i'm afraid that my mental health will continue to decline and I won't be able to get control of it. Because of this, I'm afraid that my husband will give up on me. I'm not the person that he married and I'm afraid that it will turn out to be too much for him.
I'm afraid of never getting out of a career that I don't like. I can't afford to leave. I'm also afraid that we will always struggle financially.
I like this, and need it lately. I had a huge sob fest with a friend a few weeks ago and it was super cathartic for me so maybe this will be similar.
I'm afraid I'm going to bomb a lab practical this week. I'm afraid I will get to my dietitian appointment and just cry through the whole thing and not get anything done. I'm afraid it will turn out that I have diabetes.
I'm not really afraid of anything right now because all of the fears I have had are happening and I've never had any dying fears. Now I only have regrets. So many regrets.
Well I have a wicked anxiety disorder so it would be easier to list what I'm not afraid of. Pdq
My biggest relate to my children, that God forbid something were to ever happen I just know I would be too broken to go on, or be a meaningful parent to the remaining children. I had an only for 11 years, and anytime I would get stuck on the loop or intrusive thoughts (OCD) of something bad happening to him, I always had the "out" that I would just kill myself then I wouldn't have to face the crushing pain. Then I had twins four years ago and I all but went nuts with the realization that I didn't have that as an option anymore because I have other children that need me. So now I just live with internal hysteria every minute of every day
I am afraid of death. I am afraid that this life is all we get and then that is it. I can't imagine just not existing anymore and not being with my family. Logically, I know that everyone dies, but I can't think about there not being something after this life without going into a panic attack.
I'm afraid of raising DD in a world like this. I'm terrified I won't be able to keep her safe and that something horrible will happen to her, and that I won't be able to stop myself from retaliating. Because of this, I feel so conflicted lately about having a second child; I know in my heart I want another, but it almost feels selfish, and definitely feels completely overwhelming on a larger level.
I'm afraid of losing DH. My parents. My sisters. I'm afraid of dying and leaving them behind, and DD without me.
On a smaller scale, I'm afraid I'll regret taking my new position at work. I kind of jumped into it without mulling over for a while, and I can't go back to my old one, so the change is final, and that worries me.
Are we still doing these? Obviously it's not Sunday night anymore. Oh well...I do what I want. here goes:
I am afraid I will wake up one morning and will have lost it mentally. And that in doing this I will fuck up my kids and my marriage. This is what happened to my mother when she was in her early 30's, she just lost it and has never been the same. So I guess that fear is that I will wind up like my mother.
I am afraid of running into a bear one morning while I am out running. This is semi legit as there have been several sitings within a few miles of my house.
I am afraid I will never be happy with my body, never feel comfortable in my own skin.
Post by fivechickens on Jun 2, 2014 6:58:24 GMT -5
I am aftaid of something happening to my H. For many reasons, one of which is that I won't be able to provide for my girls like he does for us and we'll end up in a box on the side of the road.
I am afraid of something happening to me because my H and kids would be sad.
I am afraid of something happening to my kids. I have so many fears for them.
I am afraid that my girls and I will have the same relationship that my mom & I had. Which was not great.
On a lighter note more materialistic/shallow fear:
I am afraid I haven't aged well and someone will ask 'how old are your granddaughters'
I am afraid our landscaping is never going to get done and we'll be *that* neighbor/house in the sub with the terrible yard like at our last house.
I'm afraid for my son, that I brought him into the world when humans are in the midst of destroying both the planet and each other. I'm afraid for what his world will look like in 100 years. I'm afraid that if I don't have another baby he will grown up and be sad and lonely with no family. I'm afraid if we do have another we won't have the financial resources we need to give both of them good lives.
Never marrying or being in a long-term relationship ever again. Cutting myself off from friends and family to become a hermit. Developing Alzheimer's or some other debilitating disease. Not exercising enough and getting super droopy and flabby
"Why would you ruin perfectly good peanuts by adding candy corn? That's like saying hey, I have these awesome nachos, guess I better add some dryer lint." - Nonny
I'm afraid I'll regret not having children. I'm afraid to have children and leave them alone in this craptastic world where terrible things happen far too often.
Post by amberlyrose on Jun 2, 2014 11:43:09 GMT -5
I'm afraid of dying, but mostly because I would never want DH to go through that. He's lost so many people close to him and he has gone through so much already. My mom would be depressed at first but could move on with her daily life, but I think losing me would completely wreck my dad in the end.
I want kids but I'm scared that I won't be able to handle the anxiety. I'm always anxious with my dogs and I couldn't imagine the fear and love one has for their child without having a mini panic attack.
I fear I'll never lose the weight I want or I'll never find peace with my own body
I fear I'll never find something that I'm passionate about and end up like my dad. I wish I could be like my mom or DH and just know what I want to do with my life.
I'm afraid of dying, but mostly because I would never want DH to go through that. He's lost so many people close to him and he has gone through so much already. My mom would be depressed at first but could move on with her daily life, but I think losing me would completely wreck my dad in the end.
I want kids but I'm scared that I won't be able to handle the anxiety. I'm always anxious with my dogs and I couldn't imagine the fear and love one has for their child without having a mini panic attack.
I fear I'll never lose the weight I want or I'll never find peace with my own body
I fear I'll never find something that I'm passionate about and end up like my dad. I wish I could be like my mom or DH and just know what I want to do with my life.
Hugs. You look great, btw.
Are you back in town yet? Were you able to eat clean there? You look fabulous in your photos.
I'm afraid of dying, but mostly because I would never want DH to go through that. He's lost so many people close to him and he has gone through so much already. My mom would be depressed at first but could move on with her daily life, but I think losing me would completely wreck my dad in the end.
I want kids but I'm scared that I won't be able to handle the anxiety. I'm always anxious with my dogs and I couldn't imagine the fear and love one has for their child without having a mini panic attack.
I fear I'll never lose the weight I want or I'll never find peace with my own body
I fear I'll never find something that I'm passionate about and end up like my dad. I wish I could be like my mom or DH and just know what I want to do with my life.
Hugs. You look great, btw.
Are you back in town yet? Were you able to eat clean there? You look fabulous in your photos.
You were missed at the gtg! <3 <3
Thanks <3 If by eat clean, you mean stuffing my face with pasta and wine, then yes I did walk a ton though. I got home yesterday. We need to catch up!
Are you back in town yet? Were you able to eat clean there? You look fabulous in your photos.
You were missed at the gtg! <3 <3
Thanks <3 If by eat clean, you mean stuffing my face with pasta and wine, then yes I did walk a ton though. I got home yesterday. We need to catch up!
That's what I was going to add - you walked SO much. you were in the lead on fitbit the couple of times i checked in! (I walked 25k the day I did the BB, so the fitbit piqued my interest again. )
Yes, we will catch up soon! Glad you guys made it back safe!
I'm afraid of dying and my H being completely lost parenting, and that he'll drink himself stupid and stop parenting.
I'm afraid I'll never get the motivation to lose weight. I just keep getting bigger, and just plain don't have the motivation to lose any weight.
I'm afraid I'm screwing up my kid for life. I feel like a shitty parent who spends most of my time with her yelling no or getting frustrated.
I'm afraid of losing my parents. I know it's inevitable, but my mom is kind of my rock and my best friend, and the thought of her not being around scares me to death. My dad and I aren't as close, but he's a great dad and I'm afraid if my mom goes first, he'd pretty much shrivel up and stop living.
These are things that COULD happen so I feel like they are rational too which is what makes it even more scary.
For my DD the fears are her drowning or being in a car accident when she's driving with her sitter.
For my DS the fears are him getting hit by a car when he runs out into the street or falling off this one slope that's near a park that the sitter frequents. He's a runner so this crosses my mind DAILY.
I'm afraid my BF is going to someday have a change of heart about me and end our relationship, and along with that I won't find someone else who I feel the way I feel right now about.
I'm afraid his late wife was a better match for him or made him happier and that I'll always be the one he settled for since she died and can't be with her (I have never discussed this with him so I have no idea if this is rational or not).
I have always been afraid of sudden death by accident - of a close family member/friend or myself. The idea that someone could be having a normal day and be dead a second later is terrifying.