Freak out with me? (Loss)

[seeyalater52]

Nov 22, 2018 13:32:30 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Nov 22, 2018 9:37:26 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

This morning the line was basically the same on FRER and now I’m freaking out and kind of hate myself for the daily testing.

The wondfo test was a tiny bit darker.

I’m 100% sure my urine was more diluted today because I drank a crap load of water before bed but I’m seriously getting flashbacks to last time we lost the pregnancy and it’s making me so worried.

Guuuuurrrrllll!!! What did I tell you yesterday? LOL

These tests are yes or no tests. That’s all.

If it helps, my FMU tests were always light. Even at like 8 weeks. I got darker ones at night on like 1 hour urine. I really hope you can relax and enjoy the day with your wife. And I hope the time to Saturday afternoon flies by for you! Laughter is good for you right now. Maybe rent a good movie or play a fun game? Hugs!

What did I tell you!? I’m no good at this game. And I’m pissed my stupid body makes me doubt that it’s capable of getting this right and I’m pissed at all the annoying Facebook group people who have super strong positives on day 7pt, and I hate that my stupid boobs stopped being sore. Haaaate. I hate everything about this. I’m so bad at distracting myself and I’m so anxious and just.... ugh. Clearly I am a mess.

But I cried my eyes out on the couch for the past hour and I kinda feel better and my wife and everyone else thinks today’s FMU line is darker than yesterday’s so I just need to wait. But damn why does it have to be this hard?

[icedcoffee]

Nov 22, 2018 13:36:58 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Nov 22, 2018 13:32:30 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Guuuuurrrrllll!!! What did I tell you yesterday? LOL

These tests are yes or no tests. That’s all.

If it helps, my FMU tests were always light. Even at like 8 weeks. I got darker ones at night on like 1 hour urine. I really hope you can relax and enjoy the day with your wife. And I hope the time to Saturday afternoon flies by for you! Laughter is good for you right now. Maybe rent a good movie or play a fun game? Hugs!

What did I tell you!? I’m no good at this game. And I’m pissed my stupid body makes me doubt that it’s capable of getting this right and I’m pissed at all the annoying Facebook group people who have super strong positives on day 7pt, and I hate that my stupid boobs stopped being sore. Haaaate. I hate everything about this. I’m so bad at distracting myself and I’m so anxious and just.... ugh. Clearly I am a mess.

But I cried my eyes out on the couch for the past hour and I kinda feel better and my wife and everyone else thinks today’s FMU line is darker than yesterday’s so I just need to wait. But damn why does it have to be this hard?

I know. It’s totally the worst feeling. I’ve got everything crossed for you!

[cactuscookie]

Go easy on yourself. Logic doesn't hold up much in the face of hope and fear and everything else that goes along with IF and PGAL. Of course you're going to test again today - everyone does. Of course you're going to worry if it's not getting darker. All of that is completely normal and doesn't make you stupid at all. Do whatever you need today to take care of yourself - even if that means some time crying on the couch.

[pickel]

seeyalater52, I hope you are able to enjoy the rest of the day and the weekend. Are you still having a beta on Sat?

[seeyalater52]

Nov 22, 2018 15:48:27 GMT -5 pickel said:

seeyalater52, I hope you are able to enjoy the rest of the day and the weekend. Are you still having a beta on Sat?

Yup, Saturday. Fingers crossed.


Thanks for the kind words you guys.

[seeyalater52]

TW loss





My line is barely there today. I can’t believe this is happening again. I feel numb.

[scm1011]

(((seeyalater52)))

I still think you should wait for beta before losing all hope, but I’m so sorry you’re in this awful and stressful limbo and that things don’t look more encouraging. It’s not fair. Sending love and positivity for a happy surprise tomorrow.

[icedcoffee]

Ugh—I really hope it’s just a shitty test and you get an amazing beta tomorrow. I’m sorry you’re not getting reassurance right now though. Huge hugs to you.

[pooh8402]

What the others said. You are pregnant today. Keep repeating that. And take care of yourself however you need too.

Big hugs to you.

[pickel]

It can feel devastating to see that line getting lighter and I’m so sorry. I am holding out hope that it’s just a wonky test and your beta goes well tomorrow. Lots of ((hugs))

[FishChicks]

((seeyalater52))

[woowoo]

(( seeyalater52,))

[G22]

So many hugs. You are still pregnant, you're not out yet. Praying and crossing everything for a good beta tomorrow!

[fairfax]

I’m sending all my good thoughts for a great beta!!

[pinkpeony08]

Thanking of you! I purposely tested every other day and only first morning urine to avoid myself having too much panic over it. And because I limited myself to first morning urine, once I went in the AM, it was over for the day.   Sending good wishes for our beta tomorrow.

[landmermaid]

((hugs))

I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. Good luck with your beta tomorrow. I hope it brings you good news.

[pickel]

Good luck today!! I am keeping my fingers crossed for a strong beta!

[woowoo]

seeyalater52, thinking of you today! Fingers are crossed!

[icedcoffee]

Sending good vibes today for good news!

[knx9211]

Thinking of you ❤️

[seeyalater52]

Well, it’s official. Beta is 8. They’re re-drawing just in case on Monday but that’s an official negative at my clinic.

They’re also drawing a karyotype on Monday and will do some RPL tests, immune testing, etc. once the hCG is fully out of my system and likely a mock cycle after we get those results. I feel so defeated.

[pooh8402]

I'm so sorry. Dammit.

[knx9211]

I am so sorry. It’s so unfair.

[scm1011]

Oh no, I'm so sorry. It's so so unfair. I hope the testing can bring some answers and a plan for a successful future. Huge hugs.

[konapoppy]

I am so sorry. Thinking of you.

[pinkpeony08]

So sorry.

[icedcoffee]

Shit. I’m so sorry. It is so unfair.

[fairfax]

I’m so so sorry. Huge hugs to you!

[centralsquare]

Fuck. I’m so so sorry.

IF is such a mindfuck. I’m sorry you’re going through it.

[G22]

I'm so sorry. ((Hugs))