I haven't responded to your earlier posts, I don't think (or maybe I have) but I'm so glad you're getting help. My XH was hospitalized after his second suicide attempt and, despite what he says about counseling not helping, it did so much good for him (and for me to be able to get counseling as well for his issues). Inpatient will be so good for you. The outside support is a fantastic foundation. I'm glad you were willing and able to open up, and to find help. I started counseling for myself just last week, so I could be able to handle things I'm having trouble handling. I'm another online person saying great for you, you're doing the right thing, counseling and therapy are so helpful and you'll get through this. If you need our help, we're here for you.
I'm so proud of you! I am also happy that your MIL is helping out. You seem like you have a great support system IRL, but remember you have all of us as well.
You are one brave woman! It may not exactly feel like it right now, but please believe everyone on here who is telling you that! You are strong, you are brave, and you can do this!
I hope someday soon, you will be able to look back at this step and recognize it as one of the biggest, bravest, and most positive things that you could do to better your life and the life of your daughter!
Thinking of you as you go through these next steps in your journey!