BFP after RPL- loss confirmed- again genetics normal

[pinkpeony08]

Feb 6, 2020 12:44:53 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Oh Peonies/ What a hard update. I'm sure it's difficult to hope for the best with your history (don't I know it.) Also I really relate to what you said about work thinking you're an idiot for trying again... I get that impression sometimes from coworkers too and it sucks. Thinking of you and waiting for your beta update from today.

Thanks.  

[msmerymac]

I know it's so hard to stay hopeful, but I'm really crossing everything that this works out for you. <3

[achi]

Big hugs. I can only imagine how you mist feel right now. I will think positive for you.

[janegold]

Ugh, the uncertainty is so excruciating - hang in there. Thinking of you.

[icedcoffee]

Hang in there! I hope everything turns out well.

[pinkpeony08]

Beta bumped up to 11,000 today, so I'll take that as a good sign even though the sac size didn't increase much.

The RN gave me extra PIO there and did it too low in my butt, and it really hurts.

[pickel]

Screw what anyone else thinks! You all dealing with RPL are amazing! My fingers are crossed for you. Grow baby grow!

[pooh8402]

The beta is a good sign! Huge hugs to you!

[icedcoffee]

YAY! Sorry for the butt pain. PIO is the suck.

[pinkpeony08]

Ugh not a fan of the PIO.

It was a long, chaotic weekend of me on the couch and my husband doing everything. I hate not being able to help. Anxiously awaiting my appointment tomorrow.

[seeyalater52]

Feb 10, 2020 10:20:10 GMT -5 pinkpeony08 said:

Ugh not a fan of the PIO.

It was a long, chaotic weekend of me on the couch and my husband doing everything. I hate not being able to help. Anxiously awaiting my appointment tomorrow.

You must be going out of your mind. I know the waiting is so hard. Definitely let your husband pamper you. Thinking good thoughts for tomorrow.

[pinkpeony08]

Oh and the cleaning person who comes every other week.... just texted that she can't do this week. Of all weeks. Gah! My husband says he will clean, which I know he is capable of doing. But he is stretched thin right now with doing everything and now adding this! Thankfully we have no visitors coming or anything.

[cherryvalance]

Keeping my fingers crossed for you! I'm sorry, PIO pain is the worst.

[msmerymac]

Thinking of you today pinkpeony08.

[pinkpeony08]

Well, it wasn't what we were hoping for. There was a fetal pole, which wasn't there last week, though it's measuring a few days behind. The sac is very slightly larger than last week, but still behind. Not able to see a heartbeat. Measuring around 5w6d, and I am 6w4d. The bleed is clotted off. The clinic NP is not hopeful, she thinks this will not be viable. The US tech said she has seen this go either way, that sometimes the bleed slows down the growth and then it recovers and grows quickly. The NP recommended seeing my local OB later this week to follow up.

I know this is just the start of when you might be able to see a heartbeat. I'm pretty discouraged, but I've never been in this less than totally clear land because all my losses have been a lot later when it's obvious there was a heartbeat before and now it's gone. I don't know if I should ask to come in again late this week and again early next week before scheduling a d&c? I'm waiting to hear back from my local OB, who is not in clinic the rest of the week, but messaged me earlier this week saying he would see me whenever I needed to be seen.

Feeling pretty defeated and really feeling the unfairness of it all.

[seeyalater52]

I’m so sorry peony. That sounds very similar to what happened with my loss over the summer. The limbo is just so hard. I would definitely hold off on scheduling any procedures until you have another ultrasound later this week or next to confirm that status of things.

[starryfish]

pinkpeony08, i am so so sorry. When I had my loss last year, I scheduled one more ultrasound to make sure before I did my D&C. Big big hugs

[msmerymac]

Oh no, I'm so sorry. With my first loss, they monitored me until it was really sure that the development had basically reverted - there was a 100bpm heartbeat, and then at the next appointment it was just very faint, so that was a clear cut answer.

[pinkpeony08]

My OB just called me. He wants to wait until a week from today to do the ultrasound. He said it will be very clear then and is worried if we repeat at the end of this week, it still may not be certain. He's tentatively scheduling a d&c on Thursday next week. The wait will be hard, but waiting and then still not knowing would be harder I think. Will need to keep myself distracted. We are going up north with another family this weekend - I will likely be taking it easier than I would otherwise (planning to cross country ski and snow shoe), but it will be a good distraction. And the woman in the couple going had recurrent losses as well, so she will at least "get it." And I'm not sure I can spend another full weekend in my house after being on bedrest last weekend!

[kristind3]

I’m sorry you’re stuck in limbo and still no definitive answers. Lots of hugs to you.

[achi]

I’m so so so sorry that you’re in this limbo hell.

I’m glad that you’ll be able to get out of the house and be around people who have been where you are. Hopefully it will make this wait a tiny bit easier.

[joenali]

I’m so sorry. Take care of yourself. It’s good that you have another person to talk to about this.

[pinkpeony08]

My HCG dropped to 8000. I'm assuming there will be no change at the ultrasound on Tuesday from yesterday. I'm sad and angry and wonder if this is a separate issue because I have never had a loss so early.

It was implied that all the progesterone will keep me from miscarrying? Should I be keeping it on board so I don't miscarry over the weekend while I am up north with friends?

[achi]

I am so incredibly sorry.

With my last two miscarriages I stopped progesterone as soon as it had been concluded that the pregnancy was not viable and each time it still took my body a week to get things started.

[pinkpeony08]

Feb 12, 2020 12:12:14 GMT -5 achi said:

I am so incredibly sorry.

With my last two miscarriages I stopped progesterone as soon as it had been concluded that the pregnancy was not viable and each time it still took my body a week to get things started.

Thanks.  I'm also a bit annoyed that I can see via the external quest lab portal what my results are.  The NP has not sent the results and has not given me direction regarding the progesterone or any of the other meds.  I have only had missed miscarriages, all with d&cs because they were so late, there was a pretty high risk of me losing a lot of blood and needing to go to the ER for a d&c anyway.  I feel less prepared for what to expect.  The current plan is a d&c next week to ensure they get the tissue for genetic testing.  My OB was having them book it with the plan that we could cancel if there was magically growth and a heartbeat at the appointment.

[msmerymac]

Feb 12, 2020 12:07:45 GMT -5 pinkpeony08 said:

My HCG dropped to 8000. I'm assuming there will be no change at the ultrasound on Tuesday from yesterday. I'm sad and angry and wonder if this is a separate issue because I have never had a loss so early.

It was implied that all the progesterone will keep me from miscarrying? Should I be keeping it on board so I don't miscarry over the weekend while I am up north with friends?

I would, TBH. You never know.

[pinkpeony08]

Feb 12, 2020 12:26:58 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

Feb 12, 2020 12:07:45 GMT -5 pinkpeony08 said:

My HCG dropped to 8000. I'm assuming there will be no change at the ultrasound on Tuesday from yesterday. I'm sad and angry and wonder if this is a separate issue because I have never had a loss so early.

It was implied that all the progesterone will keep me from miscarrying? Should I be keeping it on board so I don't miscarry over the weekend while I am up north with friends?

I would, TBH. You never know.

I guess I would rather be safe than sorry, so maybe I'll just keep it up.  It's only a few more days.  I can't figure it out- sometimes the PIO makes me super sore and sometimes it is totally fine yet I do the same thing.  

[icedcoffee]

I am so sorry.

[pandora89]

I am so sorry

[janegold]

I'm so sorry.