Post by sproctopus on Feb 22, 2016 22:46:37 GMT -5
Grandma's have a way of saying things, don't they?
I haven't experienced the loss of a parent, but I know the feeling of grieving through reliving and how heartbreaking it feels. I hope tomorrow passes for you in the easiest way possible.
Hugs. Losing a parent leaves a hole in the universe that sometimes feels impossible to fill. Even years later.
I really think it gets worse every year. The first year, it was just sort of a relief not to be dealing with him being sick anymore.
I get that. Mom was so sick for so long, then better, then dying, then gone. For the first year-ish, I could focus on the fact that she was no longer sick and know that she loved us all dearly. Now I just see how much she's missing and how absolutely unfair it is.
Post by TrudyCampbell on Feb 22, 2016 23:03:37 GMT -5
Oh, Tamb. I can't believe it's been three years! This whole post made me tear up and I think the card from your grandma is so so special, I'm glad you have that. I get really emotional seeing handwriting of people who are gone.
I hope you're able to take some time for yourself tomorrow, to feel however you want to feel.
People say that time heals all wounds. I don't believe that, I think you just get used to living with the pain and sadness. It never gets easier. I'm so sorry tamb. The death of a family member is so hard. I'm sorry for your loss. I hope tomorrow is ok and you can find some comfort is the happy memories. My heart hurts for you.
I can relate. It will be 3 years ago in April that I lost my grandmother and then 6 months later, my stepdad died. I still have thoughts about my stepdad's last days in a small isolation room after his bone marrow transplant. It sucked and I really had no idea that he wasn't going to pull through--(bone marrow transplant was successful for a couple of months, but then got an infection and then cardiac arrest).
I hate cancer. But we can't change what happened. We just have to remember and cherish all of the great times we had with them. </3
Watching my dad go through everything the cancer brought on was one of the worst things I've ever been theough. I get it. I understand all the emptions you are feeling.
I feel silly now about the card thing -ha. Should have clarified in my OP. SORRY I MADE YOU SOB, @lazerus24.
Her thing was always that she would say "I love you fifty million and [however many years old I was]." As I got older, she'd add question marks like she was incredulous that I was that old.
Omg I had stopped crying why did you do that?!?
My grandmother has a very special place in my heart. Honest to God I don't know what I would do without her. It just hit me unexpectedly.
I can't imagine what you are going through. I hope it gets easier for you.