Post by whitemerlot on Jun 15, 2016 23:53:48 GMT -5
I'm glad you told him. Are you safe tonight? Please keep posting if we can encourage or support you.
My mom has had depression for her whole life and was in a very dark place when I was a teen. She made some suicide attempts before getting help. I'm so glad she is in my life now because she is always there to listen to me and support me. She has said many times that she is glad to be here.
Post by creamsiclechica on Jun 16, 2016 0:16:08 GMT -5
I am so proud of you for reaching out to your husband in this incredibly difficult struggle.
My mother attempted suicide three times during my life and was committed to inpatient treatment after each subsequent try. It was never an option for my father, or anyone, to take my brother, sister, and I out of her care. All we wanted was for her to be happy, to be healthy, and to know that we needed her more than she could ever imagine. You are worth it. You are special, one of a kind, and someone's whole world. Getting the help you need to live a long and full life is a gift you can give yourself and everyone you love. So much love your way.
Having an illness is not a reason to lose your child! Mental illness is an illness.
I've been inpatient 3 times (bipolar) and it saved my life. I'm a single mom with full custody of my son. My ex filed for full custody in 2015 because of this. Despite my health challenges I'm an excellent mother and still have full custody of my son. I speak from experience here, the most important thing is getting treatment.
OP -- I'm really glad you told your husband. I'm thinking of you today
guestae -- you don't have to know how to get started, they will do the work for you. Do you have a crisis line for your community? Usually calling them will expedite the process. If not, just drive yourself to the local hospital and let them know what is going on. They have a process in place.
You ladies are both stronger than you think you are and you are worth it. The love and strength of our community is with you both.
Post by illgetthere on Jun 16, 2016 11:15:44 GMT -5
OP, I hope you have already been able to get in touch with whoever is able to get you somewhere. If not, go to your local ER if you have a hospital with a mental health unit. My husband has done 2 inpatient stays, each for a week or less. While he still needs a lot of help with his illnesses, he is not suicidal. I was able to visit him and bring him anything he needed. Seeking help will not get your daughter taken away from you. You need to be healthy for her and for you.
I am glad you have your DH's support. My grandmother went to inpatient care, back in the 50s when it was still fairly taboo and harsher than today. She has started talking about it a bit very recently, and said (even with the treatments at that time) that it made all the difference for her in having a productive, happy life and connecting well with her children/family. You are worth it, and I am sending you hugs and support.
I have no experience with inpatient, but suffer from anxiety and have a family history of depression. I am so so so glad you told your husband. He loves you and wants you to be the best you possible! Your sweet child also wants you to be a happy Mom. Admitting you need help is so hard and scary. The fact that you told your husband shows that you believe you can overcome this! You are loved so very much, and I can tell you have so much love for your family.
Please get the help you need, whatever that may be. You are WORTH it.
I'm glad you told your h. That's one of the hardest parts of this. If you can't do it yourself, have him call for resources. Even if your er doesn't have a psych unit they'll keep you there safe while finding you a bed elsewhere.
I don't want to hijack your post but I could have written the same thing. I spent Saturday night researching methods and almost took a bottle of pain killers when I went to bed. I don't know what stopped me. I've been dealing with this for 3 years, nothing has worked. Counseling, different meds, nothing. I feel like inpatient may be my last hope but don't know how to even start.
I do hope you are able to reach out to someone you trust - your husband, a friend, family member - anyone, and tell them you need help. I bet there are tons of people that would do anything for you because their life is better with you in it!
I hope you take your own advice here... please get help for yourself... you also are worth it!
I hope you take your own advice here... please get help for yourself... you also are worth it!
I appreciate it. It's very hard for me to accept the advice I give others. Good enough for them but not for me I guess? I'm working up the courage to call my old therapist on Monday. I think I feel safe until then.
Thank you very much to everyone who has commented. I'm a long time lurker so I don't feel worthy since I'm not a regular, but I still appreciate the kind words.
You are so worth it guestae :] I'm glad you're both getting help. I haven't been to inpatient (probably should have) but I have depression and anxiety and have been suicidal/attempted. Reaching out for help is so important, and worth a shot.