I know, I KNOW we had a tumultuous not always healthy relationship, but I can say that the last visit she had here we were taking steps towards something better.
Now it's gone.
I have to spend time tomorrow with my H's mom for the first time since my mom died. I'm feeling...so much.
In the weeks after she died I spent countless hours lying and sleeping in "her bed". My laziness meant I hadn't yet changed the sheets in the room that she slept in, and how glad I am for that because it was a comfort. Her smell. But I've forced myself to move on, and not lie there for hours
I just.. I don't know. I'm feeling like I want to lie down there again and...I don't know where I'm going with this.
Post by ginandjucie24 on Apr 3, 2015 15:45:56 GMT -5
I am sorry you are sad . Is there anything thing that you have of hers that you can wear or keep with you so that you can feel like a part of her is still with you?
I am sorry you are sad . Is there anything thing that you have of hers that you can wear or keep with you so that you can feel like a part of her is still with you?
I wear her wedding ring every day. I have most of her jewelry. Some clothes. Other things.
I haven't seen my grandma - her mom since she died. Her health made it impossible to travel 5 hours for my mom's funeral. I feel like taking off and driving to be with her right now, but I just can't.
You lost your mother. No matter how tumultuous your relationship was when she was alive, you still have gone through a major and sudden trauma. Allow yourself to grieve how and when you want/need to do.