I am not ok tonight.

[dianecourt]

Hugs, @kizmet.

[starlily]

I'm so sorry. I know what that feels like. Hugs to you.

[pantsparty]

I'm so sorry

Those first initial days you are really in shock. It feels like it starts to hit you more as time goes on. Like I remember it feeling so weird that life obviously went on for everyone else outside my family. It actually made me really angry at times, that it wasn't fair that we had to deal with this loss while others went back to their normal life.

I'm really sorry you're hurting

[winecat]

I'm so sorry.

[pumpkin]

So many hugs! My thoughts and prayers are with you as you navigate this tough time.

[lilac05]

Sending you hugs and prayers. I'm so sorry. Please be kind to yourself, especially when these waves really hit.

And thanks for sharing the article.

[insominac]

Wow - that was a great article. I've never known true grief like that, but I will. One of the great things about this place is how many people have gone through similar life experiences - good and bad. I'm sorry for your loss and hope that you find plenty of support here and in your everyday life.

[nextbigthing]

Hugs, I'm so sorry

[RamblingRose]

Hugs. And yes, the grief hits at the oddest times. And not everyone in the family will feel it at the same time. It's a true mindfuck.

[Linie]

I've been there and I know how hard it is. I'm very sorry for your loss.

[peachy]

((Kizmet)) I'm truly sorry

[Waffles]

It really does hit at random times, and also not necessarily with obvious triggers somehow.

Hugs.

[flex]

It's so hard. And yes, it totally comes in waves. I've always said it takes a while for the actual numbness to wear off, and THEN it REALLY hurts like a bitch. It sounds like you're in that stage right now. We're here for you. ((big hugs))

[whattheheck]

When my mom passed I remember being surprised by how physical the pain was - my body physically hurt at times. It never gets good, but it does get better.

[AutumnRose25]

I'm sorry @kizmet

[Captain Serious]

I'm so sorry, Kiz. I wish we could make it better.

[Bernadine]

I'm so very sorry.

[mom2twoboys]

I'm so sorry.

[cajunmom]

I'm so sorry. I vividly remember those days after losing my dad. It's no consolation to hear, but those waves do eventually get further apart and smaller. It's been 7.5 years for me and thinking of him or him showing up in my dreams mostly bring smiles now.

[mrsukyankee]

I'm so sorry. Sending lots of hugs to you.

[cbwm1]

(((((kiz)))))

[readyin07]

I am so sorry. I wish there were magic words or I knew when the pain would subside. Dh is still reeling from his mom's passing in October. Every first is hard and the grief catches you off guard when you least expect it. He called me from a golf tournament a few weeks ago inconcolable. There were a lot of "old" people there playing ( like late 70s) and he didn't want to be around them, he just couldn't understand why his mom never got the chance to be old. My FIL is in town this month as has been their custom and, for me, my grief has been the worst now. The kids would usually play with FIL and dh in the water at the beach and mil and I would sit together underneath the umbrella and watch and catch up and have a frozen "drink of the day." And now it is just me. It hurts. I am so sorry you are feeling this way and I hope today brings you more peace than pain.

[minerswife17]

I'm so sorry. ((Hugs))

[mel]

I'm so sorry for your pain. Hugs and much love to you.

[swarley]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It sucks. I lost my mom 18 months ago and the waves still hit me but they are coming less frequently now. Mostly they hit when I'm watching my son (he was 17 months when she passed). She should be here to see him growing!

[mekia]

I'm sorry

[mbcdefg]

I'm very sorry *hugs*

One of my worst moments came when my water heater broke and I realized I could no longer call my dad to ask what I should do about it.

[somersault72]

I'm so sorry, although that doesn't feel like a big enough word. Thinking of you. (heart)

[bugandbibs]

Peace be with you.

[cabbagecabbage]

I'm so sorry.