I feel like I'm hanging on by a thread

[ProfessorArtNerd]

I apologize in advance for all the whining, but I just need to vent a bit.

Mom starts chemo round two next week. She's all about "one more time", presumably since she will be immune-compromised so she wants to go out. But she also said to me that she wants David to remember her as the one who was with him when he was blessed by the pope. Jesus, Eileen. Rip my heart out

My sister was pissed off bc mom, David and I went out to lunch today. She was at work, you guys. Like, seriously? We can't go out cause you're at work? That's ridiculous.

The kids are up my ass all day and night. Lucy needs speech therapy in addition to her regular counseling session at school, she's failing spelling and being a pain in the ass at dance. David is still reverse cycling so I'm up 3 times a night with him. He's also all over the place and I'm so tired.

Still have lots of grading to do

One more paycheck for h semester

H is bothering me about his school- fucking figure it out yourself.

We need another car

He keeps coming on to me and I'm touched out

There's more. So much shit. I'm overwhelmed and not handling life well and I'm driving myself nuts. I hate this. All of it

Anyway, thanks for listening. I can't talk about this IRL except to my therapist and I saw her yesterday :/

[meganew]

You are totally allowed to tell your sister and H to fuck off. You don't need their shit on top of an already full plate.

Big hugs, prof. <3

[Elsa]

Give me your sisters phone number. We need to have a fucking chat.

Can her school set up speech? So it's one less thing you have to do? I think my sisters got speech therapy in school when they were younger. For spelling- ask her teacher to work with her. Or give you ideas so you don't have to figure it out on your own. And dance should be over in a few weeks, right? Would you be open to telling her to shape up or you'll pull her?

Just give everyone in your class an A. They'll love you. Lol

And tell your H you'll put out when he fixes David's sleep schedule. Keep him awake more during the day, ahole and maybe you'd have the energy.

{{{profart}}}

[sallywalker]

I wish I was rich. I would buy you and the kids plane tickets to come spend a week at my house. The girls would play and entertain themselves. We could stay up late drinking wine and talking shit about life. And I would get up with D every night and let you sleep.

That's probably creepy. Lol.

[Mrs. ChanandlerBong]

Omg. Super big Internet stranger hugs and hair pats.

[scottyderp]

I'm sorry.  That is a lot; it's normal to feel tapped out.

FWIW, You still seem cool to me.

Keep pushing.  Cry.  Take time for you, even if it's an hour.  Get hugs from someone. Laugh, even if that means watching Tommy Boy with no pants on while eating vanilla pudding with cut-up bananas in it.  Not speaking from experience.

ox

[Monica Geller]

((Hugs)) any one of those things is enough to send a person to the brink...all together it's too much. I'm sorry. Vent away here anytime!

[Kit]

Oh man. That's a lot for one person. Huge, huge, hugs. It's ok to vent here, never apologize for that.

And also...your H has a lot of balls to keep coming on to you after all of his asshole behavior lately. I want to nut punch him for you.

[ProfessorArtNerd]

May 4, 2016 19:47:15 GMT -5 scottyderp said:

I'm sorry.  That is a lot; it's normal to feel tapped out.

FWIW, You still seem cool to me.

Keep pushing.  Cry.  Take time for you, even if it's an hour.  Get hugs from someone. Laugh, even if that means watching Tommy Boy with no pants on while eating vanilla pudding with cut-up bananas in it.  Not speaking from experience.

ox

Haha, Tommy Boy is a go-to, Scotts. I call David Tommy Boy all the time

[CurlyQ284]

I'm so sorry. That's really unfair for them to pile on you when you have enough going on. ((Hugs))

[papie]

I'm sorry you are struggling so much.  That's a lot to take at once.  (((hugs)))

[cinnamoncox0]

I'm so sorry things are piling on you so much
I feel so badly when I read how much you've got happening at once.
I hate so much that your h isn't there for you to support you when you need him and to pull his weight.
((Hugs)) I hope so very much that things improve for you very soon.
You're a very strong woman.

[bcv513]

I'm so sorry prof art

[kittyb]

You're not whining, life is hard right now. Don't apologize for letting stuff out! Your sister needs to get a grip, esp with everything you do for her and your parents.

I apologize- I think I missed what your H does. Is he in school and also works or does he teach as well? If he's in school, is he almost done?

[ProfessorArtNerd]

May 4, 2016 19:58:16 GMT -5 kittyb said:

You're not whining, life is hard right now. Don't apologize for letting stuff out! Your sister needs to get a grip, esp with everything you do for her and your parents.

I apologize- I think I missed what your H does. Is he in school and also works or does he teach as well? If he's in school, is he almost done?

He's not in school right now, but he was going to get his second bachelors in animation. He took a leave of absence. He's out of financial aid money though, and we can't really afford to pay oop. I was against this from the start so I just don't even care if he doesn't finish.

[lovelyshoes]

Hugs. Can you ask for any help from his family? That's too much to de with.

[yourmother]

I'm so sorry you have so much on your place. You have every right to go Tawanda!!!! on your sis and DH.

[spinnaker5]

More internet stranger hugs. Hope you can get some time to spend just on yourself, even if just a bubble bath with some wine or a few favorite GOT reruns.

[everyjuan]

Oh man. That's a lot of stuff to be on one person's plate. You're totally allowed to whine about sucky things.

The "woe is me" FOMO guilt trips piss me off like NOTHING else. Did you visualize yourself slapping her across the face? I might have.

*hugs* I'm really sorry you're having a rough time.

[elleblue]

*extra giant hugs* That is so much to deal with all at once. I'm sorry.

[rex]

you are not whining, you have so much on your plate. I am sorry

[cville]

You've got so much, and so much of it is emotional. You're entitled any venting you want.

[HiC]

I'm sorry my friend. You have a lot on your plate. We're here for you. xo

[killercupcake]

GODDAMMIT STEPHANIE.

I'm sorry Profart. I wish I could pet your head while feeding you booze and junk food.

[frkls]

you are a total warrior. just keep fighting.

every time you talk about your sister, i picture her looking kinda like a ridiculous family guy character.

you are doing an amazing job! i'm sending huge hugs!

[Deleted]

I'm sorry, big hugs.  Some people tolerate chemo better than others, how did she do the first time?  It's a lot to deal with.  Be good to yourself.  

[rosiebear]

Omg, that's just so much. Vent away and know that we want to help if we can. You are doing an amazing job, even if you think you're not. Hugs.

[puddleofgrace]

Hang in there, hon.

[cleo29]

You have so much on your plate. I think your H needs to step back from school, get a job with regular day time hours so that you all, as a family, are on the same schedule.

I think your sister is misdirecting her fear and sadness about your mom at you and I am sorry for that.

Hang in there, doll. I am happy to listen anytime you need to vent. xoxo

[fryjack2]

I'm sorry prof.

I hope venting here helps in even a small way.