleted]

Jun 1, 2014 21:54:51 GMT -5 nicbreeful said:

Jun 1, 2014 21:50:57 GMT -5 @stellasmom said:

I'm afraid of dying and just ceasing to exist, but I'm also afraid of existing for all eternity.

Well, I don't know about the rest.. But as long as we're here, you will always exist, stellas.

No one would ever forget your humor, your kindness, your wit or your wisdom.  

Not that you're going anywhere anytime soon.  We all know you're gonna be around for the haul.  It's not even a question.

Guys.

GUYS!

SHE CALLED ME FUNNY!

Thanks so much Nic! That seriously gave me warm fuzzies. I think in gonna print it out and frame it.

[whiterascal]

Silly, superficial fear here: I'm afraid the Kings are going to score in OT and the Hawks won't make it to the Stanley Cup Final. I HATE OT.

[eb777888]

Jun 1, 2014 21:50:57 GMT -5 @stellasmom said:

I'm afraid of dying and just ceasing to exist, but I'm also afraid of existing for all eternity.

Yes. So much this.

[yourmother]

I'm afraid I'll never have a baby. Going into my first IVF and I'm so afraid of the possible disappointment and money drain of potential future IVFs.

[mskitkat]

Jun 1, 2014 21:50:25 GMT -5 nicbreeful said:

Jun 1, 2014 21:40:43 GMT -5 mskitkat said:

I'm so sorry.. That sounds very frightening.  

Obviously, I'm no expert.  But I do have a very, very severe anxiety disorder.  It affected nearly every part of me.  Stomach, joints, bowels, hands, arms, legs, hips, etc.

Anyways, I just asked because what you said sounded so much like what I went through in the beginning.  

If I may ask (and please don't feel pressed to answer) are you taking any meds?

No anxiety meds, other than the muscle relaxants I take sometimes when I've stressed myself sick. I have an amazing therapist who really helped me out with the worst of my anxiety. Right now is worse than normal, though, since we are relocating to another state and buying our first house. As much as I hate to admit it, you could be right and my wrist is from hurting myself in my sleep. I've been known to do that.

*hugs* I really appreciate that you cared to comment on it. (heart)

[curtains]

I am afraid I'll die before my dd turns 18 and her living situation would ruin her.

I am afraid something will happen to her. I sometimes think of the worst scenario and just want to hug her and keep her safe. She's getting too old for me to hover so I have to just trust, not always easy.

I am afraid of being alone for the rest of my life

[Deleted]

Before I met H, I was afraid of losing my dog because of the love and attachment I felt for Charlie. It was something I had never felt before for anyone else. Then I met H and the love was a stronger, more intense love (lol duh) and my fear of losing Charlie, while still there, pales in comparison for the fear of losing H. And then I had Ethan and it's almost overwhelming at times when I think of losing him. I don't know if I could survive losing him. The love I have for him is so strong and all consuming I didn't know it existed. 

I'm afraid of E inheriting all of my mental and physical health problems. 

I'm afraid H won't be able to find a job that will be able to support us. We're piecing it together now, but this can't last forever. 

I'm afriad the religion I believe in is wrong and I'm putting all of my faith into something that doesn't exist.  

[pooh8402]

I'm afraid I won't ever be a mom.

[wowhead]

Hugs all around. Inner fears suck!!

[G22]

I'm afraid I will never get pregnant. And that I will never be a mom. And that I will never be ok if either of those come true.

I'm afraid of giving myself my IVF injections.

I'm afraid of my siblings or parents dying.

I fear when my pets start dying. I dread it even though its long ways away, but I know it will absolutely crush me.

[RoxMonster]

I am afraid of whether or not I/we want children. I used to think I did. Then I was vehemently against having them. Now I am 90% against having them, but unsure.

I'm scared I'll regret whatever decision we make about kids.

I'm terrified of losing people I love, namely my grandparents, parents, and H. And my dog, if I'm being totally honest.

I'm scared I will not lose the weight I put on and will have health complications from it.

[RoxMonster]

Jun 1, 2014 21:58:50 GMT -5 letsgetweird said:

Jun 1, 2014 21:37:14 GMT -5 Dagny said:

I'm afraid that I'll never have any great lasting female friendships. I'm socially awkward in group settings (I get anxiety about it) and I'm incredibly bad at making friends. I think I'm a decently cool person and a good friend, But I'm having a hard time finding friends that I have enough in common with to get really close with. It's bumming me out.

I can relate so much to this.

Me too. So much. H and I were just having a similar conversation about friendships the other day.

[ZoeHart]

I'm afraid of never having any kids. And that my (hopefully really far away) funeral will be a pathetically empty affair since I had no children or grandchildren womp womp.

[fuckyourcouch]

Hugs, litebright and AutumnRose25

[bonquiqui]

I'm also scared of a relapse, because I haven't really had a a relapse as bad as i could. The unknown of MS is scary

Also scared of losing people close to me

[sparkythelawyer]

Jun 1, 2014 22:01:52 GMT -5 nicbreeful said:

Jun 1, 2014 21:54:09 GMT -5 sparkythelawyer said:

That I really am stupid and not smart enough to be good at my job.

That I'm not really liked, I'm just tolerated.

Bullshit.

You know, deep down, how smart you are.  Everyone knows, sparky.

Do not listen to the detractors.  

Also?  I like you plenty.

I'm not sure how much that means to anyone, but I like you.

Thank you! That made me smile a bunch. I think you're pretty fantastic as well :-)

[Deleted]

I'm afraid that I will have to bury my children before I pass on. It's totally irrational, but it's one thing that really scares me.

[fuckyourcouch]

I'm very afraid of getting pregnant, but also terrified I won't be able to get pregnant. H wants a kid so bad.

I'm scared of dying, but mostly because I think this is it. I also have always had a nagging fear I would die young.

I'm scared of losing my parents and my h. It makes me teary if I think about it.

I know when Kirby dies I will be inconsolable. I'm very scared of that eventuality.

[bonquiqui]

@sprkythelawyer i know we aren't supposed to comment, but i ❤️ You

[bonquiqui]

I am also afraid that I'll never have children

[ginandjucie24]

I want to hug everyone in this tread.

I am afraid for my older sister. She has an appointment tomorrow to find out results of a biopsy.

I am scared that I am not a good mom.

[snorky]

I'm afraid that I ignored something that I was warned about and subsequently brushed off broke up my marriage.

I'm afraid that my divorce is going to fuck up my beautiful daughter.

I'm afraid that someone I love is going to die a horrible death from cancer.

[wannabe]

I always fear that one day I'll screw up so bad that my kid will go off and move in with her dad, where she'll be encouraged not to do shit and never find something she truly loves to do.

I fear that the hub will wonder WTF he's doing with such an old lady and find someone closer to his own age.

Stupid, I know.

[trafficgirl]

I'm afraid of my H and/or kids dying. This is absolutely my biggest fear - I can't dwell on it otherwise I start crying.

I'm afraid of my parents dying before getting to know my kids as they grow up (as I know they will eventually pass).

I'm afraid of really fucking up my kids, particularly with my food and body image issues.

I'm afraid my body will never be like it was before kids, especially that the hip pain will never go away.

[SadieBear]

I am afraid that I didn't marry the right person for me. I love DH and he is a good dad but I am not as happy as I think I should be and I don't know if its my crazy coming out or what.

I am afraid ODS will always struggle with his speech and other disorders.

I am afraid that YDS is showing a delay in his speech too and that we will have to go through everything all over again.

I am afraid that a situation will arise where both my boys need me and I have to choose. (Fire or accident)

[shauniemae]

I am afraid I won't ever receive the love I show to others (in romantic relationships).

I am afraid I won't make a decision regarding having kids, or, when I do, there will be no one to share having children with.

I am afraid of losing my brother to drugs or his mental illness - and what that will do to his children and our family. He's so young (25).

I am afraid I can't make the changes to be a better, stronger, less co-dependent person. I want this so badly. It's so hard.

[loremipsum]

I'm afraid our plan to move to the USA from Australia in a couple of years will be a huge mistake. There are a million reasons to do it, but it's a huge decision that will affect my children's lives in a major way and I'm horribly worried it'll be the wrong move.

On a related note, I'm perpetually scared I'm fucking up my kids in a million little ways.

ETA (hit post too soon): I'm scared my brother's mental health issues will overcome him again and this time he'll have a successful suicide attempt. PDQ.

[elleblue]

I'm afraid I won't lose this extra weight (duck you very much thyroid).

I'm afraid I won't ever get pregnant. 

I'm afraid if I do get pregnant, something will go wrong/be wrong with the baby. 

[Deleted]

Besides the standard fear of death...

I'm afraid something will happen to me before I write a letter to my kids letting them know how much they mean to me - since they are so young and I'm not sure my youngest would even remember me if I passed away right now.

I'm afraid I'm not living life enough.