One thing I forgot to add, since you are having trouble keeping things down...
Have you tried grape juice? It sounds so weird, but it was one of the only things my dad could keep down when he was going through intense chemo while fighting leukemia. Maybe you could try it to see if it helps you? I know that he said chemo always made everything taste weird to him and metallic-y.
It makes ccomplete sense that you are angry. Maybe there are some more realistic support groups out there? Sometimes you need the optimistic do gooders, the Pollyanna types, sometimes you just need to bitch and rage about this massive pile of shit that life has thrown at you this year. I am truly sorry for all that you are going through and juggling currently and I do hope you find some ways of coping with all the side effects and crap the cancer and chemo are dumping on you right now.
I know what you mean about some support groups just feeling fake.
Don't tell me that everything is going to be ok. Because it's not. I'd rather we talk about the reality of all this shit, and maybe throw in a little gallows humor.
There are times when life just really fucking sucks. This is one of those times. You go ahead and be miserable if you want to.
One thing I forgot to add, since you are having trouble keeping things down...
Have you tried grape juice? It sounds so weird, but it was one of the only things my dad could keep down when he was going through intense chemo while fighting leukemia. Maybe you could try it to see if it helps you? I know that he said chemo always made everything taste weird to him and metallic-y.
I like your idea- this was one of our GoTo's for tum aches growing up. (Maybe go white grape juice to lessen staining possibilities, His)
I am in your neck of the woods this weekend. Do you need anything?
Thank you so much, but I don't need anything.
Our youngest son is coming for the weekend (they live downstate) so I'll get to see our granddaughter and being around my babies is the best thing for me.
One thing I forgot to add, since you are having trouble keeping things down...
Have you tried grape juice? It sounds so weird, but it was one of the only things my dad could keep down when he was going through intense chemo while fighting leukemia. Maybe you could try it to see if it helps you? I know that he said chemo always made everything taste weird to him and metallic-y.
I like your idea- this was one of our GoTo's for tum aches growing up. (Maybe go white grape juice to lessen staining possibilities, His)
The only thing that really helps is time. One of the other side effects I get is that when I eat food, I get this super intense feeling in my jaw, like when you eat something really sour. I have to crew my food with my front teeth to avoid it going on my molars which triggers the feelings in my jaw.
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I know what you mean about some support groups just feeling fake.
Don't tell me that everything is going to be ok. Because it's not. I'd rather we talk about the reality of all this shit, and maybe throw in a little gallows humor.
There are times when life just really fucking sucks. This is one of those times. You go ahead and be miserable if you want to.
OMG yes.
Not one single person on that group looked upset or angry. Everyone was all perky and bouncy and smiling from ear to ear.
I might have to form my own group where we can scream and swear and hit a punching bag or break shit while drinking bourbon and smoking.
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Post by foundmylazybum on Oct 21, 2016 15:55:09 GMT -5
I'm so sorry his. It sounds like given all you are going through your thoughts and emotions make a lot of sense. I admire that you take each moment and day as it comes..good or challenging. I'm sending out hope that tomorrow is easier.
Hugs! You know this already but it's perfectly normal and ok to feel what you feel. I'm not going through anything nearly as serious as you are (Crohns and gastroparesis) and there are still days that I want to throw things and break things and cry myself to sleep. My H does the same things to me with the eat/ drink something. It's maddening but try and remember that your H feels helpless and doesn't know what else to do.
You got this! We are always here when you need us!
Post by spitforspat on Oct 21, 2016 18:16:38 GMT -5
Oh man, I'm so sorry. What a mindfuck.
But, if my spouse were sick and needed help cleaning up their crap, I would help them. And your DH would, too. And your daughter. And a million other people. So let them help - they want to.
I'm so sorry chica. You have every right to be furious. I think anyone in a similar situation would be raging. It's not fair that your life has been completely skewed. Vent at anytime.