How are we doing? BLM-Related

[NitaX]

I'm checking in to see how everyone is doing in the wake of yet another police shooting. I told my H that he could be a "bad looking dude" too. You know, large black male. I'm tired y'all. I'm playing my Music for the Movement playlist today. I am so damn tired. And I'm about to start unfriending mofos that say a single thing about how Terence Crutcher should have followed direction. 

The man's car stalled. You get a call about a stalled car and it requires six damn officers? You mean to tell me two officers couldn't roll up and say "Sir, is everything ok?" To which a living Mr. Crutcher could have said - "Officer, my car quit on me. I was trying to get to such and such convenience store."

HOW MUTHAFUCKING HARD IS THIS SHIT?!!!

[sfy]

Pretty pissed off and weary. I have so much to say, but I'm honestly to tired to repeat it all here. I just think that the whole framework has to change. There have to be some serious checks and balances on police officers and how they interact with black people. I don't know if that means calling a black officer to the scene, some kind of police officer helpline or whatever the hell is needed to keep these racist assholes from killing black men who have not pulled a weapon on them, but it needs to be done. Even sending the murderers to jail is insufficient. It's a excellent punishment, but not a sufficient deterrent, because guess what? Murderers go to jail everyday and yet and still, people still murder people everyday. So there must be something stronger than that in terms of preventative measures. I don't understand how this is allowed to keep happening. How we are allowing this to keep happening. And yet, I have no idea what to do. These fucking letters and petitions sure as hell are not it.

[dr.girlfriend]

My DH was invited to speak at a conference 4 hours away, and flew there and back. The conference had promised to pay for travel, but now they're saying they would only pay gas mileage. He's too embarrassed to tell them that he was too nervous to drive by himself through rural Pennsylvania (what they call "Pennsyltucky" around here). It wasn't the only reason he flew, but it was a big consideration.

[sweetday]

I'm just sad and angry.

Mostly because nothing will happen.

We will rage and post and speak and ... nothing.

"Until the next episode."

[gazpacho]

I am weary. I just gave a lecture on discrimination and racism to undergrads and their silence was unsettling. I am so fearful about how this constant exposure is impacting a generation...and not in the same way that inequality propelled the Civil Rights Movement. This seems qualitatively different.

[skwcm80]

I'm so tired.

[NitaX]

Sept 20, 2016 12:10:02 GMT -5 gazpacho said:

I am weary. I just gave a lecture on discrimination and racism to undergrads and their silence was unsettling. I am so fearful about how this constant exposure is impacting a generation...and not in the same way that inequality propelled the Civil Rights Movement. This seems qualitatively different.

How so? *pulls up chair for the knowledge drop*

[DesertMoon]

This isn't right no one should have to leave their house and fear murder like this.

Black women on here, I'm sorry I'm really so sorry that this fear is a reality For your beautiful families.

[DesertMoon]

Also these mother fuckers better be nailed for this. It will not end until there are some consequences, and I don't mean paid leave.

[sunshine608]

I'm tired, sad and angry.

Twice today I've been so angry I've had to get up from my desk and walk around. 1st after seeing some article saying wait for justice and another after some friend liked some BS post about standing some white coach teaching his mostly black team why to stand for the national anthem.

[EnchantedSoul]

I'm tired. And terrified. I couldn't sleep last night. I have a big, black husband and 3 black sons. I just don't see it getting any better. It doesn't benefit white folks to care about us.

[NitaX]

Sept 20, 2016 12:22:27 GMT -5 DesertMoon said:

Also these mother fuckers better be nailed for this. It will not end until there are some consequences, and I don't mean paid leave.

That sounds great; but the reality is outside of Daniel Holtzclaw, no one goes to jail. Rodney Kings folks got off. Tamir's folks weren't charged. We don't get people who go to jail. 

The comfort of justice doesn't work for us. 

[redwino]

I'm tired sad and scared. My husband drives to Tulsa for work regularly. I know this happens everywhere but this is hitting too close to home.

Last night when I got home from work I was pissed at him for leaving the kitchen a mess. Just regular married stuff. After I finished cleaning I sat down and got online. None of his silly shit mattered. I just prayed he got home. I seriously want to wrap a 6'2, 300 lb man up in a bubble and keep him home and safe. I'm so scared for him, for us, my brother and cousins, my neighbors. I'm scared.

[threejs]

I feel guilty for saying my soul is weary because I can only imagine what Terrence Crutcher's family must be going through right now.

I also feel an overwhelming urge to gather up every single black and brown person and start over somewhere, anywhere, where it's just us and the people who get it. I remember thinking as a freshman in college that Marcus Garvey must have been a little nuts. 17 yr old me was so stupid.

[kicks]

Sept 20, 2016 13:42:45 GMT -5 1234FIF! said:

Sept 20, 2016 13:16:20 GMT -5 NitaX said:

That sounds great; but the reality is outside of Daniel Holtzclaw, no one goes to jail. Rodney Kings folks got off. Tamir's folks weren't charged. We don't get people who go to jail. 

The comfort of justice doesn't work for us. 

I am never ever ever ever ever ever never going to get over this one. Never. 

Truth. He was a baby.

[andwhat]

I have no TV or internet still and I am sneaking internet at my new assignment at work. I have yet to actually read what happened in this Tulsa shooting and right now I feel like that is probably a good thing. But I know I can't hide my head in the sand forever.

I know the level of discourgement is not decreasing at all.

[andwhat]

Sept 20, 2016 13:42:45 GMT -5 1234FIF! said:

Sept 20, 2016 13:16:20 GMT -5 NitaX said:

That sounds great; but the reality is outside of Daniel Holtzclaw, no one goes to jail. Rodney Kings folks got off. Tamir's folks weren't charged. We don't get people who go to jail. 

The comfort of justice doesn't work for us. 

I am never ever ever ever ever ever never going to get over this one. Never. 

Me either. I think this really surprised me the most. I was positive that they were going to get convicted. Positive. And then they weren't. They weren't even charged. I had a serious talk with my brother after that came out. It didn't really make me feel better.

[iammalcolmx]

I DARE someone to come at me the wrong way. The HR person showing lynching photos isn't going to go over well.

I am also pretty worried about having Thanksgiving Dinner with H's family. His cousins dumb ass simple relatives come and if I hear ANYTHING about standing for the Anthem I am going to lose my fucking mind. I am legit concerned. So much I may have to tell my IL's to give everyone a heads up I am not to be approached. I am not lying, I will cuss out kids too.

[iammalcolmx]

NitaX, you posted yesterday on FB about this. I immediately thought of your H and started bawling. I am so scared for so many people. I called my Dad in hysterics.

[thejackpot]

I am all kinds of sad and frustrated. I don't know what it will take. People can be more up in arms about Kapernick taking a knee then black men being slaughtered. I am so afraid for the men in my life.

[dreamcrisp1]

I just got the chance to read an article about this and I am so sad and horrified. There will be no consequences as per usual I am sure. White people continually can do whatever the fuck they want and get away without consequences. So much hatred and racism simply because we're a different colour.

[NitaX]

Sept 20, 2016 14:46:50 GMT -5 iammalcolmx said:

NitaX , you posted yesterday on FB about this. I immediately thought of your H and started bawling. I am so scared for so many people. I called my Dad in hysterics.

Can you imagine someone thinking he's a "bad looking due?" My quiet, mild mannered H? I mean really? Sigh. I told him that last night. He hand't seen the video when I told him about it last night. I'm sure he's seen it today and will give me his thoughts later.

I mean, we already had some kid jump away from him in an elevator and someone say he was a big guy. 1234FIF!, remember that BS. I'm so glad I wasn't in the elevator with ya'll when that happened because cussing would have happened. 

[NitaX]

Sept 20, 2016 14:08:51 GMT -5 andwhat said:

I have no TV or internet still and I am sneaking internet at my new assignment at work. I have yet to actually read what happened in this Tulsa shooting and right now I feel like that is probably a good thing. But I know I can't hide my head in the sand forever.

I know the level of discourgement is not decreasing at all.

Don't watch it Boo. Don't do it. Because I need you to keep your job. Because once you see it, I know your immediate response is going to be one of shock and disbelief and then a serious critique of the behavior/practices shown. 

I'm begging you not to watch because I'm worried about how you'll take it. #realtalk (((HUGS)))

[kicks]

Fuck this bitch who shot him. This is what her lawyer said:

"He had a very hollow look in his face, kind of a thousand-yard stare, so to speak, and would not communicate. And she could tell he was not normal. She thought that when she saw him,"

He was probably scared shitless, rightfully so. Or maybe he had been in an accident. Or maybe he had a naturally resting bitch face because when the cops roll up we're supposed to smile at them. Really the only reason he was shot is cause he was black.

I swear it seems like police often lack critical thinking skills that are desperately needed.

Fuck.

[malu]

I have deleted 3 post attempts because I have so many thoughts, but can't seem to articulate clearly my anger, sadness, and fear.

This is a national crisis.  My mom has called me after she read of each shooting ...and she lives in India.  These killings are being reported around the world.  We look like complete hypocrites when we are lecturing other countries on how to treat their citizens while a blind eye is turned to what is happening in our own communities. 

[sfy]

Sept 20, 2016 15:33:45 GMT -5 kicks said:

Fuck this bitch who shot him. This is what her lawyer said:

"He had a very hollow look in his face, kind of a thousand-yard stare, so to speak, and would not communicate. And she could tell he was not normal. She thought that when she saw him,"

He was probably scared shitless, rightfully so. Or maybe he had been in an accident. Or maybe he had a naturally resting bitch face because when the cops roll up we're supposed to smile at them. Really the only reason he was shot is cause he was black.

I swear it seems like police often lack critical thinking skills that are desperately needed.

Fuck.

So if something was actually wrong with him, medically, mentally, or otherwise, then her response is to kill him? These people are to stupid to carry sharp objects, let alone guns.

[itsme]

Sept 20, 2016 15:33:45 GMT -5 kicks said:

Fuck this bitch who shot him. This is what her lawyer said:

"He had a very hollow look in his face, kind of a thousand-yard stare, so to speak, and would not communicate. And she could tell he was not normal. She thought that when she saw him,"

WTF.  I truly have no words.  The amount of cops on scene, the helicopter, why?!

[redwino]

Sept 20, 2016 15:33:45 GMT -5 kicks said:

Fuck this bitch who shot him. This is what her lawyer said:

"He had a very hollow look in his face, kind of a thousand-yard stare, so to speak, and would not communicate. And she could tell he was not normal. She thought that when she saw him,"

He was probably scared shitless, rightfully so. Or maybe he had been in an accident. Or maybe he had a naturally resting bitch face because when the cops roll up we're supposed to smile at them. Really the only reason he was shot is cause he was black.

I swear it seems like police often lack critical thinking skills that are desperately needed.

Fuck.

This makes me so mad I'm almost in tears. I worked with 2 students yesterday who are black teens with autism. I'm worried sick for them. They have limited communication skills, poor social skills, and lots of behaviors that could make them "suspicious". We always encourage independent living being a goal for our students. But I'm not sure how to approach that anymore. As much as I would love for them to live in or navigate their community independently, it's not safe for them to do so.

[raangoli]

Sept 20, 2016 16:39:59 GMT -5 sfy said:

Sept 20, 2016 15:33:45 GMT -5 kicks said:

Fuck this bitch who shot him. This is what her lawyer said:

"He had a very hollow look in his face, kind of a thousand-yard stare, so to speak, and would not communicate. And she could tell he was not normal. She thought that when she saw him,"

He was probably scared shitless, rightfully so. Or maybe he had been in an accident. Or maybe he had a naturally resting bitch face because when the cops roll up we're supposed to smile at them. Really the only reason he was shot is cause he was black.

I swear it seems like police often lack critical thinking skills that are desperately needed.

Fuck.

So if something was actually wrong with him, medically, mentally, or otherwise, then her response is to kill him? These people are to stupid to carry sharp objects, let alone guns.

I asked MH the same question as we watched the news tonight. Wtf. How is that an acceptable response?

[orangeblossom]

Sept 20, 2016 15:33:45 GMT -5 kicks said:

Fuck this bitch who shot him. This is what her lawyer said:

"He had a very hollow look in his face, kind of a thousand-yard stare, so to speak, and would not communicate. And she could tell he was not normal. She thought that when she saw him,"

He was probably scared shitless, rightfully so. Or maybe he had been in an accident. Or maybe he had a naturally resting bitch face because when the cops roll up we're supposed to smile at them. Really the only reason he was shot is cause he was black.

I swear it seems like police often lack critical thinking skills that are desperately needed.

Fuck.

This is code for he was a big black man, and I need to protect myself from said big black man, training be damned.  Though, there have been few successes with convictions, despite the video this time being pretty telling (at least what they've showed), the fact that it was a woman, will make people feel all the more symptathetic.  

Forget the fact that she went through the training to become an officer to be able to handle most situations, it will come down to, "poor little white female cop" was scared of this big black man and just had to shoot.

Note, I am not making light of this, but am just imagining what her supporters will say. I mean, look at the drivel her lawyer is already putting out.